Jewel you're a little star :thumbup:
always popping in with support even though I should probably be shunned by now
Hi Emma thanks so much for the lovely message!! I've started diaries before and abandoned them when things got bad, cos it does get embarrassed saying "This is IT I feel so motivated I know this is the time for me" to "Oh well bit of slip oops but I've learnt from it and won't do it again, not worth it etc etc" "I'm not sure I agree with vlcds anymore, I'm off to Slimming World, weight watchers etc"
This time I'm sticking with this diary even at it's worst because I really want to be able to look back, like when I read my first post I remember clearly how I felt. It's so easy to skip over the harsh reality. I feel way better than I did in that post and I'm not even that much down, imagine how I'll feel in another stone from now etc! Whatever the time frame (though I will attempt to keep my ridiculousness under wraps!)
I'll definitely be your buddy when you start, I was the same I had some left over and it just didn't feel like a fresh start /proper commitment until I got my new batch!
"This is IT I feel so motivated I know this is the time for me" to "Oh well bit of slip oops but I've learnt from it and won't do it again, not worth it etc etc" "I'm not sure I agree with vlcds anymore, I'm off to Slimming World, weight watchers etc"
Oh God, feel so bloody sad. Firstly I had a pitiful, unenjoyable binge night. Stemmed from having a friend over and having a low carb meal, then ate biscuits with her etc etc. Didn't enjoy a single bite if I'm completely honest. Secondly and most painfully. Ex was out last night and this morning I was asking "all cool" if he met anyone etc (foolish foolish I know) Well he had, and she was gorgeous etc and they were texting. Thankfully I was able to act dine with it, encouraging even, because I'm not handing my dignity over on a plate. I feel really sick though, my stomach is doing tumbles and I'm sorry this is definitely tmi but I think combined with my binge it actually made me vomit!!! I don't want to be with him but it just felt like a kick to the stomach imagining him with someone (probably half my size) I really need to continue this diet successfully. The worst part is I was finding is SO easy, just seemed OK to cheat this close to Christmas! I'm going to update here much more frequently now so sorry if I cope you all to tears but I don't like talking about this stuff in real life.
Thanks hun, it was totally stupid of me to enquire when I really didn't want to know the answer. I'm going to have a shower and get out of the house for some space x x x