Hi

[Sammie G]

Afternoon hunnie OMG I can't believe they still haven't delivered your washer pipe that's just really rude. I'm just in the process of making some SW recipes for my lunches Thaila's broke up from college for half term so that's a little bit easier. I'm doing Butternut Squash & Carrot soup and Quiche for Monday and Tuesday then I think Potato & Leek soup for Wednesday and Thursday don't know what side I want will have to consult my folder for some ideas.

Its my little brother and little sisters 21st and 30th birthdays today respectively so been doing the family stuff this weekend feel wiped out but still got shopping and cleaning to do. I hate this week in October birthdays as follows
Niece: 18th - 12yrs
Sister: 20th - 33yrs
Niece: 21st - 15yrs
Brother:23rd - 21yrs
Sister:23rd - 30yrs
and to top it off my sister-in-law has just made me an auntie again on the 17th so as you can see the week is busy, busy and totally skint.

WTH I detest people that purposely set out to make you look ridiculous, do you think she's slightly jealous because of your weight loss, I hope its not as bad as you think it is and it can be fixed.

You're entitled to have a moan let yourself go thats what I'm here for.

Well going to try and get something done before the day passes me by will come back on later this evening mwah x x x

 

[zilla]

Hi am sat undressed again (not a pretty sight lol) getting dressed for work in a minute. Yep I had a good look at my hair when I got up and I reckon I will need to have another good 4 inches cut off to make it even that means in total I would have lost about 10 inches :cry::cry::cry:. Not sure if she has done it on purpose-I hope not as I thought she was a better person than that.

Have just had rice salad with onions, tomatoes and bacon, yummy. Am in the process of doing an asda online delivery for tuesday so not sure what the meals will be this week depends what he has on offer.

Somehow I seem to have lost focus and don't quite feel zoned in again yet but am going to persevere.

Not hopeful for the 5.5lb loss a week on thu but at the same time not beating myself up about it either was talking to a colleague last night and she said to be proud of the weight I have lost and that the blip I am having at the moment is because I am human and just for me not to let it take over and make me go back to my old ways, she was saying what I alredy knew but sometimes it's nice to hear someone else say it.

Got to go now and put some clothes on. Speak tomorrow as my break will be spent seeing what offers Mr A has for me.

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[Sammie G]

Hi hunni for the first time in years I sat down on the chair about half 1am, put the tv on and woke up at 4am with a stiff neck and freezing lol : :zz: gen125:.

Yet again I've only just sat down I got in from work made dinner pork chops, carrots and new potatoes, made a SW quiche, potato & leek soup AND a cake. Then I took some soup and the cake to my mums because she's finally been allowed out of hospital and I know for a fact my dad will try and feed her rubbish - men pah -

I think there's something in the air as I can't seem to motivate myself I know what I SHOULD be eating but it doesn't seem to want to go in my mouth but like you say I'm going to have to give myself a good talking to, to be able the 3 st weightloss for June (she says scoffing a packet of fun size maltesers. :8855: :nono:

Well I'm just going to watch the soaps then HK and we can chat about it tomorrow.

Hope your shift is going good mwah x x x x

 

[zilla]

Right here goes!!! Shift was cancelled for last night. Washer pipe finally arrived and ex came and fixed it, whoop whoop. Then I decided to go out for the night on my own. Went to local casino and crawled home at 3am had a fantastic time and my hair was okay once I washed it and put products on to make the curl more defined, I felt good. So when I got up today I decided that I had to get back in the zone before I undo all my hard work. Therefore I went out and bought the things to make tomato soup and I must say it is soooooooo yummy will be making this quite regular me thinks. I feel great because again I feel the zone coming over me and although it may take a couple of weeks to wipe out the damage I have done I feel okay about it.

Also bought some scan bran for the first time and think I will attempt the cake to have with my brew later. Not sure though as I have a tooth abcess and my face is swollen like the elephant man (not a pretty sight) mother said I need to go to the dentist, yep like that's going to happen NOT. Hate the bloody place and only go if on death's door. lol. I wonder if they are hated by as many people as the tax man.....

Have you watched HK yet? I have, let me know when you have then we can b*t*h about it, :8855:.

Must go and do the ironing soon otherwise the day will pass and I will still be on here.

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[Sammie G]

Yaaaaaay woo hoo you've had your pipe fixed about bloody time that got delivered

Had a little whinge tonight I have put on 4lbs :cry::break_diet::wave_cry: I knew I'd done rubbish this week but that is scandalous , my friend says its because I've been so stressed with my mum, my boob and general stuff but no excuses the fault is mine I'm going to have to start planning my daily menus again as they seemed to help and MADE me remember to eat proper things rather than grabbing and going or just going as this last week has proved, I've been having lunches but by the time I've got home from work, cleaned up made lunches took food to my mums its almost midnight and I can't be bothered eating so I reverted to my old ways of taking chocolate & crisps to bed but as from tomorrow its a brand new start.

OMG watched HK WTH is Gordon thinking of keeping Elise in again the girl seriously needs to be booted right out of the kitchen

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[zilla]

:bighug::bighug::bighug:That's for your gain. Also this is :whoopass:.:8855::8855::8855:. What are we like eh!! Please don't loose heart Sammie, if I got weighed today it would probably be the same for me, but Oh well, it just makes the journey a step or two longer.

I look like a hamster this morning, my face looks half okay and half like it's been pumped up with air I will have to seek medical help tomorrow if it is no better :cry:. Am maxed up with painkillers but I loathe the dentist and still haven't got one. I know I know.

Also am thinking of stopping going to group and using the money to join a gym and following the plan from home. I think that I would be able to keep focused *laughs* well probably keep focused as I have now lost a nice amount. What do you think?

HK was brill but at one point I wanted to get in there and wring her neck, when they were writing the menu and she was winding them all up. Makes good tv though and I wonder if that's why Gordon is keeping her in, she can't win it surely.

Am enjoying my days off even if I am in constant pain and have made a few xmas cards (just one of my hobbies) I find it theraputic and it keeps me from raiding the kitchen when watching tv. Not that there's much too watch at the moment anyway.

Will be having some of the tomato soup today as it's too painful to eat much else (one way to loose weight I suppose) the recipe I got off this site and it tastes a lot like heinz. Yummy and soooooooo easy to make. Am also drinking copious amounts of coffee as somehow this helps with the pain (not sure how, but it does-or is it all in the mind) (my god I waffle on sometimes,:8855

Speaking of which time for another cup. Followed by a bit more time online then some more card making, ahhhhhh boy do I live life in the fast lane

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[Sammie G]

:flowers::flowers: for my hugs and telling off I was getting a bit disheartened but then not only have I not looked after myself properly I missed WI last week so that actually made me feel better :8855::8855:

Feel like I'm doing better this week I've had a different flavour soup everyday for my lunch and tonight BEFORE I went to drop my mum some soup off we had jacket potatoes , didn't realise the other day but I've got some energy I can sit down without wanting to close my eyes :8855::8855:

I've got broccolli & cauliflower soup for tomorrow's lunch and sausage casserole & mash for dinner feeling ok and will even be happy if I STS while I get myself back on track.

As for HK your right it makes great telly but I still want to give her a slap she is SO annoying the lads are not going to put up with her antics the way the girls did can't wait for next week woo hoo.

Hope you've had a good day sweets mwah x x x x

 

[Sammie G]

Forgot to ask how's your mouth sweetie did you make an appointment with the dentist ? ? :brushing teeth: x x x x

 

[zilla]

No I didn't make an appointment and as I am still alive won't be doing so this time :8855:it has got a lot better towards the later part of the night and am not doped up on painkillers now, it's a good job as I have an overtime shift booked for tonight. I spent a beautiful day though watching tv and crafting. Am going to stay up till about 6am then have a nice sleep ready for work tonight.

You sound focused food wise again and I must admit to planning to have quite a lot of soup in the next couple of weeks. Still not decided if I am going back to group but me thinks not, I really have missed the gym in manchester I used to go to but it costs nearly £50 a month and I cannot justify paying for both so it is one or the other. Will try and stay on track for a week and if I can do it then I think the gym will win.

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[zilla]

Am specialing a man tonight on a different ward and it's only an 9 hour shift Have come to a decision about going to group. Not going any more. I have a male friend that wants to loose around three stone and we are going to do it together. We see each other most days as we work on adjoining wards and we socialise together when not working. I will still need you on here Sammie to keep me on the straight and narrow and you can tell me when new things come out and you learn about them in group. I know many will say it is the wrong decison but it feels right for me and means I can get more sleep before going to work.

I am going to draw up a menu for two weeks at a time and stick to it as much as possible and get weighed once a month using the electronic scales in boots, they don't read the same weight as the ones in group but I just want a rough idea of how the weight loss is going. Before I go away next July I want to weigh at least 12.5 stone I currently weigh 15 st 3.5 lbs I started at 17 st 12lbs so nearly half way there. :8855:

My mouth is painful, the swelling is now going down and am not taking as many painkillers as before but ouch it hurts. I will have to see if I can find a dentist that will put me to sleep whilst he takes the two bad teeth out. I am such a baby :cry::cry::cry:

Am on a long stretch of nights now as I have picked a couple of shifts up for the agency as well as doing my own nights (money grabber) will post each nighht when on my break as will be sleeping all day every day so that my energy levels are kept topped up. Am going to start walking home every morning that it's not raining in an attempt to help the weight loss will have robbie williams blasting in my ears as I walk and must remember not to start singing like I did the other morning when walking home as they may lock me away for bad singing :8855:

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[Sammie G]

Ohhhh a 'man friend' :bananalove::8855: I understand about quitting Fat Club I was thinking the same myself even had a chat with my dad (of all people ha ha) but then I said I LOVE getting the certificates whereas he said just find a webpage and print them out yourself hmmmm not a bad idea but going to go till after xmas and if I'm still struggling and not finding her helpful then I will leave and go it alone, I have all the basics in my head so should find it easier than a year ago.

Have you tried an emergency dentist ? My friend did that and managed to get referred I'm exactly the same when I had a tooth out I had to go to the hospital and be put to sleep :8855::8855:

OMG I've never :sign0131::sign0131: so much since I've been having these soups this week :8855::8855:

I will always be here for you sweetheart and IF I'm lucky to get get any info from the consultant I will happily pass it on to you

mwah x x x x x

 

[zilla]

My manfriend is simply that :sigh: he plays for the other team (if you know what I mean :8855. We have decided that monday will be our weigh in day, I am going to use the scales at work even though they weigh a few pounds heavier than the ones at the SW group I know because I used to get on them when I got to work after SW and the weights didn't match. However as I am only going to use them as a general thing about once a month I am not that fussed. I have done a lot of thinking this week and have decided to take the pressure of the weight loss by stopping going to group and to only get weighed once a month. The way I eat is going to be with me for the rest of my life and I know I will be losing weight, I also know that sometimes the bad stuff will attack me and throw itself down my throat, I am only human after all, but this way I think it will be a substainable way to live. Time will tell but I feel great like I have now taken control of my own future. Probably sounds daft to you but to me it feels good. There are a couple of people that have said they are not sure if I will be able to carry on losing weight if I stop going to group but all I have said is thanks for your comments and I look forward to proving I can and will do it. Don't get me wrong the group I went to was good and it was what I needed to get me going but the thought of having to go every week for the rest of my life was a bit hard so thought i'd better get a grip sooner rather than later.

Not worked the menus out yet but will try and do them over the next couple of days for the next two weeks, all I know is that I am making the lovely tomato soup tomorrow.

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[zilla]

If you keep going missing I am going to have to have you "tagged". Hope this finds you in good spirits.

Am just about to start work and tomorrow is the new start for me being 100% back on track I know the next couple of days food and will do a menu if I have time later tonight for the next couple of weeks. Am working 99% of the nights from now until mid december. (in an attempt to get some savings in the bank) then next year I will cut back a little-but not too much as I actually like working and the job I am in, plus I like money and spending it :8855:.

Got to go now.
Take care.

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[Sammie G]

Hi sweetie glad you're on top form I seem to be going to start the WII properly this week as I've not done any type of exercise for a LONG time.

Had my sister and her kids round for dinner then I went out over the weekend - my sister is turning me into a lush :8855::8855: we went out in fancy dress and for the first time since I can remember I felt pretty I got alot of guys coming up to me wit woo posted them on my facebook today and have had some lovely comments.

But the best of it is I went shopping on Thursday for a new outfit for my friends birthday bash next weekend in a REGULAR shop, she made me try it on in the shop I had cold sweats, palpatations and was almost crying as I have NEVER tried on in shops before I used to just pick something up I thought would fit buy it and if it didn't fling it in the back of my wardrobe It took ages to calm down and try it on but I'm so glad I did as its given me the boost I need to carry on this journey.

Its a huge change from the trousers and blouses I normally wear .... wait for it ...... its a 60's style mini dress (when I say mini I mean between my knees and thighs and not up my :8855::8855 but thats mini to me lmao.

Have a good shift and I WILL speak to you 2moro ohhhh HK can't wait

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[zilla]

:happy096: Ah you're no longer missing, great to hear from you and that you have had a wonderful few days. I am so happy for your shopping trip just the thing to keep you focused. Get you with all those men, whit whoo girl could lovvve be in the air????:bliss:

Will watch HK on tuesday if I keep out of bed long enough, doubtful at the moment as all I am doing is working and sleeping. I don't mind though as 1- I like my job 2-I like my bed and 3- I like having money so I am currently in a no loose situation.

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[Sammie G]

Hi hunni yes I'm back sorry to go AWOL and worry you I got a bit carried away with my big head after shopping :8855::8855:

The attention of the fella's is nice but for now thats as far as it needs to go :S I don't have the time for love & romance I don't think I'm emotionally ready and as much as I'm loving my weight loss I still don't like myself a whole lot, I'm not being down on myself but I don't see in the mirror the image that I want to but I WILL get there

I'll watch HK tomorrow otherwise I'll be desperate to tell you or drop hints especially if its a good episode.

Have a good shift hunni mwah x x x x

 

[zilla]

lol lol lol, you deserve to be a bit pleased with yourself about the great weight loss and you deserve to get a bit of male attention. I understand and exactly know what you mean about not looking yet how you want to be as I am the same but we both know that we WILL get there.

I will watch HK when I get in this morning and then we can discuss it later on in the day. I cannot wait and sooooo hope the b*t*h gets a :whoopass: and also a. Be so funny to see her cry again.

Work is busy and we are moving to a new ward in the morning so they want us to do morning washes etc on top of all the stuff we already have to do :wow: stick a broom up my arse and I will do the lot .

Food wise, mmmmmm not that brill :break_diet:and :cry: and:17729: and :booboo: and :help2:and :ashamed0005:and :sign0007: anddo you get the picture . Never once said I was perfect did I? Lol I am fine and will kick my own arse soon.

Am going to go to a double day at the casino mid december and am aiming to wear a really nice black and white shirt that I have but have never managed to fit into. When I get my head in gear I will try and do a huge amount of 100% days in order to make it happen. Don't know about losing 3 stone for next July more like 3 lb.:faint2:

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[Sammie G]

Hiya hunni now 1st things 1st :whoopass: :whoopass: :whoopass: :whoopass: we WILL get to where we want to be and we will do it together EVERY step of the way :family2: :bighug: we just need to get our head into it properly but to be fair the pair of us have had a couple of stressful months but no more excuses.

Right you've had you're telling off mwah.

I'm just about to watch HK woo hoo hope something good happens and the trouble causer gets what she deserves finally :cross: :fingerscrossed: :cross: :fingerscrossed:

Went to WI tonight and -1lb happy with that after last weeks setback :cry:

Hope you have a good shift speak to you soon sweets mwah x x x x x

 

[zilla]

:happy096: On your loss this week and thanks for the arse kicking :8855:. Am planning to start again (yep I know) on thursday. I have bought all the stuff to make the soup and have filled the kitchen with all the healthy stuff that i ate at the start. I know however it will take a few weeks to undo the damage that I have done but as you say we will get there together and we have had a few stressful weeks.

Well what did you make of HK I cannot beleive that jennifer has gone and that the men chose to keep the b*t*h in . I was lay in bed screaming at the tv . We are on the new ward now and although it is much bigger I think it will be better once we get used to where everything is.

Will post again on thu(day off) 1st day of being good again.


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[Sammie G]

What the Hell is Gordon thinking of and for those 2 to actually listen to Elise and keep her in well they deserve everything thats coming to them next week

How are you getting on with your meals this week being as your working 20 hours a day and sleeping for 12 ha ha :8855: :8855: I'm trying to stay on track but flamin * week has come around again and I just want to eat everything in sight :17729: :gimi: , Thaila got scared I was going to start gnawing on her leg last night and went to bed at 10pm :8855: :8855: :8855:

Enjoy your day off sweets mwah x x x x