hey petal, first of all take a deeeeeeeep breath, relax and realise that you CAN do this. get yourself a journal dedicated especailly to your weight loss, and write down all the things you hate about that extra weight that you have to carry round, for me i was sick of not getting any male attention, i used avoid social events even going to the pub with friends cuz i wouldnt know whatt to wear and so id go shopping for someting and end up in tears with a pair of pants stuck halfway up my thighs whilst my head was stuck in some floaty big top i was trying to hide the lumps and bumps in, but one thing i realised is i used to envy all those skinny friends i had and would complain whilst i devoured my way through some fattening thing or another that it wasnt fair that all those thin people are that way naturally til i opened up my eyes and realised that hang on, no theyre not, they have to watch what they eat too nearly every single person on this planet has to watch what they eat, its up to you to decide if your gonna do this, do this for you cuz you deserve it, or if your just gonna lay back and continue the way your going knowing that its not just unhealthy but soul destroying too. then on a new blank page write down why you want to lose the weight, health, to feel good about yourself etc. NO ONE can do this for you, you have to do it yourself, and why should you wait??? if you start now then that means today is the last day youl ever be this weight, if you start now youl never be this heavy again, by starting now your on the road to changing your life for the better.
your deciding to go on the ww route which is great cuz you can save points each week and use them to have something nice at the weekend plus on ww you can have any food your hearts desire once you just count the points, have you a friend that could go with you and ye could support eachother, go to the meeting tomorrow morning, no more excuses just do it, i know you can do it, anyone can but it just takes you to give yourself that push and tell yourself that yes your gonna do it and your gonna do it for you and no one else cuz you deserve it, your worth it...
i could ramble on all day but youd get sick of me talking so i really hope this helps hun, you just gotta forget what happened in the past and not feel bad for gaining back the weight cuz this is a new day and the start mof a new you!!!!!!xxx
go for it, dont let anything stop you!!