Julz journey to a thinner me! :)

[Claire_Williams]

Hi girls, just to let you know you're definitely not alone. Have been in my current post for just over 4 years and have never been so miserable! This diet is giving me confidence and I hope one day soon to get out of there.

Watch this apace and we'll soon all have moved on to happier more satisfying posts, xxx

 

[Clarabow]

Amen sister. Lesson to us all fix what is bothering us food is just a symptom of our distress x

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[Clarabow]

How's life in ur world? Hope not so bad. Focus on what u can do and not on what it seems u can't.
My zen ism for the day x

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[LadyT]

How's life in ur world? Hope not so bad. Focus on what u can do and not on what it seems u can't.
My zen ism for the day x

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Great advice hun. Xx

 

[Julz]

How's life in ur world? Hope not so bad. Focus on what u can do and not on what it seems u can't.
My zen ism for the day x

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Hi Clara
Ticking over is the best I can say at the moment, still feel really withdrawn and down, really don't know why. Today is day 101 on LLT so I should be jumping up and down but not?

Work front settled down a bit, I have made the decision to do my job, and go home rather than run at everything and do everything for everyone at 100 mph. Getting better at saying no, or delaying until I have time, so proud of that. Little changes I am consciously making are helping.

I seem to have patches of being up and great, then down and feeling really alone and isolated. I can't seem to get to the bottom of it or understand the reasons for this behaviour, it is unlike me altogether. I do live alone, but don't usually suffer loneliness etc.

It could be the layers of that onion I am slowly peeling back that has triggered some stuff. I am going away this afternoon for some family time with children, grand children and brother/sister in law, 3 visits over the weekend so it should boost me up!

In the scheme of things I am and should be grateful for all of the good things in my life, and it is hard to explain, but the darker down times keep coming and I seem unable to shake it off. I think it is partly feeling overwhelmed with work, another good reason to go! My health has not been too good which doesn't help, nothing major but in quite allot of pain at times.

Have sent my CV out to a couple of agencies and I am exploring any leads I can, so I am keeping my spirits up on that front.

Sorry to sound so fed up, kick me up the bottom!:wave_cry:

Hope you don't find the weekend too challenging

Have a good weekend and WI all, onwards and downwards, we are a bunch of shrinkers!!
Jx

 

[Clarabow]

Glad to hear from you Jules. If you cant be fed up on here where can you be? So chunter on my lovely and vent your spleen as they say. Sorry to hear that you are feeling down though.

I think work stress has a huge impact on our physical and emotional health. We charge along at a vast rate of knotts, and expect to get something back out of it. Work is a huge part of our lives, and if it is not working out it can be very difficult to get our heads round and manage. Personalities can really play a huge part here.

I also live on my own. Sometimes gives a little too much time for introspection. Very rare I feel lonely, though not making the effort to get out and keep contact with with my friends can be an issue. I tend to isolate myself and my mood can dip then.

Health wise you have a lot to deal with at present and that can lead to feeling blue. The visits to the family should pick you up a bit as you have said. But if this does not pass go and see your GP and have a chat about some additional support.

Thinking of you lovely xx

 

[LadyT]

Hey, congratulations on reaching your 101th day, thats amazing. Look how for you have come lovely lady.

I live with my two grown children but they are nevr in with me really so often i spend my time alone. I have found since being on the plan that I am quite reflective and consider my life sad and boring, I think that boils down to me being reluctant to going out and socialise as this plan is hard enough without me tempting myself. I like you have family around and so its good you spend time with them when you can.

You are well over the half way mark now which is fabulous xxxx

 

[Borris]

You ate going so well and all these stories made me want to join 101 days is so mega !!

 

[Clarabow]

I wish we could be all tucked up in your pocket so you could bring us out when you needed a pick me up or to share your joys xx

 

[slendablenda]

Hey Julz,
Good for you for being so honest. We can't be up all the time and doing LL and losing weight isn't a substitute for the other issues in our lives. It all goes together.
Like most of us I expect you have become more thoughtful and insightful about yourself during these 101 days. Then someyimes it can almost seem like too much time to think.
Congratulations on the changes you are making re: work.
I did that too - reigned it in a bit, stopped trying to please all the people al the time. Surprisingly once I started valuing myself at work, others did too - contrary to what I expected.
Enjoy the visits with your family. I'm sure you'll get lots of positive strokes, hope so.
Enjoy. xx

 

[Julz]

Thanks everyone, as always sound advice
Jx

 

[Julz]

Well, talk about having a boost! Today I tried on some of my daughters clothes, size 16 and 14, and they fit!! Wemt to next sale today and bought size 14 jeans and they fit, so gob smacked, not all 14's fitted when I tried them on, diffetent shapes/styles.
I have been into a size 14 since I was about 14 at school OMG!!!
Pihht a next top too 14, and got it on ???
My brain knows I am a size 20/22!
Bizarre completly bizarre.
Maybe this is what I needed......
Jx

 

[Borris]

Well, talk about having a boost! Today I tried on some of my daughters clothes, size 16 and 14, and they fit!! Wemt to next sale today and bought size 14 jeans and they fit, so gob smacked, not all 14's fitted when I tried them on, diffetent shapes/styles.
I have been into a size 14 since I was about 14 at school OMG!!!
Pihht a next top too 14, and got it on ???
My brain knows I am a size 20/22!
Bizarre completly bizarre.
Maybe this is what I needed......
Jx

What a great feeling Julz xx

 

[Julz]

Unbelievable Matt, its better than Christmas Day!

 

[Clarabow]

Oh wow that is wonderful. Well done you xx

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[Catthin]

Wow thats brilliant Julz
I bet your walking on air great feeling well done hun.
Cathy

 

[slendablenda]

14,14,14,14,14,14,14,14,14,14,14,14
woo hoo
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[Spanglymum]

Great news, julz!! Well done!!!

 

[LadyT]

Fabulous feeling isn't it hun, well done! Xx

 

[Julz]

Thanks all, its just so well, bizarre! Looking forward now which is great, I seem to have fallen off the wagon mentally over the last few weeks, tryimg to remain positive etc has been a challenge.
I really am floating on air. When I look in the mirror I still see me as a 20/22, but tried the jeans on as a 14 and they fit, minds are mighty powerful things!
I think ( fairly certain) the wobble is over!!! Yeah !!
Now going to focus on holiday 2 sept and how different I will feel to last year, covering up all the time. Not quite 8 weeks to go, reality check, I am beginning to think I will do this and be a size 12? Who knows what can happen, when you have faith! I love LLT!!!
Having a fab time! Hope everyone else is doing great snd has great WI this week
Jx