Watergirl
Rock Solid
Thanks Curly and Caroline for all the support and info on 1000, but I can't do it at the moment.
As you know yesterday I was upset because although I was 100% nothing was happening.
I posted a while ago about depression/anxiety and last night it all got a bit much for me and for the first time I had an unplanned cheat. Nothing too major, but I've reached the end of my tether.
I've got an appointment with my dr's this morning at 10:20 to go back on my antidepressants and I am going back on SS. I don't feel strong enough to introduce food just yet and am too far from goal, that it's made me panic, which has just made my anxiety spiral out of control. The more anxious I get the more I get unwanted, upsetting thoughts, so I need to deal with it.
Last night in bed I had a panic attack and I fell asleep feeling my heart pounding and woke up feeling the same. I'm at the point where I'm feeling completely debilated and won't be able to work if I don't do something.
So I might not be around as much if the tablets make me sleepy, which they generally do for the first couple of weeks.
Am hoping that I'll feel happier again when I'm back on SS and taking something to control the anxiety.
Thanks for everyone's advice on the depression thread a while ago - faith you suggested Cipralex, so will ask dr about that instead of Citalopram which I was on.
Sorry for long, self-indulgent post!
As you know yesterday I was upset because although I was 100% nothing was happening.
I posted a while ago about depression/anxiety and last night it all got a bit much for me and for the first time I had an unplanned cheat. Nothing too major, but I've reached the end of my tether.
I've got an appointment with my dr's this morning at 10:20 to go back on my antidepressants and I am going back on SS. I don't feel strong enough to introduce food just yet and am too far from goal, that it's made me panic, which has just made my anxiety spiral out of control. The more anxious I get the more I get unwanted, upsetting thoughts, so I need to deal with it.
Last night in bed I had a panic attack and I fell asleep feeling my heart pounding and woke up feeling the same. I'm at the point where I'm feeling completely debilated and won't be able to work if I don't do something.
So I might not be around as much if the tablets make me sleepy, which they generally do for the first couple of weeks.
Am hoping that I'll feel happier again when I'm back on SS and taking something to control the anxiety.
Thanks for everyone's advice on the depression thread a while ago - faith you suggested Cipralex, so will ask dr about that instead of Citalopram which I was on.
Sorry for long, self-indulgent post!