Elemental
Chasing the Rainbow
So here I am. The day after valentines day and feeling very philosophical. After realising yesterday that the only thing I was really excited about was the yummy thai food we were going out for , I consoled myself with the point that at least I was excited about 'something'.
However, when crunch time came (time to get ready) I did EXACTLY what I have done for at least the last two valentines days. Got out of the shower feeling fat and disgusting. Looking at the closed doors of my wardrobe already knowing that knowing in there is going to fit right, look right..........and then broke down under a weight of emotional pressure and a wave of depression that has been keeping me down for the very least 2 years, but probably longer!
Valentine's evening was supposed to be my final supper really, it turned out to be the crappiest domino's pizza i ever tasted (actually my dear husband's suggestion). Didnt really help the fat and bloated feeling much I can tell you! My intention was to start this morning, but my shakers havent arrived yet and one lumpy shake might be enough to send me to the crisp cupboard.
I am so ready for this now. I just need to remember to power through feeling like crap the first week or two. Everyone else's progress on here has made me feel so positive, and knowing how much slimmer and trimmer i felt after just one week on exante makes me sure that i will be able to keep it up this time.
So get used to me on here girls, this is literally my last chance of happiness. Everything depends on this success, I mean everything. I may whinge a bit for the next 10 days as my carb addiction was not curbed this past week as planned - I mean hey , if it's so easy to eat low carb I'd just be doing that as a diet, right?
Lots of love, and luck to you all xxx
However, when crunch time came (time to get ready) I did EXACTLY what I have done for at least the last two valentines days. Got out of the shower feeling fat and disgusting. Looking at the closed doors of my wardrobe already knowing that knowing in there is going to fit right, look right..........and then broke down under a weight of emotional pressure and a wave of depression that has been keeping me down for the very least 2 years, but probably longer!
Valentine's evening was supposed to be my final supper really, it turned out to be the crappiest domino's pizza i ever tasted (actually my dear husband's suggestion). Didnt really help the fat and bloated feeling much I can tell you! My intention was to start this morning, but my shakers havent arrived yet and one lumpy shake might be enough to send me to the crisp cupboard.
I am so ready for this now. I just need to remember to power through feeling like crap the first week or two. Everyone else's progress on here has made me feel so positive, and knowing how much slimmer and trimmer i felt after just one week on exante makes me sure that i will be able to keep it up this time.
So get used to me on here girls, this is literally my last chance of happiness. Everything depends on this success, I mean everything. I may whinge a bit for the next 10 days as my carb addiction was not curbed this past week as planned - I mean hey , if it's so easy to eat low carb I'd just be doing that as a diet, right?
Lots of love, and luck to you all xxx