HappyBunny2013
Full Member
I've had countless diaries around here on other similar plans in the past and never really got where I needed to be. Always messing around and putting "life" first but really this is about the most important thing I could do to benefit my life right now!
I had intended to start today anyway as we just booked our holiday yesterday, I have 5 months till then and over 5st to lose but I'd be really happy with a 5st loss but we're just back from the beach and I asked OH to take a few full length pics of me, well I'm absolutey appalled!! I must have the opposite of body dismorphia because I usually think I look alright, though at 17st 2lb how likely is that really? I'm actually shocked and mortified!
OH and our daughter are gone for some food and I just came home to reflect, write this, drink my water and have my first pack.
I can't really say I'm overcome with excitement because I've written words like this so often before but this time I want to prove to that cynical part in my brain who is telling me "yeah yeah yeah, I've heard it all before!" that I can and will do it!
If I lose 5st I'd be 12st which to be honest I'd be delighted at, I never felt big at that weight so that's my goal even though it's a lot of people's start weight Haha!
Here we go!
I had intended to start today anyway as we just booked our holiday yesterday, I have 5 months till then and over 5st to lose but I'd be really happy with a 5st loss but we're just back from the beach and I asked OH to take a few full length pics of me, well I'm absolutey appalled!! I must have the opposite of body dismorphia because I usually think I look alright, though at 17st 2lb how likely is that really? I'm actually shocked and mortified!
OH and our daughter are gone for some food and I just came home to reflect, write this, drink my water and have my first pack.
I can't really say I'm overcome with excitement because I've written words like this so often before but this time I want to prove to that cynical part in my brain who is telling me "yeah yeah yeah, I've heard it all before!" that I can and will do it!
If I lose 5st I'd be 12st which to be honest I'd be delighted at, I never felt big at that weight so that's my goal even though it's a lot of people's start weight Haha!
Here we go!