Miriam's Diary

[Mia]

I drink skimmed milk in my coffee, have tried black loads of times and just can't do it.

What was I thinking this morning? Well, I was thinking about the headaches, the cravings, the hunger pangs, the buffets on Thursday and Friday, wondering if it's worth dieting before the buffets and just dreading that all over horrible feeling of stopping food again. I was thinking all the negative things. What I should have been thinking was, come on Miriam 4lb to go, size 12 dresses, lying on the beach, how much I love getting compliments on my weight loss, and the end result.

I have had my lunch now - strawberry shake and feel a bit better about it. The time from getting in from work at 5.30 until about 8.00 is my worst time so having to psyche myself up for that now.

How you doing diet wise? What plan/diet you on now?

 

[Lois]

Hiya Mia, you are so close to target now. You know you can get there!

Re' the buffets, there's bound to be cooked chicken and salad. Re' the drink opt for vodka (I don't drink but I'm sure I read that's the best re' carbs?)

Hang on in there :hug99: xx

 

[Mia]

Thanks gigglepants

I won't drink on Thursday but vodka all the way on Friday

I will defo stick to protein if I eat, but going to try not to eat at all if I can help it. I haven't been weighed this morning and probably won't weigh on Thursday either so just praying I haven't done too much damage. My family and friends think I am crazy for reacting like this with only 4lb to go, they say I am giving myself a complex and will turn anorexic if I have these issues with food lol. I am terrified about what to do when the diet ends.

 

[Lois]

Yeah it scares me thinking about what to do once I get to target. My willpower goes out the window once I start eating proper food.

I'm thinking of doing Atkins or Dukan once I'm almost there, so I'm still dieting but eating proper food whilst also keeping the carbs at bay.

It's bread and other carb stuff like scones and pastries that are my downfall.

 

[precious]

Hey Mia it happens we live n learn lovely but I'm pretty sure uve had a good day today xx

 

[Mia]

No Precious I've had a bloody terrible day lol.

I was fine until about 4.00 p.m. when I ate one of those Milky Bar cows which my friend bought me for my birthday in February, then come home and ate 2 babybell lite cheeses, 2 boiled eggs and 7 WEETABIX !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't have food in the house hence the concoction of wierd foods but I may as well have had a curry. Please let me get on track tomorrow

Its strange coz I want to chop my tongue off but still want to eat and cant stop

 

[precious]

No Precious I've had a bloody terrible day lol.

I was fine until about 4.00 p.m. when I ate one of those Milky Bar cows which my friend bought me for my birthday in February, then come home and ate 2 babybell lite cheeses, 2 boiled eggs and 7 WEETABIX !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't have food in the house hence the concoction of wierd foods but I may as well have had a curry. Please let me get on track tomorrow

Its strange coz I want to chop my tongue off but still want to eat and cant stop

Mia Mia hunny listen it could have been alot worse ok 7 weetabix but it's still a healthier choice over a curry ?? Then u would have felt even worse or worse still so bloaty u wud have not been able to type lol... Tomm is a new day I have every faith in u that u will n can do it . Do u not feel like adding meals as ur at goal soon?? Don't be too hard on urself xx

 

[Mia]

awwww thank you Precious. I dont want to add food, coz once food hits my gob I can't stop

I have been ok today but taking into account its only 10.45 a.m. I feel awful, like I have undone all my hard work and feel like I've put all my weight on. Obviously I haven't but that's the way my body feels. Not feeling good at all

 

[precious]

awwww thank you Precious. I dont want to add food, coz once food hits my gob I can't stop

I have been ok today but taking into account its only 10.45 a.m. I feel awful, like I have undone all my hard work and feel like I've put all my weight on. Obviously I haven't but that's the way my body feels. Not feeling good at all

Ohhh hun do u know introducing food back into the plan is so so hard - in my case I'm bloody introducing it everyday lol but seriously hunny the final decision is yours... You are so so close and maybe it's your body's way of telling u it's time for food intros as difficult as it does sound there will be a few errors along the way but it doesn't mean ur a failure i definately believe maintaining is the hardest bit... I hope u feel better soon... And u sure must feel like a skinny mini - how does the 10s feel? I can't wait to get to my goal ur honestly amazing time after time u just plodded along and look how far u have come - I got to 11.9 and look at me know :-( sooo that's what I'm saying u truly have stuck with it and that's just awesome xx

 

[Mia]

Thank you so much Precious, that's so kind. I don't know what I am going to do yet. I have 2 social occassions, if you can call a funeral a social occassion, but you know what I mean Funeral tomorrow and party on Friday then my next entry in my social calendar is 24th May then 21st June. If I eat but be good and start again on Saturday it might give my body a break and I might lose a bit more?? Or, am I just making excuses to eat ???????

 

[precious]

Thank you so much Precious, that's so kind. I don't know what I am going to do yet. I have 2 social occassions, if you can call a funeral a social occassion, but you know what I mean Funeral tomorrow and party on Friday then my next entry in my social calendar is 24th May then 21st June. If I eat but be good and start again on Saturday it might give my body a break and I might lose a bit more?? Or, am I just making excuses to eat ???????

Absolutely see Mia I may be stuffing my face now n then but I'm making sense lol lol

Honestly hun ur not making excuses maybe just healthy eat or watch way u eat and go from there?? And once the funeral and party is over get straight back on the magic dust?? Good luck lovely xx

 

[MsJMC]

Hi everyone. OMG I have had a terrible weekend, I am so disappointed with myself

Started on Friday night, then Saturday work up starving. It's now Monday evening and I haven't stopped eating I could cry, but still want more food

I am scared stiff in case I can't get back on the wagon tomorrow. Being at work is easier becasue it gives me routine, but Thursday I am going to a funeral (buffet) and Friday a birthday party (buffet). I feel like I have lost all my willpower. In fact I dont think I will have WI this week coz if I have put on it will make me feel terrible. I can't tell anyone how bad I feel about it all.

I will try my utmost tomorrow and will dread the headaches but hope I am strong enough.

Precious - I don't do photo's hahaha. 99% of my photos are headshots and I wouldnt put any on here lol. There are some very old ones somewhere which I keep meaning to find and delete haha. The thing is, yeah I am 10st 11lb (or was ) but still have a big stomach. I have health problems which limit which stomach exercises I can do, so think I will pay to be professionally assesed by this place which specialises in sports injuries, rehabilitation after operations/accidents etc to see if they can help. No women trainers at my gym and no way am I explaining my problems to a kid young enough to be my son!!!

Morning Miriam
Strange why we always think negative .... hard to train ourselfs to think postive . Thats my down fall , to much thinking .
My plan Miriam , is to start today , had blood done yesterday . as you say all them thoughts ..... and somewhere in my back of my mind i have to search for postive thoughts .... its looking dark outside its 6:40 am , just could not sleep .
45 pounds for CD for 12 weeks would cost 500 , still thinking what todo , really would like to get CD bars and ready made and porridge say 3 weeks worth then get the rest exante as can't do exante as choices and bars i am not that knee on , but that new cdc wont let me have too many bars she is to the rule , blast .
yes skimmed milk is the answer , can't do it black .
Let me see how your day went , i'll get back and read your thread ....

 

[MsJMC]

No Precious I've had a bloody terrible day lol.

I was fine until about 4.00 p.m. when I ate one of those Milky Bar cows which my friend bought me for my birthday in February, then come home and ate 2 babybell lite cheeses, 2 boiled eggs and 7 WEETABIX !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't have food in the house hence the concoction of wierd foods but I may as well have had a curry. Please let me get on track tomorrow

Its strange coz I want to chop my tongue off but still want to eat and cant stop


OK , just caught up , hey your out doing my nephew with the weetabix with 7 , i know he can do 4 lol
With family worrying Miriam , tell them theres no need , you like your food , you just diet when you need to to get your weight back down .
after exante , what would you like todo Miriam ? I mean with controling your weight loss ?
I'm going for it today , will do me good , my stomach is not good and might help it settle down .
miriam , hope today is your day !!!! seems like you have to keep busy from coming in from work .... thats my big down fall too much time on my hands , I had a wake up call yesterday listening to the news about weight issues ....

 

[Lanarkwitch]

Mia, heres my thoughts for what they are worth.

If I were you I would take the week off, and not even think about VLCD. You have a lot on and you are stressing yourself out completely trying to cope with it and not feeling like staying 100% is for you at the moment.

I think you really need a break, you've been on plan a long time and you've had tremendous results. Taking a break will let you relax a bit, enjoy what you can of your social occasions and maybe give your head and your body a break, for me eating 7 weetabix would be about total rebellion against the diet, is it a case of you feel the plan is controlling you now rather than you controlling the plan?

I know lots of people are going to say there's always going to be a social occasion to deal with, and you have dealt with many of them on your journey, so you have proven you can do it many times over.

Take a break and come back refreshed and ready for the final chapter xxxxxxxxx

 

[slimsarah]

I agree with LK.

Try not to be too hard on yourself. You've done so well. You've got a tough week ahead where the likelihood is you'll be going off plan. Plan for it and set a date to restart. It could be just what you need.

And as for the 7 weetabix... I think that's pretty good because I KNOW. If I was to rebel I wouldn't of chosen something low in fat like that. After the chocolate I'd of gone Ito 'sod it' mode and filled up on something pretty greasy and gross lol. Hope you're ok lovely xxxx

 

[Lanarkwitch]

I agree with LK.

Try not to be too hard on yourself. You've done so well. You've got a tough week ahead where the likelihood is you'll be going off plan. Plan for it and set a date to restart. It could be just what you need.

And as for the 7 weetabix... I think that's pretty good because I KNOW. If I was to rebel I wouldn't of chosen something low in fat like that. After the chocolate I'd of gone Ito 'sod it' mode and filled up on something pretty greasy and gross lol. Hope you're ok lovely xxxx

Sod it mode love it, I have that button as well!

 

[Mia]

Hahahahaa all you girls give me a laugh, thanks all for popping to to see how I'm doing. I really appreciate all your comments.

Well, went to Church last night straight from work for the coffin to be taken into the Church overnight. Afterwards my mam asked if I wanted to share a Chinese - she didn't have to ask twice lol. So, had half beef curry, rice, chips and prawn crackers. Been to the funeral today and had 2 halves of cider and a bit of buffett (all pastry ). Having nothing else tonight coz all I fancy is chocolate so I've put the dressing gown on so I wont go out hahaha. Going to enjoy tomorrow's party and get back on track on Saturday - 100% until 24th May. Night out with my friend probably at the Turkish restaurant where I can make a good low fat choice ie. fish, then next occassion is 21st June when I go to see Bruce Springsteen - need a few cans that day

I haven't had my WI today as usual coz when I see I have put on it will spoil me forever, best I just get back on track on Saturday and see where it takes me.

Thanks again girls x

 

[*Shanny*]

Enjoy your evening missy x

 

[headdown]

Morning Miriam
45 pounds for CD for 12 weeks would cost 500 , still thinking what todo , really would like to get CD bars and ready made and porridge say 3 weeks worth then get the rest exante as can't do exante as choices and bars i am not that knee on , but that new cdc wont let me have too many bars she is to the rule , blast .
yes skimmed milk is the answer , can't do it black .
Let me see how your day went , i'll get back and read your thread ....

Hi, I am on exante and you are allowed the tesco ultraslim bars the raspberry one is gorgeous, I ordered a bumper pack of shakes and will use these, they are 2.99 for 3 bars x

 

[MsJMC]

good idea about the scales Miriam , yes leave them , its just one week that you will not be on them , just take it you've had a fall out with them lol
so you and mum had a take away , was it heaven
yes you've been on the diet a long time now and it must be hard , so enjoy your food rewards !
Day 2 for me ..... hey might be getting some sun this weekend it really helps with the diet !!!!
Have good wkend !