I have suffered depression on and off all my life! My mother, a highly strung individual, had it herself but in those days sufferers were branded nuts lol!
I really suffered after the difficult birth of my son, had complications and gained over 5st in weight which did not want to budge. Went to the doc who, after me pooring my heart out, asked me instead why I was so fat!! Did wonders for my depression which was probably post natal & sent me home with slimming tablets! They didn't work & by the time of my daughter's birth I was obese, riddled with depression & seriously suicidal after a failed marriage.
I have seen several psychiatrists over the years, been diagnosed with Major Depressive Illness & what I have learned is that those diagnosed are prone to reoccurence throughout life. It is indeed an illness & is actually an imbalance of chemicals in the brain for which antidepressants are necessary. However, it can take a long time before the right antidepressant is found before the patient see's any real progress.
And did you know that most antidepressants can usually make a patient gain weight? My happy pill of choice is fluoxetine specifically prescribed because of my weight problems.
2day I feel like crap! Still mourning the loss of my mammy (3 mths ago) so putting up the tree....hurt as this time last year on Christmas eve she was diagnosed with stage 3 cancer & I knew she wouldn't be here this Christmas. This morning I fell and ripped the ligaments in my ankle.......some excuse aye for not cooking the turkey lol! These are feelings I know with time will pass and I'll feel better eventually.
L.i.n.d.a. do be aware that dieting can lead to a further depressive feelings if yr body is not getting the right nutrients so ensure yr diet is not lacking. When u start to lose the weight, it will lift you without doubt. And don't think of it as dieting which to me means suffering and doing without, think of it as a change of eating........
In the meantime, if yr still feeling down, do go and have a talk to a doctor that listens....or change to one that does, darling.
Good luck.