Tange
Silver Member
I had some realisations this morning. All through this diet until now I have seen myself as still fat. This morning as I was boarding a bus I saw my reflection and nearly fell over, hell I have a concave stomach the size 14's that were tight around the legs are now loose. Suddenly there is this fairly pretty face with a neck 
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We have had a few new peeps join on here so I thought I would tell everyone how I am feeling after loosing 5st.
I can see the Tanja I once knew coming back to life, being the clown with the silly sense of humour, smile always in place. But now that smile is real, it comes from inside. I no longer push myself into the corner of the elevator to try and make myself look smaller (sometimes I do when I forget I am not Nellie the Elly anymore)
There is a confidence in me that I can't remember ever having. My job is in the balance because of location moves and restructures and my boss leaving. It hasn't phased me one bit. It never even crossed my mind that a glass of wine or a pizza will make it better. I have options and I will survive whatever life throws at me.
I have come to terms with so much stuff that I carried with me for so long. And its kind of weird to think that loosing weight can make you deal with things that you always thought had no connection. I no longer believe that no on can love me, I no longer believe that I am not worthy of happiness and success.
I now know that the past is the past.
In the imortal words of Leonard Cohen "It's over now, it's over babe, don't cry no more. I say don't cry, don't cry, don't cry anymore. It's over. It's finished. It's completed. It has been paid for."
I have never thought I would post something like this. Always thought no one will be interested, but this morning I thought to to heck with it. I will share. I am proud of what I have done and I feel fanbl**dytastic.
So to those new to LL when the going gets tough remind yourself of how you think you will feel when you get to goal, and then times it by 10 cause its so much better than you think.
So there is my ramble. Enjoy being a loser
. We have had a few new peeps join on here so I thought I would tell everyone how I am feeling after loosing 5st.
I can see the Tanja I once knew coming back to life, being the clown with the silly sense of humour, smile always in place. But now that smile is real, it comes from inside. I no longer push myself into the corner of the elevator to try and make myself look smaller (sometimes I do when I forget I am not Nellie the Elly anymore)
There is a confidence in me that I can't remember ever having. My job is in the balance because of location moves and restructures and my boss leaving. It hasn't phased me one bit. It never even crossed my mind that a glass of wine or a pizza will make it better. I have options and I will survive whatever life throws at me.
I have come to terms with so much stuff that I carried with me for so long. And its kind of weird to think that loosing weight can make you deal with things that you always thought had no connection. I no longer believe that no on can love me, I no longer believe that I am not worthy of happiness and success.
I now know that the past is the past.
In the imortal words of Leonard Cohen "It's over now, it's over babe, don't cry no more. I say don't cry, don't cry, don't cry anymore. It's over. It's finished. It's completed. It has been paid for."
I have never thought I would post something like this. Always thought no one will be interested, but this morning I thought to to heck with it. I will share. I am proud of what I have done and I feel fanbl**dytastic.
So to those new to LL when the going gets tough remind yourself of how you think you will feel when you get to goal, and then times it by 10 cause its so much better than you think.
So there is my ramble. Enjoy being a loser
I think I just can't believe, that those bones I feel, and the flatness under my bra around my ribcages, etc., really truly is me!!! When I lay in bed at night, I can keel my hip bones, and my leg bones, etc.....Ijust can't believe they are really my skeleton thats under there, near the surface. I can't remember EVER feeling them like I am now!!! 
