Hi everybody, I think I have stayed away long enough!
Hope all of you are well?
First I would like to thank you all for your so kind messages on my tragic news threads, and it was so thoughtful to start a sticky. I have read every single message and it really does mean a lot to know how many of you have had us in your thoughts and prayers.
Things are still up and down here, but its still early days. I manage well really and can be positive most of the time, but I just can't get my head around the fact my daughter doesn't have her Daddy. I can live with the rest (reluctantly of course) but I really struggle to think of her living her life without knowing him the way she would have. I still have various worries re money etc. Still don't know if my insurance company will pay out and have been looking into benefits etc. I have changed my car as I couldn't afford to keep it.
On the whole though I am coping pretty well, I have wonderful family and friends who have been absolutely wonderful.
I went back to work a week ago so thats helping keep my mind busy too, my work have also been incredible. Its heartwarming to know how many people care about what happens to me.
weightwise I am happy enough.... I lost 8 pounds in the first 3 weeks after Marc died, and I've put most of it back on, but I am happy with how I look. I am a size 10 and I don't feel any need to be smaller. I also feel in a way this is all for nothing as I wanted to share it with marc, but I know its much more to do with my health. I need good health now to cope with life ahead.
I feel quite ok most of the time, I try to be optimistic. I am very lucky I have my daughter, my friends and my family. I am only 31 and there is a whole other life out there waiting for me just as soon as I am ready for it, I may as well be healthy and fit for it!
Thanks again to all of you for being there for me in my hours of need, I'll be posting now in the hope you can help me keep my weight off. I didn't do management as I was just about to move on to it when this happened and I can't justify spending the money now as I don't know where I stand at the moment financially. I may buy myself a GI book, thats the recommended route isn't it?
love
Mags
x
Hope all of you are well?
First I would like to thank you all for your so kind messages on my tragic news threads, and it was so thoughtful to start a sticky. I have read every single message and it really does mean a lot to know how many of you have had us in your thoughts and prayers.
Things are still up and down here, but its still early days. I manage well really and can be positive most of the time, but I just can't get my head around the fact my daughter doesn't have her Daddy. I can live with the rest (reluctantly of course) but I really struggle to think of her living her life without knowing him the way she would have. I still have various worries re money etc. Still don't know if my insurance company will pay out and have been looking into benefits etc. I have changed my car as I couldn't afford to keep it.
On the whole though I am coping pretty well, I have wonderful family and friends who have been absolutely wonderful.
I went back to work a week ago so thats helping keep my mind busy too, my work have also been incredible. Its heartwarming to know how many people care about what happens to me.
weightwise I am happy enough.... I lost 8 pounds in the first 3 weeks after Marc died, and I've put most of it back on, but I am happy with how I look. I am a size 10 and I don't feel any need to be smaller. I also feel in a way this is all for nothing as I wanted to share it with marc, but I know its much more to do with my health. I need good health now to cope with life ahead.
I feel quite ok most of the time, I try to be optimistic. I am very lucky I have my daughter, my friends and my family. I am only 31 and there is a whole other life out there waiting for me just as soon as I am ready for it, I may as well be healthy and fit for it!
Thanks again to all of you for being there for me in my hours of need, I'll be posting now in the hope you can help me keep my weight off. I didn't do management as I was just about to move on to it when this happened and I can't justify spending the money now as I don't know where I stand at the moment financially. I may buy myself a GI book, thats the recommended route isn't it?
love
Mags
x