My husband and I separated one month ago.. we still live in the same home right now (which is another story) We've had our ups and downs the past year or so ( for various reasons) and he had been complaining that I'm not happy and that makes him unhappy blah blah .. Now, according to my therapist he's having a midlife crisis, and he's blaming me and I know I can't take full blame..BUT I do take partial responsibility because he's right, I'm not happy.. Every time we would go out for a nice dinner I'd have a meltdown because I hated what I looked like or couldn't find the right outfit to wear, we never did any active hobbies together because I couldn't keep up. I lost my confidence and started hiding in more nights and became less social. Who wants a wife like that ?
Am I doing it this for love ? of course, I don't want to lose my husband and I want him to have a wife he can be proud of and a wife he willingly wants to do stuff with. But I'm also on a mission to find myself and be truly happy again. I do not want to feel this way anymore and I'm not naive, I know that my next step in life could very well be without my husband, if so then I need to make sure I am strong enough to handle that and be confident in myself to be single again and I don't think I'll be able to accomplish that if I don't feel good about myself.
For whatever our reasons.. love, health, happiness or to look good in our clothes, the main thing is that we're here.. and we're doing it !
