bellefrogette
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Belle's Journey
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Wednesay
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bellefrogette
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Miss Susan Sarandon.
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loving me, loving you.
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bellefrogette
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Inspirational woman of the day - Maya Angelou.
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bellefrogette
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I am rather pleased with the choices I made yesterday
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loving you loving me
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loving you loving me
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what is on my mind
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Inspirational person
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amberstone
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Hi belle,
keep up your good work
Amber
keep up your good work
Amber
bellefrogette
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'Sweet but scatty' wrote me a very ‘sweet’ email and I wavered for a moment. Perhaps I had been harsh, and without her assistance I will need to take up the extra work load.
But two things.
1. This program is not about eating, over eating CD Slim fast or ketosis, it’s about how well I can take care of and pay attention to myself , my feelings, my values, my priorities. It’s precisely because I have not listened to myself that I get overly emotional and overeat. Sweet and scatty is actually not sweet and scatty, she is girly –childlike and unprofessional and needs constant monitoring and refocusing. I am not her ****ing mother.I don't need the weight of her.I refuse it.
2. Doing extra work is good for me. Its means another 2 hours a day of pretty mundane stuff, but I can listen to an audio book while I am doing it and drink green tea. And my psychological space is not being invaded by this girl-woman and her constant trivial conversation and giggles. Being with her was enough to make me feel I needed a tray of dunkin donuts.
Book I am reading at the moment
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But two things.
1. This program is not about eating, over eating CD Slim fast or ketosis, it’s about how well I can take care of and pay attention to myself , my feelings, my values, my priorities. It’s precisely because I have not listened to myself that I get overly emotional and overeat. Sweet and scatty is actually not sweet and scatty, she is girly –childlike and unprofessional and needs constant monitoring and refocusing. I am not her ****ing mother.I don't need the weight of her.I refuse it.
2. Doing extra work is good for me. Its means another 2 hours a day of pretty mundane stuff, but I can listen to an audio book while I am doing it and drink green tea. And my psychological space is not being invaded by this girl-woman and her constant trivial conversation and giggles. Being with her was enough to make me feel I needed a tray of dunkin donuts.
Book I am reading at the moment
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bellefrogette
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Review week 7.
I began at */9 and to day I am */12... The only thing I can say I have done different is that I have had very little physical activity. And I feel incredibly bloated and yet I do have faint ketones.
But it pushes me back into setting up. I have set the bar at */7 to get back into opening moves which is lower than it was last time.
This week, the most important thing I did apart from giving a presentation, buying some beautiful rugs for the front room (I was fed up of having cold feet) and rearranging my away from home work space so I could actually work was saying goodbye to the unprofessional girl-woman who has been working with me for 5 months, What took me so long was that I did not want to cause her offence because I saw a type of sweetness in her.
Ha sweetness, like sugar, empty calories.
There is a day long at my local Buddhist centre I would really love to go to, but my works space at home is slightly ‘not working’ its also cold in there still, the wind is coming in through some crack I can’t find and it probably that I do need a heater to make the room usable and delightful.
I’ll go back to the CDC when I have finished my slim fast. I flirted with the idea of O/A and realised I can’t stand the pain , sorrow, pity me, and all the emotionality that these groups involve and to be frank I don’t buy into the basic tenet of the movement .is labelling oneself as an over eater.
My main short coming this week was the lack of physical activity.And not getting enough sleep or water.
All the same, well done me.
Now for the week ahead.. I have 6 weeks till I go on holiday.
I began at */9 and to day I am */12... The only thing I can say I have done different is that I have had very little physical activity. And I feel incredibly bloated and yet I do have faint ketones.
But it pushes me back into setting up. I have set the bar at */7 to get back into opening moves which is lower than it was last time.
This week, the most important thing I did apart from giving a presentation, buying some beautiful rugs for the front room (I was fed up of having cold feet) and rearranging my away from home work space so I could actually work was saying goodbye to the unprofessional girl-woman who has been working with me for 5 months, What took me so long was that I did not want to cause her offence because I saw a type of sweetness in her.
Ha sweetness, like sugar, empty calories.
There is a day long at my local Buddhist centre I would really love to go to, but my works space at home is slightly ‘not working’ its also cold in there still, the wind is coming in through some crack I can’t find and it probably that I do need a heater to make the room usable and delightful.
I’ll go back to the CDC when I have finished my slim fast. I flirted with the idea of O/A and realised I can’t stand the pain , sorrow, pity me, and all the emotionality that these groups involve and to be frank I don’t buy into the basic tenet of the movement .is labelling oneself as an over eater.
My main short coming this week was the lack of physical activity.And not getting enough sleep or water.
All the same, well done me.
Now for the week ahead.. I have 6 weeks till I go on holiday.
bellefrogette
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Week 6-week ahead
I woke to an ice cold flat and a warm valentines email. Himself has just lost 21 lbs !:heartpump: He's joined a gym and signed up for a 10 week training programme :character00115:. So my concerns the last time round have borne fruit.:clap:
Also it means on this holiday trip we both have a similar focus, the gym is small new gay focused boutique gym I noticed being fitted out when last I travelled out. Given how close we are its makes a huge difference for us to be focussed in the same direction.
I am off on the residential on Monday till Friday. I might even come back on Saturday. No one is forcing me to go, yet I feel strangely put out. Ah well.
The food there is pretty awful and even in autumn its cold. Right now I am expecting it to be freezing; I am packing my kettle and chilli sauce.
Goal for the week, keep warm, very warm and not eat the rubbish that is served up where I am going.I am taking meat, cauliflower and brocolli- CD 801 ish-or rather slimfast 801ish.
Yesterday I was creating more play lists for my ipods and listening to Sting
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Much better vids Here
Inspirational person of the day
Ayaan Hirsi Ali- for sheer courage for speaking up despite the threats to her life .
some women are brave.
I woke to an ice cold flat and a warm valentines email. Himself has just lost 21 lbs !:heartpump: He's joined a gym and signed up for a 10 week training programme :character00115:. So my concerns the last time round have borne fruit.:clap:
Also it means on this holiday trip we both have a similar focus, the gym is small new gay focused boutique gym I noticed being fitted out when last I travelled out. Given how close we are its makes a huge difference for us to be focussed in the same direction.
I am off on the residential on Monday till Friday. I might even come back on Saturday. No one is forcing me to go, yet I feel strangely put out. Ah well.
The food there is pretty awful and even in autumn its cold. Right now I am expecting it to be freezing; I am packing my kettle and chilli sauce.
Goal for the week, keep warm, very warm and not eat the rubbish that is served up where I am going.I am taking meat, cauliflower and brocolli- CD 801 ish-or rather slimfast 801ish.
Yesterday I was creating more play lists for my ipods and listening to Sting
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Much better vids Here
Inspirational person of the day
Ayaan Hirsi Ali- for sheer courage for speaking up despite the threats to her life .
some women are brave.
quizzicalgrrl
Posting Mad!
Good Morning Miss Belle,
Thank you for posting on my tam thread. I have spent some time reading through your blog here. It resonates with me.
For some reason, you come across in the written word as an American (like me!) and your references with O/A speak to me from my life years ago in America.
You indicate that you live in London, as I do. A vibrant city bursting with opportunity but very chaotic as well.
Cleaning is my bane and salvation, I crave order.
We will get there xxx
Thank you for posting on my tam thread. I have spent some time reading through your blog here. It resonates with me.
For some reason, you come across in the written word as an American (like me!) and your references with O/A speak to me from my life years ago in America.
You indicate that you live in London, as I do. A vibrant city bursting with opportunity but very chaotic as well.
Cleaning is my bane and salvation, I crave order.
We will get there xxx
bellefrogette
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There is a God, I am so not alone
First sign of trouble I light a candle and start cleaning .Sometimes I even run the water!
quizzicalgrrl
Posting Mad!
I think the candles help. Clears negative energy and leaves something postive xx
bellefrogette
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Oh ****, this morning I feel like a moody
Must be a month long pre menstral slump or just human nature
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Inspirational mega-person of the day
Must be a month long pre menstral slump or just human nature
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Inspirational mega-person of the day
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bellefrogette
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Now Belle (wagging finger at self) doesn’t be a spineless wuss, Power mode through the plateau and the moodiness, its all par for the course and remember the real ’biggest loser ' is the one who quits on herself , on her dream and on her ability to achieve her hearts desires.
Got it?
Got it.
Now, you go girl and keep on keeping on. And you won't eat the crap at the residential because you are not crap..
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Got it?
Got it.
Now, you go girl and keep on keeping on. And you won't eat the crap at the residential because you are not crap..
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quizzicalgrrl
Posting Mad!
yes! no eating crap!
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