Belle's Journey

Week 8-again

Woke up, wrote down my dreaming memories- to do with discipline, made my green tea and wore my big pink fluffy dressing gown, went to the kitchen and weighed ( was under a mile ‘stone’ J )and now to review and post.

I re arranged my bedroom yesterday and what a difference it makes to my ‘flow’ on first waking.


Got the news letter from Mike Scott yesterday and I really enjoyed the quote. What would you do if you could do things 10% better? (I read this as 10% more efficient)

My answer was
Get more sleep, drink more warm water and keep my walking clothes in the bedroom. Out of the pink fluffy dressing gown in the mean streets walking gear.

[FONT=&quot] I still have 8 weeks before I get on that plane and I would love to be half way there, weight lost wise, but I am having difficulty in finding my key motivation.[/FONT]

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It’s not health, appearance or ‘showing them’. It would be nice to be able to breathe and not feel if folk laugh that they are laughing at me.

I think my motivation is peace. To cease the war within. And I want that peace now, so whatever I do in the day is an expression of that peace.

Perhaps in part that is why I changed the bedroom, so that I had a space to meditate more easily and that I could switch the kettle on for my green tea without getting out of bed. I have a big bunch of yellow roses by my bed as well. by the way ( marks and Spencer sell the longest lasting roses. all the rest are rubbish, even waistrose roses wilt after about 4 days).


Anyhow strategy wise I am going to move my walking gear to the bedroom as well, so that I don’t have to think about it...cos it seems to me that first thing upon waking is a crucial time to set up myself in the day either for success or going round in circles.
 
Week 8

Things to get me through the week 8

This is so true for me

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Week 8

Belles' Author of the week-

Miss Judith!:bliss:

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and now for something more meaty as I get dressed. I actually have the book the intention experiement , though I would prefer the audio. What is my intention over the next 3 days..............powermode.

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I am so busy, that this is the first moment to post, not good..that's how things begin to slip. Anyway I have been thinking about this process as a game of chess .

And that I am still setting up my pieces. I asjed myself when, then do I get to opening moves

when I am */10 or below I and have strong ketones both.

Fascinating

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Another busy busy day,so far everythings alright but the water, m ore water would make my life easier.

All the same , nothing to complain about and a lot to feel pleased about

Inspirational woman of the day


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*/9 and strong ketones. That means setting up is complete and opening moves are about to commence. I don't have a game plan , I am aware of that. So today is about that, looking to see, what I really want out of life because what I am about, isn't about the diet.

Inspirational woman of the day- Barbara Sher

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Hi belle

Just wanted to post - keep up the good work and interesting diary you have there :) Very creative :))

Amber
 
Opening moves.

Ok seriously what is this phase about?

On paper, or on the scales I want to get from */10 to */10 by the time I go on holiday by the end of next month. So, that’s the theory. And on a superficially practical level it’s doable if I stick to the packs and water.

But getting to that goal is not going to be about packs and water, because eating the way I have been has always been about addressing something that I haven’t wanted, been able to, or been ware of the importance of listening to or paying attention to. It’s an intuitive place, this corssroads, and definitely not a place for high fives and feeling affirmed by the scales. I hate that stuff.




In opening moves all I feel is that I want to keep my eyes wide open and pay attention to stuff coming up.

I am so surprised at myself, I don’t feel rah rah rah aboutthis at all. I don’t feel pumped up and I don’t want to be. I want steady and smooth.

Opening moves- this phase is about me finding out exactly what a life less ordinary would be about for me. I have lots of books on technique, lots of seminars I could go to, hell there is even another free ( if you don’t mind all the selling) 3 day seminar coming up soon in London and others that are quite cheap.

But as I was listening to babara sher, it’ true, what she said, first you have to decide or find out what I really really want. :rolleyes:


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so busy, too busy, but best to keep busy. I haven't reached the point of enjoying this, but getting through 'opening moves' will be a great phase to complete.

Who is inspirational for me today....


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Saturday review week 7

Saturday 6 Feb 2010

I have just made some strawberry Cambridge diet jelly, not strictly Cambridge diet way which is to make it with mix-a-mousse, which didn't work for me at all.


I have mixed it with this 10 cal, Hartley jelly powder.


Its more like a strawberry blancmange that a mouse. A big pyrex jug the way I make it, 160 cals.



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I'm not doing Cambridge exactly by the book I found that wasn't giving me the slight flexibility that they needed however I would say that I'm mainly Cambridge and certainly under 500 cal a day and that really is the most important thing.

One thing I noticed is that my ketone colour is more variable sometimes-light pink at times dark purple but mainly medium pink.

I now that as I've moved into opening moves that I really want to knuckle down and power mode to the next phase. I know that it isn't about the food and I know it isn't about the eating. I also know it isn't about Cambridge diet one-way of the other, nor is it about 500 cal a day.



In part, this is about the life I want to live and what I really want to do that has meaning to me and to be honest about the things that I used to stop myself and the all things, which have genuinely been a hindrance.

I have a woman who works with me at times and last week she was telling me that she saw me as an inspiration. I actually didn't like that at all. I kept my distance from her. She was a little bit of a drain she's the type of person who has difficulty making a decision one-way or the other. Right now being around anybody who looks up to me is like being around deadweight. This may change later in life but right now I don't need the baggage.
 
One thing that I am aware of is that I can't think beyond one week at a time. I can look at the week and decide I need to do XY and Z. I want to put everything I have into that. But that's about it. I think that living 'week to week' and thinking of this program week to week is the correct perspective for me.



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Sunday Thoughts



I love Sundays, not because it's the day before I begin work, but because I don't have to be anywhere I don't want to. It is also the day I often go to a museum. Actually I'd love it to be something that I'd do every week. I'd love to go swimming then go to the museum most Sundays


During the week I often watch the rush hour .I'm not quite part of it but I do watch that mass of people, especially over London Bridge, with fascination and horror. I wonder how can anybody live that way. At the same time I recognise that many are going to jobs that they love and jobs that they do quite well.

I want that type of intensity and industry and putting in hours myself but I wanted it in pursuit of something that really matters to me. It's true I can't just be another cog in the machinery, another player in the system.


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My flat is too cold at the moment I hate the cold. It prevents me from getting out of bed when I should and when I want to. Taking care of my life. Taking care of my body. Taking care of my flat .Taking care of my finances .Taking care of the direction in which I'm going in my life .Taking care that I'm paying attention to the things that matter to me . Getting rid of the excess weight -all the things ,places ,people that don't have any meaning to me. Nourishing myself with what matters.
 
Come on Belle, go out and do something, life favours those who move...don't be boring

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its a beautiful day

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Ok, I'm out the door , laters peps

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