The mirror dislikes me. I can tell.
My once vintage glamour reflection is replaced with shabby-chic-frump!
I have given up looking.
I cant say i am surprised....it hasn't happened overnight. Quite the opposite.
I'm not one to blame life's events, other people etc - this is my doing - and needs my undoing to resolve it.
So here i am - again i add.
S&S 100%
I am in it for the long haul.
I have no target in mind weight or size wise. Maybe i should?
I have never been very good at guessing what size i will be at a certain weight.
As long as i can remember, the smallest i have been is a size 16.
I remember being two types of size 16 though - the first - a very confident, outgoing size 16 and the second - an embarrassed, shy, exhausted size 16.
From the second type of size 16 is when the weight crept on. Maybe i allowed it? Feeling embarrassed from the offset possibly didn't help? I stopped socializing, i stayed home, i ATE!
And so i sit here now... Size 22/24 - weighing 19 stone exactly.
Not wondering how i got here....but how i let myself get here?
Apologies for my writing style. I over analyze myself.
Today is day 1.
I have decided to complete the first 3 days of S&S by having 4 packs a day.
I will weigh in this Friday.
From that point, i will continue S&S with 3 packs a day.
Today has been bearable. I have a week off work - which helps with the grouchyness and tiredness.
Hopefully by next Monday when i return to work i should of hit ketosis and manage better and be in the swing of things?
I have left myself puzzling - what weight or size should i set as either a mini or an end goal?
I am 5'5/5'6
A size 16 is the biggest i would want to be.
What weight would that be?
Enough analysis for one day.
I'm sure tomorrow will encounter more.
x
My once vintage glamour reflection is replaced with shabby-chic-frump!
I have given up looking.
I cant say i am surprised....it hasn't happened overnight. Quite the opposite.
I'm not one to blame life's events, other people etc - this is my doing - and needs my undoing to resolve it.
So here i am - again i add.
S&S 100%
I am in it for the long haul.
I have no target in mind weight or size wise. Maybe i should?
I have never been very good at guessing what size i will be at a certain weight.
As long as i can remember, the smallest i have been is a size 16.
I remember being two types of size 16 though - the first - a very confident, outgoing size 16 and the second - an embarrassed, shy, exhausted size 16.
From the second type of size 16 is when the weight crept on. Maybe i allowed it? Feeling embarrassed from the offset possibly didn't help? I stopped socializing, i stayed home, i ATE!
And so i sit here now... Size 22/24 - weighing 19 stone exactly.
Not wondering how i got here....but how i let myself get here?
Apologies for my writing style. I over analyze myself.
Today is day 1.
I have decided to complete the first 3 days of S&S by having 4 packs a day.
I will weigh in this Friday.
From that point, i will continue S&S with 3 packs a day.
Today has been bearable. I have a week off work - which helps with the grouchyness and tiredness.
Hopefully by next Monday when i return to work i should of hit ketosis and manage better and be in the swing of things?
I have left myself puzzling - what weight or size should i set as either a mini or an end goal?
I am 5'5/5'6
A size 16 is the biggest i would want to be.
What weight would that be?
Enough analysis for one day.
I'm sure tomorrow will encounter more.
x