I finally had enough, I was tired of pretending my weight didn't bother me. I decided the only person that was going to fix this problem was myself. I was always the Joker like when I was at family functions and someone would offer me cake I would be like look at me does it look like I would pass up cake? and everyone would laugh. I felt like this way they would think I was comfortable with being fat! When really, it was slowly killing me inside.
The thing that really made me snap was going to yet another family function and My sister in law who in my opinion is Fine not over weight but not too skinny either started the Special "K" diet and she looked fantastic, she looked very toned and I actually dreaded having to stand next to her for yet another summer as she rocked an adorable bikini as I walk around in jeans and t-shirt sweating trying to pretend the summer time heat does not bother me.
So I went out bought a wii and wii active. I figured it was a start it gets me motivated enough to where I am not sitting around dwelling on my weight but actually doing something about it. From there I plan on joining a gym but that won't come until my first goal of getting down to 190lbs..I am currently 218lbs. (it feels good to actually say how much I weigh I feel like I have already overcome such a huge hurdle actually coming to grips with the actual number) I am going to do a whole new lifestyle change drinking more water, eating proper meals, more fruits, veggies and smaller portions of everything. I have not told anyone in my family apart from my husband that I am on this diet. I don't want anyone to really know. I don't want the opinions and outside imput from people that DON'T have weight issues and don't really understand what a true struggle this is.
Day One:
Drank 64 oz of water
Did wii active in the morning (Med Impact)
Ate a small leafy green salad.
Did some housework.
Had two carrots for snack.
Did wii active again in the afternoon. (Med Impact)
Had Tuna on wheat for dinner.
and went to bed earlier than I usually do trying to get a goodnights rest.
The thing that really made me snap was going to yet another family function and My sister in law who in my opinion is Fine not over weight but not too skinny either started the Special "K" diet and she looked fantastic, she looked very toned and I actually dreaded having to stand next to her for yet another summer as she rocked an adorable bikini as I walk around in jeans and t-shirt sweating trying to pretend the summer time heat does not bother me.
So I went out bought a wii and wii active. I figured it was a start it gets me motivated enough to where I am not sitting around dwelling on my weight but actually doing something about it. From there I plan on joining a gym but that won't come until my first goal of getting down to 190lbs..I am currently 218lbs. (it feels good to actually say how much I weigh I feel like I have already overcome such a huge hurdle actually coming to grips with the actual number) I am going to do a whole new lifestyle change drinking more water, eating proper meals, more fruits, veggies and smaller portions of everything. I have not told anyone in my family apart from my husband that I am on this diet. I don't want anyone to really know. I don't want the opinions and outside imput from people that DON'T have weight issues and don't really understand what a true struggle this is.
Day One:
Drank 64 oz of water
Did wii active in the morning (Med Impact)
Ate a small leafy green salad.
Did some housework.
Had two carrots for snack.
Did wii active again in the afternoon. (Med Impact)
Had Tuna on wheat for dinner.
and went to bed earlier than I usually do trying to get a goodnights rest.
I was very proud of myself for that! I am going to do this! That's all I keep telling myself This will happen!! I am just going to take it one day at a time. 
