Now then! I have in total lost 15lbs and for the first time is a long time I am under 90kgs. For me this was a mile stone. And right now, again for the first time in a long time, I am wearing a pair of jeans I that have been hanging in my wardrobe and not thrown out...just in case I someday lose weight...
Overall I am pleased - I discovered that for too long I had limiting beliefs which stopped me from dieting consistently - I did not believe I would reach my goals. Sure, I told myself a thousand times "this time...I will lose weight and I will be happy", but of course that was something I was saying to myself to mask the real belief - I had said the same thing before...and I was still fat. I did not tackle the core issue which was lack of belief in myself. Through certain techniques I have been able to 'treat' that issue and now have a better set of beliefs. Some still need working on; I still have negative perceptions about myself in some ways. These are the root reasons why I kept eating and eating and sometimes ate till I felt sick.
Anyway, enough of the introspection
Food: Past few days I have been eating 95% pork sausages, minced beef cooked in a home made fajita mix with added sour cream, having omeletes, home made burgers, last night I had chicken curry with lots of greens. Oh and the too occasional bag of pork scratchings haha - thing is, when eating them I really fancy a pint of bitter.
One thing I should reduce is my cheese intake, I am going to cut that down to a pieces of cheese once or twice a week.
I am glugging water down and having black coffee a few times a day.
Considering I have been amde redundant and the area I worked in facing massive cuts and so job hunting has become difficult - I am generally upbeat. Perhaps I needed this 'time off' to focus on myself. All too often I would work more hours than I should just to get the job done and also because I liked my work. So I would put myself second - this time I have now is being put to good use.
