Oh yeah definitely Is worth it
had a real struggle yesterday a bar and a shake and realising at 1am oh bugger my 3rd...so had it then lol think I'm just about over being Ill now! Erm wi tomorrow so we will see xx
well that's -4lb this week, 2more pounds and that's a whole 4stones off!!!! I haven't been 10stone5pounds since (I think I was actually even lighter)before the biggest mistake of my life(getting married). My bmi was spot on 25 when I got pregnant it's feeling good to be getting back to old me. I knew she was hiding somewhere! In other news me and the guy I'm seeing are away on October 5th... I'm not entirely sure I want to go as I know it will involve alcohol at some point. I'm really unsure :/ xxx
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if I was a bit taller I think id be ok with the weight I am but as it is I'm only 5.2ft still about 20lbs to go lol. It's not so much about putting happiness on hold I think it's more I'm reluctant to say a bit of my happiness is down to someone else other than my daughter or my self especially after the train wreck of my marriage... My daughter and diet in that order are my priority (anything else I can live without) most of my self worth is tied to my weight as terrible as that sounds I suppose it's normal given my circumstances could be worse things I based my self worth on though. In other news!! Got off my lazy back side and did shred before bed I found it hard and almost blacked out when I was done you know when you just get dizzy and you head goes fuzzy and horrible you can feel it happening, well thankfully I had a sit down and was okay
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I was kidding my self I was a 16! In actuality I was 18 fitting size 12 happily now roll on the 10s
13.3 start weight 11.2 right now and going inwards and onwards! x
. Yeah I ended up seeing him for maybe an hour and all he did was piss me off tbh, was supposed to finish work at 1 then it was changed to 6 so that's fair enough yeah, then I get a phone call at 9.15 the usual banter then oh were are you I'll pick you up blah blah then tells me oh I've been in a customers house since 6! Wasn't amused he works in a phone shop! Said he had to set up 3iphones and an iPad... Well that's above and beyond the call of duty to go to some guys house.... Let's just say I know another guy that worked in a phone shop and would go to people's homes to "help" well he was i won't say it but you can guess what he was doing... Then pops over to my place for a cuppa n a cig... (Ended up sitting in his car)Just insulted me by talking about hot tubs and strippers! To that I just said no you can keep you're skanky strippers and started to get out of the car...he Apologised profusely for it, he was sick again to be fair and talking so much rubbish I couldn't keep up, then proceeded to tell me about all the stress he's dealing with family work money etc he's got it quite bad... Wanted to cry for him tbh, he was really in a bad way over it. And now seeds of doubt have been planted... Just paranoid or should I bring it up and see what he has to say about it first? I'm not a person to want to cause drama and I hate people suffering if people cry I usually cry with them... The way I was feeling last night was unreal had thoughts I haven't had since I was with the ex husband wanted to cause my self pain, I think I need some help with these issues creeping in its not a thought process I want to go through again felt like this the past 2days I hope it's just a little blip and I'll be back to my bubbly self by the weekend!
