Spanglymum
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Well, I'm currently on holiday and thought I'd check in as I'm feeling in need of a pep talk and you guys are the best at that! Made the adult (?) decision to relax a bit food wise on holiday, which has been fun, but I'm really stressing about my clothes getting tight. Aargh! And then I get all 'woe is me' about perhaps needing to be vigilant all year round and not have relaxed weeks in future. Just need to be more realistic I think.
Got quite low the other day and realised my food thing isn't over yet, by a long shot. I got so self-pitying about having to do everything on holiday. With two small children and a disabled husband it isn't exactly a rest! Don't know why I ever thought it would be, really. Am trying to respond constructively though to the feelings : chatting with hubby about how once his mobility vehicle is adapted he might be able to be independent, but it's difficult. Silly, really, as I know the reality of the MS - but somehow thought I 'deserved' a holiday, which is nonsense really, isn't it? Am worn out from starting my new job and driving everyone around and cooking all the meals and doing the laundry and the dishwasher and pushing the wheelchair and lifting the walking frame into and out of the car and taking the girls swimming and being up half the night as my littlest had tummy ache and then up at 6am because hubby had his shower and the water noise woke up my littlest and so it goes on.
How do I let go of the anger and resentment?!
Anyway result is overeating and a small amount of drinking (but quite restrained compared to my pre-LL days). Am wondering if I'll be allowed to do abstinence for a month to get back to my comfy size again? Hope someone can empathise and send me a hug!!
Got quite low the other day and realised my food thing isn't over yet, by a long shot. I got so self-pitying about having to do everything on holiday. With two small children and a disabled husband it isn't exactly a rest! Don't know why I ever thought it would be, really. Am trying to respond constructively though to the feelings : chatting with hubby about how once his mobility vehicle is adapted he might be able to be independent, but it's difficult. Silly, really, as I know the reality of the MS - but somehow thought I 'deserved' a holiday, which is nonsense really, isn't it? Am worn out from starting my new job and driving everyone around and cooking all the meals and doing the laundry and the dishwasher and pushing the wheelchair and lifting the walking frame into and out of the car and taking the girls swimming and being up half the night as my littlest had tummy ache and then up at 6am because hubby had his shower and the water noise woke up my littlest and so it goes on.
How do I let go of the anger and resentment?!
Anyway result is overeating and a small amount of drinking (but quite restrained compared to my pre-LL days). Am wondering if I'll be allowed to do abstinence for a month to get back to my comfy size again? Hope someone can empathise and send me a hug!!
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