Day 3 and struggling.....

[ClaireLR]

I've made it to day three but I'm really struggling today.

Everywhere I look there are people eating, TV advertises nothing but food, every program that comes on TV people are eating food, or talking about food

OH had curry for tea tonight and I had to go stand in the bathroom cos I couldn't stand it!

Now my brother has just rung me and started (not intending to **** me off) to tell me about the fantabulous pizza he's about to have for tea

TBH I don't feel hungry, had plenty of water today and my 3 shakes, and I don't feel physically hungry, but I feel like I've got nothing to do, I didn't realise just how much of my life was devoted to food, I feel like my I've lost something.

I've tried have a bath and a pamper session to take my mind of things and it works while I'm busy but as soon as I stop doing things I'm straight away thinking about food and how much I want to eat.

What does everyone else do to get through these hard moments? I could really do with some positive comments atm, I feel like I'm going to crack soon and eat something :sigh:

 

[sasha63]

l know its very hard at moment but try and focus on the reasons why you started this plan lol
l had to give myself a good talking to last night feeling better today and you will tomorrow (((hugs)))))

 

[duncan]

i tended to walk the dogs,do the housework, i did anything to take my mind of it, have a t or coffee and read a book, it does ger easier, hang in there

 

[scooterchick]

I know it's really hard hun, just keep thinking that eating is instant gratification, it makes you feel good for the length of time it would take you to eat it. As soo as you're finished you'll feel like carp, you'll be angry at yourself for giving in and it will show up on the scales. Go and paint your nails and think about the jeans you've got in your wardrobe that are too tight (cos we've all got at least 1 pair!).

 

[jlm]

all i can say is it does get better...honestly! You find the strength from somewhere! I always find the smell of curry a challenge, one cos i love it and its just the combination of lots of smells that stimulate the senses. at first ( and occasionally now) i have full blown dreams about food and eating meals!! But it does get better. I think by the time i got past about 2 weeks this was not as much of a problem, though is never easy. good luck !

 

[ClaireLR]

I've already been having dreams about eating.....I hope this gets easier soon.

The thing is I have the best reason in the world for getting this weight off.....we are waiting for referral for fertility treatment and have been told (by the clinic we will be referred to) that my BMI has to be below 30 before they will consider me. But it's just so HARD. I've done Cambridge before and didn't find it this difficult last time.....I feel like I'm teetering on the edge of walking into the kitchen and stuffing my face all the time.

I need to stay busy this weekend......OH is going on a fishing trip so I'm going to be home alone

 

[Amina]

What I do is look at the inspiration photos at the top. That really makes you visible see what you could also acheive. Picture what it was that made you want to do this in the first place. That will hopefully give you a boost. xx

 

[Amina]

think about the jeans you've got in your wardrobe that are too tight (cos we've all got at least 1 pair!).

lol! so true! xx

 

[fed-up-and-fat]

I must admit the first week on CD was a real revelation to me about how much food is mentioned by everybody, but especially media. Is so hard, but stay focused, it does get better.

As for dreaming about food, I think most of us do that. I am always fantasizing about food I could eat - food porn is fantastic.

hugs hun, keep strong

Charlie xx

 

[scooterchick]

I've already been having dreams about eating.....I hope this gets easier soon.

The thing is I have the best reason in the world for getting this weight off.....we are waiting for referral for fertility treatment and have been told (by the clinic we will be referred to) that my BMI has to be below 30 before they will consider me. But it's just so HARD. I've done Cambridge before and didn't find it this difficult last time.....I feel like I'm teetering on the edge of walking into the kitchen and stuffing my face all the time.

I need to stay busy this weekend......OH is going on a fishing trip so I'm going to be home alone

What kind of treatment babe? And is another hospital you could be referred? I've been referred, been diagnosed with PCOS, I'm now on metformin, BUT the fertility doc only wants me to get down to a BMI of 35 and she'll halp me. That;s not IVF, possibly clomid and progestorone. Perhaps IVF they want your BMI lower, have you had any investigations at all?

 

[Amina]

COme dine with me is the highlight of my weekend! Oh yes...very sad!

 

[MsJMC]

Hi
Well I have had a few blips , I guess its how much we want it, to how much we will NOT give in to temptation ... Think you just have to keep fighting with your demons and it will get easier as the days go by ...
Yes shows you how much food was apart of you life , how much time we spend eating , now we have to find something else , write a list of things to do to keep you away from doing it .

 

[ClaireLR]

What kind of treatment babe? And is another hospital you could be referred? I've been referred, been diagnosed with PCOS, I'm now on metformin, BUT the fertility doc only wants me to get down to a BMI of 35 and she'll halp me. That;s not IVF, possibly clomid and progestorone. Perhaps IVF they want your BMI lower, have you had any investigations at all?

Hey hun

I have PCOS too! I managed to get Clomid from me GP (despite being around the 14 stone mark, she never even weighed me). I've not really had any investigations, other than when my PCOS was diagnosed which was years ago. We've been trying for a baby for 2 years now, had 3 miscarriages all at early days. The next step for me is referral to an NHS hospital, where they will carry out investigations, followed by referral for IVF/ICSI at a private clinic (funded by the NHS).

Do you feel that the Metformin helps at all? I tried it in the past, more as a cure for my PCOS symptoms as we weren't trying for children at that time, but found I couldn't stomach it.

Day 4 today and I'm still struggling, felt awful this morning, had really little energy and felt ready to collapse at a couple of times. I've rested all afternoon so feel a bit better in that respect, but the temptation to cheat is unbearable - I've even been on the phone to OH having a cry a short while ago

 

[scooterchick]

Hi Hunny,

Day 4 ws the absolute worst day for me, I felt awful and ended up having a slice of toast. Ok it wasn't great but it made me feel much better and I was striahgt back on CD, so hang in there, sleep if you can, you will get through it. Oh just noticed you posted last night, how you feeling this morning?

Your PCOS sounds like mine, you can get pg you just can't can't make it stick, sounding like a lack of progestorone. I don't think IVF will do you any good, if you're ovulating on your own (which you are) then progestrorone supplements might be all you need.

I found the metformin works for me, before I started on it I was putting on 1/2 lb every week despite eating healthy and doing WW, I'd be in tears on the scales, all that hard work and I put on weight! When I started the met I stopped putting on weight immediately, doesn't really halp my lose but at least I could maintain! I did have dodgy tummies til I got used to it but it didn't take long, def worth you giving it another go.

You might find that losing some weight helps you get and stay pg, when I fell pg with son I was 5 stone lighter and it was easy and my PCOS symptoms were pratcially non existent. I have no reason to think that it won't be the same this time, lose some weight and everything will be normal.

Have you tried Fertility Friend to chart? I still do it everyday, it confirms if you've ovulated, length of your luteal phase etc it's a great tool and also good to have this info already for the fertility docs cos they'll want you to do it for a few months. A day 21 progestorone test can also help but it's hit and miss for us PCOS as we ovulate all over the place, this month I've ovulated day 18 so my progestorone test day would be Day 25, it's always 7 days after ov, it confirms if you have ov'd and if you're producing enough progestorone, which I'd bet you're not.

Anyway hope some of this helps, and good luck, kepp on the diet!! xxxxx

 

[Chlo]

Day three... I remember it well. Exactly the same, it wasn't hunger that was going to get the better of me, it was cravings and the TV. I even resorted to writing a list of all the meals I was going to have when I finished the diet, don't know what happened to it, by day 4 I was over the consuming preoccupation with food. I do remember coming on here all the time in the first few days and reading signatures to see how much people lose, and looking at the pictures.

I promise all of a sudden it just gets better and the cravings disappear. Keep it up.

 

[RuthG]

Stick with it, you'll feel like you can take on the world soon, I promise! I also need to get to a BMI of below 30 for fertility treatment, I need to have an IUI with ovulation induction.

 

[ClaireLR]

Way to go Chlo, you've done incredibly well!!!

Well....day 5 has been kinder to me than day 4 was......last night after I got off here I had a cry, felt really low and ended up eating a tin of tuna.........followed by 2 quorn burgers........followed by some curry.........followed by a piece of birthday cake!!!!!!!!!

I went to bed feeling like crap to be honest, one ruined diet, was thinking why don't I just go back to weightwatchers (because losing a pound a week used to drive me nuts of course!) why don't I low carb, why this why that.......my head was in a spin.

Anyway, woke up this morning, jumped on the scales ready to deal with my weight gain from the blow-out, and had actually lost a pound and half overnight!! Felt really pleased and happy and it's spurred me on to continue - I can't understand how I lost and have a feeling it'll creep on maybe tonight but if it does I'll deal with it.

I've decided from now on to do SS+ when I need to, I have today cos I was starving so had some turkey, only a small amount but it helped me to stay on track and I've felt so much happier today!!!!

scooterchick, I used to chart and use ov sticks etc, but I found in the end I became so obsessed with it all that I found it easier (for my sanity) to just not do anything, other than ov sticks. I haven't had progesterone tests done, I've had CD21 tests done but that's different isn't it? They confirmed that I wasn't Oving and that's why I had the Clomid. I'm going to ask my doctor about progesterone testing when I go to get referred, hoping she can do the test while I'm waiting, it'll be another thing that I wont have to have done when I get to the hospital.

Another thing I found helped me was, (well in my opinion) going on the sunbeds - when I first got pregnant 2 years back we werent trying but I'd been on the sunbeds a lot - apparently when you have PCOS your body doesn't store vitamin D, which is needed by the body in some way to help with ovulation, sunbeds (or natural sunlight) help your body to produce more of it - so I'm back on them atm and hoping that maybe that along with weight loss might help!

Just wondering if you know what happens if you do have low progesterone?

 

[scooterchick]

Hi Claire,

Day 21 tests are the progestorone tests BUT and it's a big BUT. The test is preformed 7 days after ovulation is believed to have occured. Most women have regular cycles and most women ovulate round about day 14 meaning the progestorone test should be carried out day 21. However we're not like normal women and chances are you don't ovulate on day 14 meaning to test for progesterone on day 21 is worthless. You said you've been pg 3 times but miscarried, so you MUST be ovulating for that to happen.

What the fertility doc will want to do is see your charts with a biphasic shift in temp, 7 days after that happens will be the right time to test for progesterone, it might be day 21 (unlikely) or it could be as late as day 28-30 depending how long your cycles normally are.

If you do have a progesterone defficiency they'll start you on cream probbaly which could be enough to get that wee egg to stick. I would really recommend you chart before you see the clinic, it'll save a lot of time cos it's the first thing they'll ask you to do. Google is your friend, get clued up as much as you can so you have a heads up to what they're talking about!

As for the diet, that mental arguing with yourself is bloomin torture isn't it. I'm still doing it!