Hiya all, am back tip it after a few rogue days :-( gained 3 lbs so could nice better, could be worse! My eldest had been in hospital since Thursday with chicken pox and I find it so hard in that place to keep my eating under control. I'm really worried about my boy, he's been fine but stayed taking fevers since yesterday, I know this is normal but it's too easy to remember how dangerous chicken pox can be for children with leukemia and start panicking :-( I don't often talk about how hard the whole thing is but it's times like this I hate the world for my boy having this sh!tty disease. He doesn't deserve any of it, and what makes it all the harder to bear is how happy here stays through it all. The fear, the pain, the disruption to his little life, and he smiles and laughs through it all. Obviously I'm glad that he's happy, and every millimeter of me explodes with pride, but it still breaks my heart. I hate having to leave one soon too be with the other, neither of boys should have to put up with that :-( I know the world is full of people who have it so much worse, but I'll you something for nothing, I hate this part of our lives.
So, back from my ranting and possible over sharing, I'm attempting to climb back on the s&s wagon, but don't feel very much like it right now!
Wish me luck, my god I need it!
Xcx