karra
Loser ;)
Hello Everybody
My name is Kelly and I'm 22 years old. I have started a few threads on here but reading them back they're all so negative. So this is my new, improved, more positive diary telling the story of my weight loss journey because believe me, this time I will be making that journey.
I currently weigh 16st 5lbs and I'm 5ft 4in tall. I haven't always been fat; I went through a chubby stage when I was about 14 and so I decided to diet. But the teenage way of dieting means eating next to nothing and excercising vigorously. At one point I went down to just over 7st and I looked awful. Gradually I started eating a bit more and by the time I was 16 I weighed around 9st 7lbs, which suited me physically, although I still had an unhealthy attitude to food- it would be the all or nothing approach, bingeing followed by cutting right down. Looking back, one of my best friends at the time contributed a lot to the way I looked at food. She was later admitted to an eating disorder clinic.
Anyhow, I stayed at a healthy weight til I went to college until tasty canteen food and long free periods led to massive weight gain and when I went to university in 2005 I weighed 14st 7lb. Shortly after I started university,my childhood sweetheart finished with me for a thinner model, and heart of hearts I know my weight contributed to his decision.
I have continued to gain weight in the last 3 years until I have reached 16st 5lbs. My bf loves me the way I am, fat or thin, but I don't feel like me any more so this is why I'm doing this for me. Not so people don't call me 'fat' or 'massive' any more, which they have been, but so I can be who I want to be.
In the past I have made the mistake of waiting to be thin to start my life but that is insane! I'm not hiding away any more, I'm going to live my life and when I'm thin I'm just gonna carry on living it. So people can say what they want because I don't care any more. It's my life and it's not my problem they want to waste theirs *****ing about other people. If I want to go out and dance like no-ones watching and sing like nobody can hear me I will!
So ladies, let's party
(PS sorry this was so long I got a bit carried away lol)
My name is Kelly and I'm 22 years old. I have started a few threads on here but reading them back they're all so negative. So this is my new, improved, more positive diary telling the story of my weight loss journey because believe me, this time I will be making that journey.
I currently weigh 16st 5lbs and I'm 5ft 4in tall. I haven't always been fat; I went through a chubby stage when I was about 14 and so I decided to diet. But the teenage way of dieting means eating next to nothing and excercising vigorously. At one point I went down to just over 7st and I looked awful. Gradually I started eating a bit more and by the time I was 16 I weighed around 9st 7lbs, which suited me physically, although I still had an unhealthy attitude to food- it would be the all or nothing approach, bingeing followed by cutting right down. Looking back, one of my best friends at the time contributed a lot to the way I looked at food. She was later admitted to an eating disorder clinic.
Anyhow, I stayed at a healthy weight til I went to college until tasty canteen food and long free periods led to massive weight gain and when I went to university in 2005 I weighed 14st 7lb. Shortly after I started university,my childhood sweetheart finished with me for a thinner model, and heart of hearts I know my weight contributed to his decision.
I have continued to gain weight in the last 3 years until I have reached 16st 5lbs. My bf loves me the way I am, fat or thin, but I don't feel like me any more so this is why I'm doing this for me. Not so people don't call me 'fat' or 'massive' any more, which they have been, but so I can be who I want to be.
In the past I have made the mistake of waiting to be thin to start my life but that is insane! I'm not hiding away any more, I'm going to live my life and when I'm thin I'm just gonna carry on living it. So people can say what they want because I don't care any more. It's my life and it's not my problem they want to waste theirs *****ing about other people. If I want to go out and dance like no-ones watching and sing like nobody can hear me I will!
So ladies, let's party
(PS sorry this was so long I got a bit carried away lol)