Hi Roch,
Happy belated Birthday.
Sorry to read about your car and the bills .. never rains it pours eh?!
I REALLY hope you can break the back of this dieting malarkey ... I so want you to do it. It aint easy ... I should know, but I love the fact you haven't given up.
Don't force yourself to do something you aren't enjoying .... do what is right and you'll sail all the way.
xx