Mumof2girls
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Well I fell off the wagon this evening, big time. Remember I posted a story that we were to go out to dinner as a family for mothers day and how I was so proud of myself for turning it down yesterday.. well, I think I felt deprived and I was in the lousiest form today, all day. I didnt get much of a break yesterday, kept busy in the kitchen cooking, cleaning, minding kids as normal. Feeling really sorry for myself. So today, everything in the food department was going fine until about 5pm when I was to start cooking my families meal. The kids had a couple of snacks and I starting picking at them just for taste, cheese crackers etc. Now, that is something I have never ever done yet on SS! I was so so down and then I ate a packet of buttons belonging to my older dd.... then I made a slice of toast. I rang DH at work, I was so down. :raincloud: I was crying for heavens sake, this is not me at all! :cry:Anyway, he picked up a chinese takeaway (I didn't exactly try too hard to not take him up on the offer) and I scoffed the lot (actually, not as much as I would have done normally, think my tummy has shrunk!). Followed it with a bit of icecream and a packet of crisps. Pathetic!
So.. of course guilt set in as expected... and I have spent the entire evening annoyed with myself. Its like bloody self destruction. I am so happy with how my body is changing, I even thought the diet was getting easier and I go and risk it all.
Anyway, unlike last year where I did exactly this, I am not gonna fall into the trap again. I am heading off to bed soon (not that my two daughters are settling for me tonight!) and tomorrow I am going back 100%.
Sorry, I know this was a long moany post, I think it feels like a diary and I feel good for having gotten it out of my system.
So.. tomorrow here I come. (I just hope the damage wont be too bad)
So.. of course guilt set in as expected... and I have spent the entire evening annoyed with myself. Its like bloody self destruction. I am so happy with how my body is changing, I even thought the diet was getting easier and I go and risk it all.
Anyway, unlike last year where I did exactly this, I am not gonna fall into the trap again. I am heading off to bed soon (not that my two daughters are settling for me tonight!) and tomorrow I am going back 100%.
Sorry, I know this was a long moany post, I think it feels like a diary and I feel good for having gotten it out of my system.
So.. tomorrow here I come. (I just hope the damage wont be too bad)