klairbear
Full Member
Hello everyone,
For what feels like the 16th time I am returning to the forum with my head hung low. I seemed to have started and stalled so many times I wonder why this time should be any different...I always swore I would lose weight and feel great by the time I turned 25, then 28. Well the truth is I turned 30 last month. And I have got nowhere. I feel like such a failure. I feel depressed and useless.
I know there are still some issues linked to my past and the abuse I experienced which feeds into my thoughts - by being big and unattractive I hoped it would stop what was happening. I still feel somewhat trapped in this thought pattern even though I am now in a safer place.
But I guess somewhere inside I have decided enough is enough. I am going to be strong and have my head and my heart work together in hopefully making a difference.
I hope there is still a place for me here, and that those who have offered support in the past will continue to do so even though I feel like I let you all down. Plus I can't promise I won't slip again.
I am weighing in on Monday so have set my new start date for Tuesday. This will give me time to get my head in plan, do an online shop and clear my cupboards of all the synful stuff!
If anyone has any tips or things I can do in preparation I would love to hear them. What support has helped you with your journey?
I hope to get to know you all again.
KB x
For what feels like the 16th time I am returning to the forum with my head hung low. I seemed to have started and stalled so many times I wonder why this time should be any different...I always swore I would lose weight and feel great by the time I turned 25, then 28. Well the truth is I turned 30 last month. And I have got nowhere. I feel like such a failure. I feel depressed and useless.
I know there are still some issues linked to my past and the abuse I experienced which feeds into my thoughts - by being big and unattractive I hoped it would stop what was happening. I still feel somewhat trapped in this thought pattern even though I am now in a safer place.
But I guess somewhere inside I have decided enough is enough. I am going to be strong and have my head and my heart work together in hopefully making a difference.
I hope there is still a place for me here, and that those who have offered support in the past will continue to do so even though I feel like I let you all down. Plus I can't promise I won't slip again.
I am weighing in on Monday so have set my new start date for Tuesday. This will give me time to get my head in plan, do an online shop and clear my cupboards of all the synful stuff!
If anyone has any tips or things I can do in preparation I would love to hear them. What support has helped you with your journey?
I hope to get to know you all again.
KB x