Day 30
Scales today say 12st 4. Woo hooo!!! A stone. Finally! And in 30 days, which makes me happy. It's poignant for me because this is where I was at the start of Dec, when I saw my CDC for yet another failed re-start, and she said, 'let's just aim for the 11s, that's very do-able, and then find a place in that range where you are happy... by Xmas you will definitely be well into the 11s...' Of course by Xmas I was face down in the mince pies and cream and the 11s were a very distant memory. So easy to gain the weight, so hard to lose it... worth it? No. All through December I felt bad, guilty, out of control, disgusted with myself and despairing that I would ever get a hold of things again.
So tired of the battle, it needs to be won and walked away from, and next time the self destruct bells begin to ring, I will walk away from them also. Give peace a chance!
So, my next aim is to get in the 11s and I know that might take a while, but I will get there.
Yesterday dentist was fine, no work, just a polish, didn't get bene-fiber as it was blowing a gale, MAJOR gale, and walking down high street was not an option, but did get to Tesco for food supplies. Got tofu, eggs, quorn, cottage cheese and lots of green veg, and it feels wonderful to be able to have those things. For tea I had sprouts & stir fry with a creamy sauce made from tofu and skim milk and chili, odd but nice.
810 is suiting me I think, and am making an effort to drink 5 pints of herb tea every day, yesterday did it, so sure I can today. Exercise is the last bit of jigsaw, I am still so resistant... working on it!
Chucking down with rain today, but at least gales have subsided.
Hope everyone has a brilliant friday!
xxx