finding out the root of my bingeing,what an eyeopener

[tamkat]

After wanting to binge yet again last thurs I decided to really delve deep over the weekend & pinpoint when it started.I was overweight at school but not obese.Figured out when it started it was 11 yrs ago,anyway I wont bore you with the details just wanted to share to anyone that does binge whether its once a week or month find out where it stems from it really does help

 

[Jolly81]

I totally agree- I'm a yo-yoer, so one I plotted my extreme weights and the years I was at those weights, then looked back at what was happening a that time in my life. Made for an extremely interesting read!!!

 

[tamkat]

crazy what you discover when you really examine yourself over the years,not saying im cured now but def think its helped

 

[i_am_plankton]

It's interesting isn't it - when I was about 8/9 was when I was first conscious of being a little bit bigger than my friends but it turned into an obsession - I recently found a photo of me in a bikini when I was somewhere between 11-13 years old, and I had a wicked body in that picture and I've no idea what made me think I was fat. What resulted was extremes and ending up bigger than I ever should have been and the mentality seemed to stem from nothing! Crazy - and yet here I am at the age of 26 after losing over 3 stone to combat it.

The mind is a funny thing.

 

[Gwella]

Interesting idea. I had a think about this myself. I think it was a) when I got to the sixth form and started having chips after school, which made me feel slightly rebellious and grown up and independent (lol) and b) in my second year at uni when I was struggling with stress and depression and started buying big packs of sweets, cake etc. I wonder how one moves on from these realisations to addressing them!

 

[lovehearts]

Mine started from heavy bullying at school, I used to get picked on for various reasons and I dreaded going into school all the way through primary school and high school. I used food as a comfort and piled on the weight! Then I was diagnosed with depression and post traumatic stress which I'm now having counselling for. But things are finally on the mend and are getting better, plus I'm losing weight

 

[tamkat]

I started when my daughter was about 9 months old,moved into a flat just me & her & I was lonely & no one to see how much you are eating is a disaster because you live in denial.Not sure what happens from here on in but I haven't felt like a binge again yet so who knows? x

 

[Lizzzi]

Mine started from heavy bullying at school, I used to get picked on for various reasons and I dreaded going into school all the way through primary school and high school. I used food as a comfort and piled on the weight! Then I was diagnosed with depression and post traumatic stress which I'm now having counselling for. But things are finally on the mend and are getting better, plus I'm losing weight

Good on you! prove them bullies that you are stronger now xxx

 

[tamkat]

so glad things are on the mend lovehearts xx

 

[tamkat]

wouldn't it be amazing if we could just binge on vegetables & fruit when the urge came along :/

 

[Gwella]

wouldn't it be amazing if we could just binge on vegetables & fruit when the urge came along :/

Oh yes! But I bet we are making better choices even when we do have a binge now, compared to how things used to be. Unless of course we are too restrictive the rest of the time and just want to break free.
I have tried a couple of fruit binges - pomelo, melon, and Danio yogurts are pretty tasty. But not always! Chocolate and wine still get in there sometimes. But I tend to think more consciously about what I'm doing and whether I really do feel in need of it!

 

[Gwella]

I started when my daughter was about 9 months old,moved into a flat just me & her & I was lonely & no one to see how much you are eating is a disaster because you live in denial.Not sure what happens from here on in but I haven't felt like a binge again yet so who knows? x

Yes I too find it harder when I'm on my own. And with a baby that must've been even more stressful!

 

[yoyo1986]

Thinking back to when I was 13/14 I used to get home from school before my parents finished work and just raid the cupboards, there was a cupboard where I used to hide things if they turned up early and I remeber finding half bags of crisps, half finished chocolate bars and even a block of cake icing in there!!

Had some pretty sh**ty things happen when I was a kid so maybe it stemmed from that, the comfort of me being in control and doing what I wanted to yet feeling that I had to hide it away!

I dont like looking back lol!!! :-/

Xxx

 

[pixie-gem]

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[tamkat]

so glad I helped you in some way Cavegirl,I find it a very lonely & solitary habit just hope we both beat it for good xx

 

[clairelt1]

Mine was when I had postnatal with my first baby, 10yrs ago, she was incredible hard work, never slept, never content, I was left to cope at home when I was used to working all day..gained 2st after the birth and then had my 2nd whilst still overweight 2yrs later. I Lost 2.5st for my wedding and then had 3rd and 4th so haven't really given myself any effort, I binge when I'm stressed or bored usually, although I'm now at the weight I was after 1st, 2nd and 3rd child's births, 4th is only 7m old and I want me back, more confident and happier xx it hadn't helped that my husband doesn't really mind what size I am! Maybe if he had complained more I'd have done something in between all the babies, but I'm only 32 so I've plenty time to correct it now and enjoy... X

 

[tamkat]

that's true clairet my husband says he wouldn't mind if I was 30 stone lol then again it works better if we are doing it for ourselves not because someone says we should,my Dad always ribbed me about my weight growing up & it didn't help although he was only kidding it still hurt like hell.How you getting on with 4 kiddies you getting much sleep? My youngest will not settle after 4am so Im always up early Im actually surprised im not 30 stone tbh xx

 

[tamkat]

Hi Cavegirl im not too bad had a bit of a wobble again sat evening it was mainly boredom.I was more aware of the eating though it wasn't as bad as it has been in the past,just really glad my weigh day is wed! One bad eve will not ruin my whole week how about you? xx

 

[stivesliz]

I am or am hoping I WAS a complete and utter binger!

I have always had what you would call a hearty appetite with the potential to eat loads so SW is right up my street but around 2 years ago I got into an awful habit of throwing the towel in and eat excessive amounts. I would do things that I now cringe about like go to the local bakers and buy 2 pasties pretending one was for my husband and then eat both of them. I would have these binges and then feel ashamed.
Something in me clicked last year and I decided that even if I wasn't in the right frame of mind for SW then this unhealthy bingeing had to stop. And it did stop....thankfully.
I don't know what triggered this all off but I would eat til my belly literally ached and it was almost like feeding my failure to an extent. It sounds silly writing it down and I am not saying I wont ever do it again but I think I am a little bit older and wiser now. x

 

[Antoin71]

Mine was getting my own house. My mum doesn't eat garlic so meals at home were traditional English, my own home turned into a curry, garlic bread zone, washed down with a glass of wine or beer. Hard habit to get out of so I love cooking healthier curries and pastas.