Aww Shucks you guys. You are so great. It has simply been too hard to post this week - between my home computer not working properly and trying to get back into ketosis while surrounded by three kids and having to work in the evenings and being pretty miserable......well I was in a foul mood and I might have posted some bad language so..... I think my poor long suffering OH might have been happy if i had disappeared for a day or two too. 
Yes I fell off the wagon, got run over by it....  I won't go into details for the faint hearted but lets say I was VERY bad!!!!  Was back up to 15st 3lbs when I weighed my self on monday so I am NOT posting THAT!!! 
BUT YAY - I am back on day four and in ketosis again!!!   
I cant say I learned anything from my jailbreak episode other than it hurts like hell to give this diet up and lose hope.... and not just physically.  It made me sad.  I caught sight of myself in a mirror and I look fatter than I thought I was at 17stone so I HAVE to diet.  I kept telling myself that the only failure is the failure to try - that sounds trite but it got me back on board!! 
While scoffing everything in sight last weekend (I did - I have no idea how I am going to learn to maintain) I  promised 50 days of TS100% (to me that includes an AAM day once a week) and I am on day 4.  50 days will get me to my next jailbreak which is the June bank holiday weekend when I will be going to the Cat Laughs Comedy festival in Kilkenny (Ireland).  I cannot wait.  And I don't want to be the "fat" girl for that.  I want two more stone off.  I WILL be 13 stone and I WILL wear a size 16 summer dress...with flowing hair and a small white cardi and some leather sandals.  I WILL post a pic when I make it.  No ifs ands or buts.   
Belle