ikkle87
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Well after the last 24 hours I just had I thought it would be best to start my own diary thread and hopefully get some support from someone as my family and friends seem to be letting me down a bit at the moment
Well a little about me...........
My name is Dani, I am 21 and live in Leeds. I am 6ft2 and weigh a lot. I started Slimming World on the 10th of November.
A little more background info.............
I have Ankylosing Spondylitis so exercise isn't the easiest thing in the world for me and I also have severe depression. As well as those two I have been diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder. Stupidly I thought that being on Slimming World I might be able to be ok without taking my tablets as if I needed to eat I could eat free foods. How wrong I was. Not only has not taking my tablets meant I have been emotional, snappy, irritable, aggressive but they have resulted in me binging and blowing over a weeks worth of syns in one night and also me nearly getting myself arrested but more about that in a mo.
Right now I am disgusted with myself. I went out with my two friends last night for a girls night out and have just not been able to stop myself binging since. I had a few drinks last night (2 vodka and diet cokes, 2 double vodka and diet cokes and 3 VK Tropical (10 syns each!!!!)) then on my way home even though i wasn't hungry just annoyed about the earlier events of the night and upset I stopped off at the local takeaway and got a mixed starter (24 syns) a korma (16.5 syns) and a mixed chicken dish (8syns). I didn't want it all but I still ate it. Then today I have had 4 packets of crisps (26 syns) a penguin biscuit (5.5 syns) 7 slices of weight watchers danish although 6 of them were HEB so one slice extra (2 syns) so thats 135 syns ish in one day. Do you think if I don't have any more syns all week I could counteract it and get a maintain or a loss??
As to why I am upset and the whole arrested thing. I am normally really close with my nan but she is stressed out over building work due to start on our house on Monday and has snapped at me making me feel really upset and unwanted and like I am a burden on her, normally she helps keep me under control but I just feel like its all gone to pot and Iv ruined everything. Last night when we were out a bloke made a bet with his mates he could pull the fat bird - me. He kept trying to touch me and I told him to stop it and he went away for a minute or two then came back and tried again, I told him to leave me alone again and again he went away but then a bit later my friends went to the loo and left me sat saving our drinks and bags and he came back but this time he tried to pin me to the chair and tried to kiss me so seeing red and finally having enough i punched him in the face. Ruining the night.
Now my friends are giving me the silent treatment for spoiling the night, my grandparents are giving me the silent treatment and I feel like I have no one and don't know what to do and I'm kinda scared. Someone please give me a kick up the backside or something and get my head back in gear.
Sorry for rambling and sorry for the long post I just didn't have anyone else to talk to and I thought maybe writing it down would help. I dunno.
Well a little about me...........
My name is Dani, I am 21 and live in Leeds. I am 6ft2 and weigh a lot. I started Slimming World on the 10th of November.
A little more background info.............
I have Ankylosing Spondylitis so exercise isn't the easiest thing in the world for me and I also have severe depression. As well as those two I have been diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder. Stupidly I thought that being on Slimming World I might be able to be ok without taking my tablets as if I needed to eat I could eat free foods. How wrong I was. Not only has not taking my tablets meant I have been emotional, snappy, irritable, aggressive but they have resulted in me binging and blowing over a weeks worth of syns in one night and also me nearly getting myself arrested but more about that in a mo.
Right now I am disgusted with myself. I went out with my two friends last night for a girls night out and have just not been able to stop myself binging since. I had a few drinks last night (2 vodka and diet cokes, 2 double vodka and diet cokes and 3 VK Tropical (10 syns each!!!!)) then on my way home even though i wasn't hungry just annoyed about the earlier events of the night and upset I stopped off at the local takeaway and got a mixed starter (24 syns) a korma (16.5 syns) and a mixed chicken dish (8syns). I didn't want it all but I still ate it. Then today I have had 4 packets of crisps (26 syns) a penguin biscuit (5.5 syns) 7 slices of weight watchers danish although 6 of them were HEB so one slice extra (2 syns) so thats 135 syns ish in one day. Do you think if I don't have any more syns all week I could counteract it and get a maintain or a loss??
As to why I am upset and the whole arrested thing. I am normally really close with my nan but she is stressed out over building work due to start on our house on Monday and has snapped at me making me feel really upset and unwanted and like I am a burden on her, normally she helps keep me under control but I just feel like its all gone to pot and Iv ruined everything. Last night when we were out a bloke made a bet with his mates he could pull the fat bird - me. He kept trying to touch me and I told him to stop it and he went away for a minute or two then came back and tried again, I told him to leave me alone again and again he went away but then a bit later my friends went to the loo and left me sat saving our drinks and bags and he came back but this time he tried to pin me to the chair and tried to kiss me so seeing red and finally having enough i punched him in the face. Ruining the night.
Now my friends are giving me the silent treatment for spoiling the night, my grandparents are giving me the silent treatment and I feel like I have no one and don't know what to do and I'm kinda scared. Someone please give me a kick up the backside or something and get my head back in gear.
Sorry for rambling and sorry for the long post I just didn't have anyone else to talk to and I thought maybe writing it down would help. I dunno.
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