wannabslim
Gold Member
Hi guys,
As some of you may have noticed, Ive been away for a while. I went to Europe travelling for 2 weeks and have been back for a week and a half. Since stopping CD suddenly before my travels (I was feeling very emotional and threatened to cancel my travelling to my OH as i was so unhappy about the concept of not eating at all while away) and have since put on all the weight I lost beforehand including a few lbs that i lost the first time round on SS. In other words I have put on nearly a stone.
I am absolutely gutted and dont know what to do. Part of me wants to eat like a normal person and just be healthy but I KNOW i cant do this- I have tried and clearly failed. But when I SS I get fatigued really easily and my brainpower just isnt what it should be. I lose my social life and lose my 'edge'. I get paranoid and obsessed with the scales. I tried 790 but this just tempted me to eat things I couldnt.
I really want to go back onto SS and see the loss through to the end but I just dont know if Im strong enough. I need some real support- and not just my family keeping an eye on me and making me feel poo but proper support. But where can I get this? If I want to see this thru to the end is there professional help I can get to help me deal with the emotional issues CD throws up?
I have about a weeks supply of tetras (thats all i can stand) and am thinking about just starting tomorrow and getting on with it, but right now I just need some words of wisdom from you fantastic peeps! So please, any comments/suggestions/thoughts/questions which you think would be helpful would be much appreciated.
Phew! (sorry for the rant) Thanks for always being here guys!
Nikki xxx
As some of you may have noticed, Ive been away for a while. I went to Europe travelling for 2 weeks and have been back for a week and a half. Since stopping CD suddenly before my travels (I was feeling very emotional and threatened to cancel my travelling to my OH as i was so unhappy about the concept of not eating at all while away) and have since put on all the weight I lost beforehand including a few lbs that i lost the first time round on SS. In other words I have put on nearly a stone.
I am absolutely gutted and dont know what to do. Part of me wants to eat like a normal person and just be healthy but I KNOW i cant do this- I have tried and clearly failed. But when I SS I get fatigued really easily and my brainpower just isnt what it should be. I lose my social life and lose my 'edge'. I get paranoid and obsessed with the scales. I tried 790 but this just tempted me to eat things I couldnt.
I really want to go back onto SS and see the loss through to the end but I just dont know if Im strong enough. I need some real support- and not just my family keeping an eye on me and making me feel poo but proper support. But where can I get this? If I want to see this thru to the end is there professional help I can get to help me deal with the emotional issues CD throws up?
I have about a weeks supply of tetras (thats all i can stand) and am thinking about just starting tomorrow and getting on with it, but right now I just need some words of wisdom from you fantastic peeps! So please, any comments/suggestions/thoughts/questions which you think would be helpful would be much appreciated.
Phew! (sorry for the rant) Thanks for always being here guys!
Nikki xxx
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