Hi i`m back again lol

Tia is such a good little puppy she is clean all night and sleeps in her crate in the lounge as we have a garden she can go outside in the garden although she has not had all her injections yet. She is 95% clean during the day and is a pleasure to have.
Ebs loves her and they get on so well.

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Diet wise have been taking it a day by day and sticking to a low cal low carb diet and feeling ok.
Pls dont everyone jump on my back when i say that i am going to try lipotrim starting tomorrow as i have 10 days worth in the house if i find it 2 hard then ill not do it and have not lost anything, but am feeling very unconmfortatble at the moment and my confidence is very low and in this heat i think it will be a bit easier for me.
I am not on any other meds except for pain relief so its ok for me to do total meal replacement, honestly i dont think that i am mentally in the right place to ss with lt but as i have the packs here am going to give it a go and see what happens, so pls dont try and talk me out of it pls just be there to help me to try and get through the first few days.
Ty 2 all of u for always popping by to see how i am i do appreciate it big time.
Off to let Tia and Ebs go in the paddling pool for a bit to cool down, hope u r having a good day and fingers crossed for tomorrow xxx
 
Roch,You are seriously overweight (as am I) so you have to do what you feel it takes to lose weight. If thats in the form of Lipotrim then so be it. Good luck for tomorrow.xx
 
Well here i am again day one on a vlcd after i swore i would never go there again:confused:. I know alot of u r going to say "NO ROCH " but things are horrendosu for me my legs are collapsing and getting horrirble rashes under all the folds of nasty fat and they hurt and weep and small nasty am covered in lanacane powder as thats the only thing that works,my back is terribel and i only have myself to blame for being such a stupid cow and not taking my finger out and doing something and sticking to it and now time is just flying by and i dont have a life just an existence and am soooo sick and tired of this life, its summer time and everyone is looking nice no matter how i do my hair and make up i still look absolutley horrendous and feel terrible.

Last night Aarons girlfriends parents persuaded me to go to their house for a barbecue they only live 10 doors down initially i said no as i dont go out and socialise and i have not been out socially for nearly 2 years i only leave the house to go shopping but they carried on and on till i said yes, i was worried about who else was going to be there, if there were seats i could sit on without them breaking and how i looked, they r lovely peeps without any heirs and graces and made me feel very much at home and i stayed for 2 hrs and them made my excuses and thanked them and went home a bit drunk as i dont drink at all but i had a bottle and a half of magners cider lol.

I dont have friends any more i am sad and lonely and have cut myself off from every body so the things normal peeps do i dont do as i dont leave the house at all. That all has to change i was 40 four weeks ago and have not lived a decent life for many years and now realise what i am missing, Aaron is hardly in the house as her is nearly 16 and works and has a social life so if i dont take my finger out and stop feeling sorry for myself now am going to carry on haveing a crap lonely existance and not a life worth living.

Got up at 5 am like normal to get Aaron up for works as he leaves at 5.30 and made his packed lunch and got passed the first hurdle of resisting the nuttella and stuff i put in his packed lunch lol and resisted making myself a sandwich which i normally do as i take my pain med first thing in the morning then once Aaron goes to work i go back to bed, it used to be till when ever i woke up and Ebony(my 17 month sbt dog) would come and sleep on my bed with me but now i have my new addition Tia who is only 10 weeks old she wont sleep for that long once woken up so went back to bed till 8 am then got up and put the dogs out and came straight on here lol.

Feel ok am glugging the water and have told myself that its ok to feel hungry and its not going to bother me at all.
Got loads of housework to do today as although am 27 stone and have probs walking and my legs collapse am still really fussy and far 2 house proud which as u can imagine is not 2 easy with a teenager and 2 dogs lol so got load to do and want to tidy up the garden a bit so i can put a paddling pool up for the dogs to keep cool as Ebony my older one finds it hard in the sun as she is so dark.

Take care and have a good day and enjoy the nice weather as we never know how long its going to be around for lol xxx
 
Good luck Roch ... I'm on day 1 again ... know how hard it is - but want to be SLIMMER this summer.

You can do it ... yes come on here - you know we'll motivate, encourage or even kick ar$£!!
 
Hi Roch

There is so much I want to say to you - I am glad that you realise that you are the one in charge of your future and you are the one who has control over what you do and do not eat and drink. That is a major step on the road to recovery - because that is what this is... it is a journey of recovery.

You can do this, I know you can, but you need to know it yourself too.

How? I don't know.. but be realistic about goals and targets.. in the past the VLCD has not been successful for you - that doesn't mean it won't be now. It just means it wasn't in the past.

Personally I would recommend calorie counting because I know how tough it is when you are as big as you are (remember at my biggest I topped over 25 stone) to go without food. Your body will not appreciate it , plus, you are on a lot of medications which quite frankly I think will have contraindications with a VLCD.

On a calorie controlled diet you can eat and will still lose significant amounts of weight.

I hate to read of your health issues and the hygiene and the difficulties with sweat rashes etc... all things I have endured in the past too.. trust me.. I know precisely what it is like and remember all too well how horrendous it can be.

With summer knocking on the door now it would be great to think that this will be your last May with these problems.. and your final June with thighs that rub together., your very last ever July huffing and puffing with shopping bags in the heat.... August in pain will be a distant memory this time next year...

I'm dead serious sweetheart... no more pi$$ing around now... this is your life you are playing with and it's a very precious and valuable commodity... you are the one in control of things... you are the only one who buys your food and drink.. who cooks your food and drink.. and who decides what you do and don't consume. End of.

I know there will be those who think I am being very harsh and maybe I am, but we have been here before my darlin. We both know it.

Do what you have to do to be the Roch you truly deserve to be, you are a phenomenal person with an inordinate amount of love, intelligence, joy, talent and life to enjoy and share with others.

I for one would love to see you realise and release all that potential.

You can do it. Have faith in yourself and you will get there.

Much love

xxxxxxx
 
I just want to say ty for all of ur who always pop by and check on me and constantly support me, soz am not 2 good today so just a quickie and pls forgive me for not mentiong all ur names as there are so many of u amazing peeps here.

I started Lt and by day 3 i suppose i could say was having a very hard time emotionally not going without food that was the easy bit but mentally i felt like i was on the verge of a breakdown. Have been in a very fragile emotional state for over 18 months but becuase of the stigma that goes with mental health problems i kept it to myself and not having a gp for the past 8 weeks did not help(gp took me off their books as soon as they found out i had moved and could not find another till last week) although i know so many people who suffer from depression i still kept it to myself, well it all came to a head last week and i was not getting out of bed at all and i knew i needed help so managed to find a gp through my local pct and registered but was told i could not see the gp till 2 weeks time till i saw the nurse.
On friday i was feeling really bad and spoke to the doctors and had an emergency app for today although not officially registered and finally accepted some help. The gp has put me on Prozac and Diazepan and wants me to see a psychologist and see her in 2 weeks time.

I will not be on the site for the near future but if anyone wants to chat to me u can email me on [email protected] or msn [email protected]

The gp was very supportive and gave me a diet sheet and said that for the next 3/4 weeks just follow the diet sheet really it is just low gi and said when i am feeling a bit better we can discuss my options.

Ty again to all of u for always supporting me, i should of not been so stupid and accepted i needed help with my depression instead of hiding away, i was once on meds for depression but they did not work so just forgot bout the idea and it did not go away.

Take care and ty so much hope u all have a good week.
Luv Roch xxxx
 
There comes a time in my life where i have to admit i cant do this alone any more and need som serious help, i finally broke down to my uncles and they were both abroad last week and came home on tuesday and straight away they came round to see me on wednesday, they were both shocked and upset to see how bad things were for me and how low i was and in so much pain, my unlces are disgusted with the lack of help i was getting from my gp in the past and thy immediatley booked me in to see their private doc in a private hospital in chelsea today. My uncle sent a cab for me and met me at the hospital and made the cab wait 90 mins and bring me back and forked out the best part of £100 in cab fares. The doc was excellent he was thorough and very open minded was shocked to hear a doc who had only seen me for the first time and without my medical notes had prescribed prozac and vaium for me and also had told me to run up and down my stairs 20 times a day for exercise when i had told her i have to go up the stairs on my hands and knees.
The doc said he can see i have pocs which i as dignosed with a year ago but never given any meds for and also he thinks i have metabolic x syndrome but need a blood test to completely know that for sure but by examining me he is sure of it.
He aggrees i am in such a bad state at the moment that i should have a gastric bypass and then once i have recovered from surgery need to see a psychologist to deal with the issues that i have from childhood.

My uncles have both decided to share the bill for my surgery, a year ago one of my uncles aggreed to pay for my surgery but i felt bad and also chickened out and hear i am the same weight but worse health probs and wishing i had had the conviction to go ahead with it a year ago.
We r looking into having the surgery in the next month or a bit earlier and possibly in Belgium as it is cheaper and there is an excellent surgeon there.
I am happy i finally asked for help and this time will def go ahead with surgery as i feel if i dont do it this time then by the end of the year i may not be around.
I feel very isolated, lonely and scared and hope and pray that i live through the surgery, this time nothing is going to stop me i will have the surgery no matter what !!!
 
ROch,

PLEASE PLEASE don't chicken out this time. I personally am begging you. I think the bypass op will be the making of you and will really uncover "The New Roch". Seriously, your family LOVE you, don't let yourself down and don't let them down. Your GP is like the majority of GP's totally lacking in understanding of obesity and the emotional consequenses. I can't believe you have to go up and down stairs on your knees ... that's no way to live. Get the op - before it's too late.

I for one am breathing a sigh of relief for you. The light at the end of the tunnel is evident now ... just look ahead and aim... no looking back now. The NEW YOU AWAITETH!

xxxx :hug99:
 
cah-ching said:
ROch,

PLEASE PLEASE don't chicken out this time. I personally am begging you. I think the bypass op will be the making of you and will really uncover "The New Roch". Seriously, your family LOVE you, don't let yourself down and don't let them down. Your GP is like the majority of GP's totally lacking in understanding of obesity and the emotional consequenses. I can't believe you have to go up and down stairs on your knees ... that's no way to live. Get the op - before it's too late.

I for one am breathing a sigh of relief for you. The light at the end of the tunnel is evident now ... just look ahead and aim... no looking back now. The NEW YOU AWAITETH!

xxxx :hug99:
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Ty hun i was crying when i wrote the post and cried more when i read urs, i promise i will have the surgery as i want to live.
Well done on ur 33lbs weight loss u go girl xx
 
Oh hun feel for you soo much as i was reading your post i was thinking ive heard this before about surgery then i got to the bit where you said you were offered it last yr what a memory eh !! GO FOR IT dont look back just look back at your thread in maybe a yr after your surgery and see how far youve come i envy you really as you seem such a lovely person and need this sooo much xxxxxxxx
 
hey Roch, just wanna wish u all the best hun, & like the others said, pls don't back out this time, ur uncles both obviously care a lot for u
xx
 
Hiya Roch,
I am really rooting for you hunny. I hope your experience with your bypass is as positive as mine . I know i have got my life back. we will go to a mini's meet together . Make sure you start taking good care of yourself and do everything the surgeon tells you . Enjoy your new start Roch. If you need any support i am right with ya darlin'
Take care luv Jules xxx
 
P.S - I notice your mood is set at "worried" as the song goes, don't worry, be happy! Think about how fabulous Christmas will be this year!
 
Agree with all the others - go for it and start your life where you can join in with things and be happy.

Let us know how things go.
 
What's happening Roch?
 
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