Day: God only knows. It doesnt matter anymore. I am now released from the baby steps routine. I can say with certainty that i will get through today 100%. I can plan ahead. Now i understand the challenges you guys do which before were a significant source of stress for me. I thought "how can you plan beyond the next hour?". Well i am now well and truly on exante and i feel balanced within. My moods are stable and i am no longer depressed or feeling guilty. I dont wake up with painful joints anymore. I have a lot more energy and i have this little buzz within like you get when you have a good secret. I think that buzz, that tiny bud of excitement that i might really really do this, is what is keeping me going. More than anything i dont want to lose that buzz. That hope. Failure just isnt an option anymore.
This morning i reached my QUARTER WAY POINT. i weighed in at 15 st 6 3/8th lbs. 1/8th of a lb below my quarter way mark. The beginning is over. Now i want to take giant steps instead of baby steps so i am starting a new diary called "Giant Steps". My new goal is the half way mark. How goddam exciting.
Belle