You're not a failure, Beki. It sounds like you've succeeded at a lot of things, it's just that circumstances have meant you've retraced your steps and had to redo the work. Happens to a lot of us, trust me. And while I'm in favor of weight loss surgery I think the band is one of those ones that is a lot harder than it looks and you really need to get lucky to get it working perfectly for you. You sound determined to do this and that's all you need, I'm sure you'll do great.
not a failure...you have 2 lovely children and i trust a successful life in other ways.
losing some weight would make you feel better, i know, been up and down several times, several ways, like you.
atkins is different, it does work, but can't be played with, stick with us and we will help you stick with it!
You aren't a failure, lovie, you're human like the rest of us! You will love Atkins - drink lots of water (as much as you can and then more) and try to keep your menu simple - I find that's what works for me.