When I went to class the last time round, about 4 years ago I was frequently SOTW - partly because I had a LOT to lose - I was almost 26 stone - and partly because I tried bloody hard to lose weight, sticking to the plan and exercising. Most people in my group were genuinely lovely, but unfortunately a few used to snipe a lot about me, on the "oh here we go, her again", "lucky cow" etc etc etc.
This time round Im doing it at home on my own so there's none of this stupid competition and nastiness. SOTW is supposed to be a reward to people who have done well, at most an incentive or aid to motivate people - its not a bloody competition. Im not sure its a good idea at all as it's not a very logical way of rewarding very different people who have very different goals and very different journeys they've got to make to meet them. I used to sort of feel ashamed when I *did* get SOTW as if Id been too successful or didn't deserve it or something. I guess we're all different but for me it was often a relief *not* to win it.
I dont really understand feeling intimidated that you "haven't done well enough" when you don't win it?
That sound more like you yourself see it as a competition and are upset when other people
do "outdo" you and you're still seeking some kind of reward or acknowledgment for what you have achieved that week, even if it's occasionally not as much as what that weeks SOTW has.
Sorry if I've misinterpreted anything. Sheesh, looking back at it I hated the competitiveness and Im kind of glad to be back here doing it online on my own
