chris_s
Less of a man each day
Hello all. I'm struggling with the motivation atm. Was dumped by partner of many years and 2 kids over a week ago and although I keep trying to put a brave face on it, am struggling big time.
I joined for her tbh but am trying to do this for myself, to help me feel better but it's not working atm. I've thrown myself into the gym and pool but it only occupies me briefly. I've tried putting a brave face on it but can't keep up the charade for much longer.
I don't want to go backwards, lost nearly a stone in 5 weeks and have another 3 to go to be in the healthy range.
I'm not working atm, job hunting after 6 months unable to work due to cancer, chemo and radiotherapy. So I have alot of free time and bugger all money to play with. I can't spend all week in the gym or pool. The weather's crap and I feel like I've no hope for the future at times, alot of the times!
It's nearly 10am and although I've been awake for 5hrs I've done nothing. I can't get into reading, tv, games, nothing. I don't know what to eat today and cba anyway.
I'm not sleeping much and when I do it's messed up dreams and nightmares which put me off wanting to sleep.
Just wondered what people do to keep going when they feel so crap?
I'm already on the happy pills and have an urgent referal for proper one on one councilling, but in the mean time I just feel what's the point alot.
Yes I've got two great kids but I don't know my place with them anymore, they live with their mum. I'm struggling to work out what went wrong and who I am most of the time.
Sorry for the rant but needed to express myself, I'm billy no mates so no one I can really talk to and I see alot of people going through poo times on this site so thought I'd see if any practical tips out there.
Regards
Chris
I joined for her tbh but am trying to do this for myself, to help me feel better but it's not working atm. I've thrown myself into the gym and pool but it only occupies me briefly. I've tried putting a brave face on it but can't keep up the charade for much longer.
I don't want to go backwards, lost nearly a stone in 5 weeks and have another 3 to go to be in the healthy range.
I'm not working atm, job hunting after 6 months unable to work due to cancer, chemo and radiotherapy. So I have alot of free time and bugger all money to play with. I can't spend all week in the gym or pool. The weather's crap and I feel like I've no hope for the future at times, alot of the times!
It's nearly 10am and although I've been awake for 5hrs I've done nothing. I can't get into reading, tv, games, nothing. I don't know what to eat today and cba anyway.
I'm not sleeping much and when I do it's messed up dreams and nightmares which put me off wanting to sleep.
Just wondered what people do to keep going when they feel so crap?
I'm already on the happy pills and have an urgent referal for proper one on one councilling, but in the mean time I just feel what's the point alot.
Yes I've got two great kids but I don't know my place with them anymore, they live with their mum. I'm struggling to work out what went wrong and who I am most of the time.
Sorry for the rant but needed to express myself, I'm billy no mates so no one I can really talk to and I see alot of people going through poo times on this site so thought I'd see if any practical tips out there.
Regards
Chris