Jezebella's Journal

RTM Day 35 (Week 5)

Week 5 is almost done. This time next week I will be half way through route to management. Quite a scary thought. The whole world of food away from the structure of this is quite scary indeed. I still feel I have so much more to learn. I think I am learning though which is a good thing. My attitude to food has changed entirely, and I know I mention it frequently, but it still amazes me that I can have huge old tasty meals that are infact low calorie and healthy. Also pretty amazed by how well I am doing with using no fat to cook. Something I thought I would battle with.

Today has been a really great day food wise. My cals are actually up on the last 2 days without the whole bloated ill feeling. I think it is because I had no pressure and ate when I was actually hungry.

Cuppa Java to get me up and attem! Then a little lounge in bed with Mrs Fat Belly. Decided to have breakfast before heading out, ended up pottering around for a bit, then realised I was actually hungry, so had a beautiful breakfast of Mandarin Yoghurt, with apple compote and a few fresh blackberries. Headed off to the shops to find the old thermal socks - which I did, and ooh one or 2 other items ;P Still all from Primark so cheap as chips. They have some fabby sweaters in there for a fiver.

Arrived home at 2pmish and realised ooh I had a little hunger pang. So had a gorgeous salad of Tuna, with lettuce, tomato, cucumber, some gherkin and 3 olives in brine, topped this off with some chopped dill and a dollop of fat free plain yoghurt. It was divine and very refreshing. Had a lovely red william pear with a cup of tea later in the afternoon. The pear was so sweet and juicy, a lovely little treat.
After a bit of a wardrobe sort out I set about making the curry for tomorrow evening. Will save that recipe for you all tomorrow but it is soooooooo sooooooooooooooo good!!! Cannot wait to have it with some lovely raita and a bit of tomato and coriander salad.

Dinner tonght was salmon fillet topped with wholegrain mustard and some philly extra light, with savoy and spinach , a bit of roasted sweet potato, the rest of the celeriac puree and broccoli!! Very satisfying and pretty on the plate. The sweet potato really does add a lovely satisfied feeling. Must be the small amount of carb in them.

Busy re watching Heston's Victorian Feast and getting so over excited by it all - he really is a total God and Genius ooh and hot!!! If I ever get the cash together to go for a meal at the Fat Duck, that is one night I will not count the calories!!! Will have to starve myself for a week or so beforehand, but it will be worth it. Sex on the tounge!!!!!! Or Food Porn of the highest most X rated order!!

For pud tonight, having some baked granny smith with plum and a yoghurt sprinkled with some peanut bar. Am trying out what Min suggested and putting things together to have a smaller amount of meals but more calorie rich meals so to speak, and I think a shake or hot shake will make me feel faaaaaaar too full.

A busy and somewhat emotional day tomorrow - going to the hospital for my breast scan - the just in case after my little lump scare. So will pack appropriate bits as I will be there most of the day. Busy week after that with lots of menu tastings going on , so bring on the following weekend I say!!! OOh also have my yearly appraisal on Tuesday, it is the time I get to have my say, and oh boy will I say it!!!

Looking forward to the seeds and most importantly the dried fruits and banana. Also planning a lovely tropical fruit salad with mango and papaya. Mango puree for a smoothie should be quite good too. Still no great urge for wine, so leaving that until I feel ready for it. Don't want to add wasteful cals really.

Have a wonderful evening further everyone.

Jez
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Good luck tomorrow Jez, will be thinking about you....fingers crossed.
 
Will be thinking of you tomorrow Jez xx
 
Thanks lovely ladies, this is just a precaution, the Doc thinks all is fine, but more just to put my mind at ease.

Jez
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Oh Jez

I must have missed you mentioning about the breast scan. Good luck. I hoppe it turns out to be a false alarm. Quite a few of us have had those since losing lots of weight. The fat seems to leave a few lumps behind which cause a scare. I hope that's all yours turns out to be, but such a worry till you find out. Will be thinking of you.
Food wise you're doing so well and your menus are giving loads of people ideas and making them realise that healthy food CAN be and IS delicious as well as good for you. Love all the colurs too. To me that indicates a good balance and looks pretty. After all we eat with our eyes first.:cry:
Regarding your sister telling you you are going too far with the weight loss. It's a difficult one.
I needed to get down to the goal I set myself and so enjoyed being REALLY skinny. However I have allowed myself to creep up my half stone allowable window.
It is scary, but I know my face looks better. I was a bit gaunt lookiong even though I felt fabulous and was a superb coat hanger at 9 and a half stone. I think 10 stone is about my mark.It's a 10/12 rather than an 8/10. Still unbelievable for me.
It is terrifying allwing yourself to eat a bit more because you imagine everything you eat will start the weight piling back on.
It is so tempting to just stick with the few
things you introduce and get into a routine. However the whole point of RTM is to re-introduce a variety of foods and realise they don't necessarily mean weight gain if you can control yourself.
Someone in our LL group is really struggling with this at the moment and continues to lose on RTM. But when you question he she isn't really eating all she should (you know who you are!).
Sometimes it makes you feel as though you want to be abstinent forever. I used to love that feeling of nothing to digest in my system. It is addictive.
So much of this is psychological. We know we were out of control previously and dread going back there. Also, knowing so many people have been where we are now only to re-gain all their weight makes me ask why I should be a lucky one a keep mine off. I still expect to wake up one day a size 30.
I'm sure you will be fine.You are an inspiration to everyone so far. OooopS. I typed fat instead of far!
Have hada really busy week-end trying to get my OH to agree which quote to accept for some interior painting and then agreeing on colours. Really I wanted to be outside putting my garden to bed for the winter. It has been a beautiful day.
Very busy few weeks at work coming up for me.:confused:
 
Thanks so much for the chat SB, it means so much :) Had a much better day cal wise today, but because my time was my own, I ate at good times and felt great with it. The whole idea of putting on is scary, but so far so good. I guess I need experience of eating without putting weight on to prove it to myself. Pity you couldn't get out into the garden. My mom did her final mowing and bits this week. It really is starting to get cold up North.

Dying to know what you had on the menu tonight?

Jez
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Je
 
Tonight's menu

Turkey stir fry

Marinated small slithers of turkey fillet in
chlli, ginger, soya sauce and garlic with some tomato puree this afternoon and then cooked them off in a high oven.
Meanwhile:
Stir fried in my wok with a couple of sprays of olive oil, some savoy cabbage, red pepper, beansprouts, batons of carrot
and sliced mushrooms.

Put the meat aside, added a bit of hot water to the meat tin and swished it around (technical term!). Added the juices to the stir fried vegetables.
Scattered the meat on top with sliced 1 egg omelette and a chopped spring onion and some toasted sesame seeds..

That's what I had. The others had some plain basmati rice, prawn crackers and mini duck spring rolls as well.
My Hong Kong student said it was yummy.

Later this evening I have had sliced pears cooked in the microwave with some berries served with plain yogurt and a spoonful of honey.
 
oh my godness that sounds delicious :)
 
Hello lovely Jez
Just catching up on your thread - I wouldn't worry too much about dropping a little bit as it will probably balance out with the trigger weeks as you say (listen to me, as though I know lol). If you finish RTM lighter than you want you have the discipline to increase it slowly and sensibly to where you want it to be, you have the skill to use the tools you have been given you just need to start trusting yourself.

Hope you got on alright today, thinking of you.
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Hi Jezz....

Just quickly getting caught up, and I too missed your post about your scan. :( I have only been hitting and missing the forum the last several days, so I am so sorry to have missed this.

I really hope it all wentr well today - it IS scary. As SB said, this has happened to many of us, and I was one of them too. And my doc got me in straight away, and it was a false alarm. I am sure you will find that too, but will be waiting anxiously to hear from you. With everything crossed!!!

So let us know.

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Hey Everyone

Thanks so much for the good wishes! Everything went well, and what I thought my original lump was, is indeed a deep fat deposit! Yay for that. My one breast is a lot more nodular than the other, so they did a Mammogram along with the Sonagram (mammogram = ouch) They think everything is fine, and will let me know by letter once the Consultant has had a look at both of them. So feeling much relieved. Bless the poor intern (it was a teaching hospital) he made me laugh, because he was clearly giving me the eye and was so solicitous of me!! Too cute. Food report a little later, but so far not a bad day. Finally made my little dessert I had been planning so will post that too as it looks like it has worked out brilliantly!

Jez
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Even though we have chatted in text Jez, I still want to say I am really pleased about your news.

Looking forward to reading your daily log later. It is the last thing I check for at night before I go to bed! lol

Kat xx
 
Jez, and you to me honey, I could not have done this without you. I can't wait to meet you! xx
 
Jez, what a relief

I am so delighted for you. xx
 
Thank goodness for that Jez, glad it all went well...:)
 
RTM Day 36 (Week 6)

Omg!!! I am in week 6!!!! Shocker!!! Well today was eventful what with the hospital visit and all, but food wise it has been a good one. Felt very treaty infact, although all good. I weighed this morning and am a little down on what I was the last few days, only be a few hundred grams though. So obviously even with eating more I am not gaining.

Breakfast was a fabbbbbbbulous event for me, it brought on the re introduction of one of my all time favourite fruits - the banana!!!! Had a coffee and breakfast before leaving for the hospital. Vanilla yoghurt, with a few raspberries and one small banana sliced very thinly into it. Ooooooooooh, faaaaaaaaabulous, wonderful sweet, soft, flavoursome, divine banana. Really filled me up too. I knew I would be in hospital till after lunch so took an apple and a bar as a snack. Didn't end up having them though. The hospital was as good as it can get, and I had to thank the staff most profusely for their kindness, compassion and general loveliness even in difficult and busy circumstances. You felt like a person, not just a number. The student doctor who was in on my exams was too funny, I got the impression he kind of fancied me ;P Pity about his tender young age :)

Got home after 1pm and had some wonderful and warming sweetcorn and veg chowder that my sister made for us over the weekend. It was thick and rich and gorgeous. Got on with some menu work for the rest of the afternoon. and by 5 was feeling a bit peckish, but I knew I had the curry coming up for dinner and didnt want to fill up too much so distracted myself by making my Halloween Pumpkin Mousse, pics up in the gallery. Worked out brilliantly and the whole plate of pud was under 100 cals. It is at times like this that I am so greatful I have the skills to produce amazing interesting things.

When my sis got in we had tea with milk and a bar. I finished off the curry and made some sambals to go with it.

Curry as follows:

Diced lean leg of lamb ( I took every inch of any fat off)
Dry marinaded this in a curry spice blend which I make up and left to stand for a few hours.
chopped onion, chilli, garlic, cooked this off in a bit of veg stock. Stirred in a some tomato paste, and the lamb which I browned off. Added a tin of chopped tomatoes and water, and simmered for 2 hours on low heat. When the meat was tender I blanched some diced sweet potato and butternut which I popped into the curry. Cooked for another 30 min. This was allowed to cool and chill over night. The sambals were a fab cucumber and mint raita and a tomato, onion and corriander sambal, we also sprinkled on a few raisins to give it more of a cape malay flavour. This was served with a side portion of spinach. It was awesome!!!!!!!!!!

Pud pics will go up shortly into the gallery. Saving some room for a nice hot shake later :)

Busy week ahead, and working late tomorrow night, so will have to take out some of my freezer bits at work to take on the job.

I should probably have had a bit more protein today, but will have a protein breakfast or lunch tomorrow.

Have a fantastic Tuesday everyone.

Jez
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You do indeed produce amazing interesting things. Loving it all. Can I have the recipe for your chowder if you have a minute later on in the week....ta muchly missus...:D

Have a good Tuesday..:)
 
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