Hello, it's me again.
My scales died and I was stupid enough to think I can gauge my weight but the clothes I wore and what I saw in the mirror. It was only when I could see a double chin and my clothes were getting tight, even my big clothes and there's nothing else I could wear, that was even slightly flattering,that I thought oh I better check my weight.
So I got out the scales that I bought many months ago but were too frightened to get on, because I knew they needed to be calibrated to one person or another, but I ignored them and got at my old scales but I tried to put batteries in my old scales and they just didn't work even with new batteries, so I was brave and picked up the new scales the ones I thought would be difficult to use and they were very very straightforward and they tell me that I am
17 stone 4.5 ounces
In some way that is terrible, this time last year before I had my gallbladder out, I had managed to get down to 15 stone then over the summer I put on the stone during the summer holidays and I thought I had got the hang of losing weight again but obviously I haven't. I have noticed over the last three or four months that I've been getting bigger and bigger and I knew I had to stop so today I have stopped.
Today I have stopped. And I'm going to have to do some hard manoeuvering to get the bus to go in the right direction I know the things that help me are having low-carb, high-protein, small meals, more drinks like lemon ginger and peppermint tea, having no calorie cream soda and Ginger beer. Starting later in the day eating only around midday up to 1 or 2 PM in the afternoon, saving my calories for the rest of the day.
I know my biggest downfall is sweet things and I do binge I'd like to think I don't but to be honest I do if there is a packet of biscuits in the house I will eat for five if I covered in chocolate I probably ate most of the packet, not all at once.... but go and get a couple go do something else come back an hour later all day with my again. This is been my pattern of eating for many months and I need to get a handle on it. I either eat with abandon or I do very low calorie diet and is bonkers.... I need to get a middle ground when I realised when they're all nice things in the house I don't remember, I don't even think about what's going on in my mouth and it starts early on in the day and it isn't a binge so I don't think that my brain recognises what I'm doing.
I know what every diet I choose to do I have to radically reduce about to sweet things, I consume on a daily basis. I also have to consider only having alcohol on the weekends, it's become a bit of a habit to have a glass of wine, it's not out of control but I used to almost drink nothing, now it's at least a bottle of wine a week and I know that's not a great deal, but actually it goes up to 2 bottles of wine and maybe a couple of shots of Rum it's not every night but it's getting more overdependence than it was before and they're empty calories.
New rules
1) weighing myself every day until I get down to 16 stone
2) doing some sort of exercise every day, it's nice outside now I can take my exercise bike put it in the studio and look at the Internet there whilst on the iPad. I've done that before it worked really well
3) eat later in the day and start your day with just black coffee and peppermint tea, it helps to have the eating in the small window of time, say from about midday to 6 or 7pm
4) if I can do it eat your first protein rich meal at 2 PM in the afternoon
5) if I'm going to do a very low calorie diet day I will use the products I still have in the boxes under my bed which will mean 600 cal and three items I'm going to try and do one of those days of every week, if I can't I'll mix-and-match with a protein pot - eggs Adami beans and a very low calorie bar I'm going to try and keep my calories to somewhere between 800 and 1200 cal
there will be days where it will go over but I'm going to be aiming to lose between two and 3 pounds a week. And I know I've done this countless times before, when I went to the last very low calorie diet and lost two stone really easily and I only had to stop because my gallbladder was about to explode I had to have an operation. I had every intention of staying to lower calorie high protein low carb I found it really hard but I know that when I did it when I was doing a very low calorie diet I kept to about 800 cal a day and that was with the protein bars and shakes the occasional ham salad chicken salad egg salad on the side, with 800 cal a day I was losing about 3 pound a week and it was fairly consistent and it didn't seem like hard work once I got into it. Once I am in key ptosis I don't find giving up sugar that hard.
But it's breaking the addiction to sugar in the first place. I know I have to go cold turkey .
I know I have to not have it on my palate in my stomach in my diet for at least five or six days for me to get into ketosis and when I get into ketosis ..... it's like a bloody miracle I can turn away from the food that I like, I eat the food to the good for me, my mood is good, I feel in control, the weight falls off
so the bottom line sugar is always my problem has always been my problem.
Cold turkey it is then.
I can already feel a headache coming on, not having my usual sugar rush in the morning
but I'm going to counteract that, I'm going to take a painkiller, I'm going to have some coffee with no milk in, I'm going to go back to the shops and get some peppermint tea and I won't eat until midday and I will keep coming back here to put my thoughts down even if it's just me up
Am 17.5
Next stop 17
Long term goal= 12 stone, no more or less. Weighing on a Thursday
Week 0 =17.5
Week. 1 =
