Well I've been on here a while and have decided that now is the time to start a diary in the vain hope it might help me stick to the plan a bit better. I have done SW on and off for years now and as a veggie find the green days work well. The plan works and I enjoy the food and I know there is absolutely no need to be hungry. BUT I am a firm believer that for it to work your head has to be in the right place and for some reason, despite how much I want to lose weight, my head drifts off frequently leaving me in the frustrating position of not being able to stick to the plan despite wanting to. It's no excuse but I have been suffering with PND and this affects my eating. I am also suffering from health anxiety and a severe lack of confidence at the moment. I think losing weight will help all of this. And if I can improve in these areas it may help my crumbling marriage. A long shot but fingers crossed. So I am hoping that this diary will give me somewhere to vent as right now I feel very alone in the world and feel no-one else wants to listen to my woes. I'll try not to be too depressing! I have a big party to go to in 7 weeks. I will be going with my 2 very slim very confident sister in laws. I can't face the thought of going like this. So this is my motivation - I want to go to that party and enjoy myself - for me to do that I need to feel better about myself and losing weight is a step towards that. If I stick to plan for 7 weeks I will lose weight (hopefully almost a stone?). Yes I will have to make some sacrifices along the way (mainly chocolate). If I don't like the way I look, the way I feel and the enjoyment of chosing a dress in 7 weeks then I can eat all my favourite foods again and eat the weight back on. If I don't try I won't know what is the best feeling - eating the rubbish or being slimmer. I will start tomorrow on plan as close to 100% as possible - I'm human and I have a busy life with 2 young children so cannot be 100% all the time but I will chose my 'breaks' sensibly. Well thank you if you have got this far reading this - sorry for the waffle but I need this to be somewhere I can vent and get my head clear.