*Trying-again*
Plodding on til its gone
As if things arnt hard enough for people trying to lose weight, its the emotional side of eating aswell thats so hard. Life has been really stressful for ages but the last few months in particular.
I admit to using food as a comfort but Im on week 3 of restarting slimming world. Its slow going because along with other probs I have PCOS to deal with but accept I have it and try and deal with it the best way I can.
Im so shocked by my 19 year old daughter tonight. The day I restarted slimming world we went shopping for healthy food. Although I didnt want any temptation in the kitchen cupboards she picked up this tin of syrup sponge pudding.
Anyway after a pig of a day today I needed something sweet, probably something to do with my hormones. She didnt want any so I had it with a bit of custard. Was just starting to wind down infront of the tv after a really long day when she said "I cant believe your eating that fatty your meant to be on a diet"
I feel so shocked I looked at her like she had made some sort of unfunny joke but she meant it! I still cant believe my own daughter would say something like that too me. Shes said it a couple of times before as well. She knows i have no confidence in myself and that I beat myself up about stuff all the time.
I told her I would never of dreamed about saying anything so hurtful to my mum when she was alive but she just brushed off what I said. I couldnt even be in the same room as her after that so went upstairs to watch tv, half hour later she comes up and slams her bedroom door! No apology no nothing. Im now trying to get to sleep with that comment spinning around my head.
Im so shocked and upset, Its just us as i bought her up myself after divorcing when she was young. I didnt bring her up like this and cant believe she can go to bed and not say anything knowing how hurt I am.
She knows I wont see her til gone 8 tomorow night because of my work and when i leave in the mornng she will still be in bed as she has the day off work so Ive got allday tommorow with this on my mind and having to put a face on for the customers at work.
I know Ive put on weight and I know the reasons why. Obviously my weight gain is more obvious than I thought but to be called fatty by my own daughter is too shocking for me to even put into words. As if the outside world isnt harsh enough I get this in my own home :cry:
I admit to using food as a comfort but Im on week 3 of restarting slimming world. Its slow going because along with other probs I have PCOS to deal with but accept I have it and try and deal with it the best way I can.
Im so shocked by my 19 year old daughter tonight. The day I restarted slimming world we went shopping for healthy food. Although I didnt want any temptation in the kitchen cupboards she picked up this tin of syrup sponge pudding.
Anyway after a pig of a day today I needed something sweet, probably something to do with my hormones. She didnt want any so I had it with a bit of custard. Was just starting to wind down infront of the tv after a really long day when she said "I cant believe your eating that fatty your meant to be on a diet"
I feel so shocked I looked at her like she had made some sort of unfunny joke but she meant it! I still cant believe my own daughter would say something like that too me. Shes said it a couple of times before as well. She knows i have no confidence in myself and that I beat myself up about stuff all the time.
I told her I would never of dreamed about saying anything so hurtful to my mum when she was alive but she just brushed off what I said. I couldnt even be in the same room as her after that so went upstairs to watch tv, half hour later she comes up and slams her bedroom door! No apology no nothing. Im now trying to get to sleep with that comment spinning around my head.
Im so shocked and upset, Its just us as i bought her up myself after divorcing when she was young. I didnt bring her up like this and cant believe she can go to bed and not say anything knowing how hurt I am.
She knows I wont see her til gone 8 tomorow night because of my work and when i leave in the mornng she will still be in bed as she has the day off work so Ive got allday tommorow with this on my mind and having to put a face on for the customers at work.
I know Ive put on weight and I know the reasons why. Obviously my weight gain is more obvious than I thought but to be called fatty by my own daughter is too shocking for me to even put into words. As if the outside world isnt harsh enough I get this in my own home :cry: