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Morning fellow Miniminers -
Hope you all had fab weekends...
I am feeling a bit pants today to be honest and need a kick up the backside, hence the title of this thread...
I went to WI last night and only lost one pound. Now, I know that over the space of the last four weeks I've lost 14 in total - but it still leaves me 2 pounds short of my three stone in three months target.
Oh god, as I type this, I can see how pathetic I sound - I mean - 2lbs in nothing! But it was a goal of mine and I'm really fed up that I didn't hit it. I am now in my 'milk week' and the chance of losing 2lbs this week is non-existant I would have thought (please tell me otherwise if you know!!)
I've been so complacent about getting the water down me - I've always been notorious for not drinking, and being on LL is no exception, and I am furious at myself now because I am well aware that this slow loss is probably down to me.
I look at people's threads that have lost 4+ stone in foundation... I assume they must have been a lot bigger to start with, but their BMIs were about the same as mine to start with... why am I such a slow loser....
I am probably just feeling like this because I am half way through - got another three months of developers until I reach my goal - and I am worried that if I keep falling short, the time I'm in abstinance is going to get longer and longer, and I am getting sick of it already.
Anyway - sorry for putting the little raincloud over things today - but I just needed to let off some 'disappointment' steam before I got too angry with myself.
I have also found I am more suceptible to getting emotional at the moment. My OH-type-person is going through a really tough time at the moment and is a bit distant... not tactile etc, and I've left his house at night and burst into tears because I naturally assume it is 'my fault'... this weight thing I assume is 'my fault' and so it goes on....
People keep asking me about Christmas - aren't you tempted to eat? Christmas is meant to be fun etc, you won't even be able to get drunk.... no sh*t. It angers me that I constantly needing to remind my close friends that last Christmas I was sat at my dad's bedside in ICU, and later the stroke ward, after he was rushed to hospital on the 23rd Dec - and later died at 8am on Boxing Day... funnily enough, having a nice enjoyable Christmas is not top on my list of priorities - in fact, I told myself I would go to the stroke ward this year and visit the patients - it was soul destroying how few of them had visitors last year.
Sorry - this has turned from 'kick me', to 'someone please give me a hug and tell me everything will be ok'... I am such an emotional ruin at the mo... sorry guys. I'll bugger off now...
Before I do - I may as well ask a structured question (otherwise this is just pure self-indulgent venting)...
Q. Did any of you ever not bother with milk week and just stay on water shakes/soups? Did you LLC tell you off? Would you recommend I did that or do you think milk week is a good idea??
A xx
Hope you all had fab weekends...
I am feeling a bit pants today to be honest and need a kick up the backside, hence the title of this thread...
I went to WI last night and only lost one pound. Now, I know that over the space of the last four weeks I've lost 14 in total - but it still leaves me 2 pounds short of my three stone in three months target.
Oh god, as I type this, I can see how pathetic I sound - I mean - 2lbs in nothing! But it was a goal of mine and I'm really fed up that I didn't hit it. I am now in my 'milk week' and the chance of losing 2lbs this week is non-existant I would have thought (please tell me otherwise if you know!!)
I've been so complacent about getting the water down me - I've always been notorious for not drinking, and being on LL is no exception, and I am furious at myself now because I am well aware that this slow loss is probably down to me.
I look at people's threads that have lost 4+ stone in foundation... I assume they must have been a lot bigger to start with, but their BMIs were about the same as mine to start with... why am I such a slow loser....
I am probably just feeling like this because I am half way through - got another three months of developers until I reach my goal - and I am worried that if I keep falling short, the time I'm in abstinance is going to get longer and longer, and I am getting sick of it already.
Anyway - sorry for putting the little raincloud over things today - but I just needed to let off some 'disappointment' steam before I got too angry with myself.
I have also found I am more suceptible to getting emotional at the moment. My OH-type-person is going through a really tough time at the moment and is a bit distant... not tactile etc, and I've left his house at night and burst into tears because I naturally assume it is 'my fault'... this weight thing I assume is 'my fault' and so it goes on....
People keep asking me about Christmas - aren't you tempted to eat? Christmas is meant to be fun etc, you won't even be able to get drunk.... no sh*t. It angers me that I constantly needing to remind my close friends that last Christmas I was sat at my dad's bedside in ICU, and later the stroke ward, after he was rushed to hospital on the 23rd Dec - and later died at 8am on Boxing Day... funnily enough, having a nice enjoyable Christmas is not top on my list of priorities - in fact, I told myself I would go to the stroke ward this year and visit the patients - it was soul destroying how few of them had visitors last year.
Sorry - this has turned from 'kick me', to 'someone please give me a hug and tell me everything will be ok'... I am such an emotional ruin at the mo... sorry guys. I'll bugger off now...
Before I do - I may as well ask a structured question (otherwise this is just pure self-indulgent venting)...
Q. Did any of you ever not bother with milk week and just stay on water shakes/soups? Did you LLC tell you off? Would you recommend I did that or do you think milk week is a good idea??
A xx