ok. It's official. I just can't seem to do this anymore. I want to. i really really do. I am in at least 3-4 different vicious circles of failure
with CD/SS.
"I'll eat anything and everything today and start clean tomorrow"
"Oh, i nibble a little earlier, so the dieting day is ruined. may as well eat everything again today and restart tomorrow."
or
*after a few days of SS, i eff it all up and am not able to talk myself OUT of eating.
*i will tell myself it's "ok" to nibble on no/low carb foods.
*and ALMOST always, i want to eat and stuff my face late at night, when i'm so so tired. and sometimes, it's almost as though i'm "sleep-eating".
I can't talk to my husband about it because i almost feel it's very black&white to him. He says: You can eat regular food if you want, but you're stopping the diet if you do...i'm not paying for it if you cheat..."
blah blah blah. SOOOoooo easy to say when you're a guy who finds eating food an inconvenience and can eat whatever chocolate/biscuits/take-aways he likes without
really having to worry so much. Naturally, he will never understand this life hurdle of weight. He's a smoker and had tried to quit a few times. I try and relate it to him in that sense. My addiction is food. His, nicotine. I bring it to his attention his craving for it and suggest he considers my addiction as well.
so i kinda only have MiniMins to use as a listening ear. (and for this, i am grateful)
i have been reading through MM over the last couple days and i know i'm not alone in my eating problems and allll these rolling emotions. If i was, then i'd be the only one here, right?
i am thinking that my best way to get back into SS and ketosis is to try Sassy's plan. So i'd like to "step my way" back into it instead of going cold turkey and caving to the overwhelming cravings and "food-shock" that our bodies go through.
I don't seem to have my yellow CD book..probably binned it after the last time i was on CD/SS (successfully! i might add).
Is there anywhere here on MM that will give me the lists of foods i can eat for each calorie step? i would just ask my CDC for another but she lives ages away and i don't wanna fuss for a delivery of just that. AND i don't want to give myself yet another excuse to wait another day to start.
Soooo, on that note, anyone got the lists of avail foods? Whatever you have will be MOST appreciated. I'm so far into desperation, it's unreal.