Beckaboo
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Hi everyone,
i have been perusing this site over the last couple of days and have decided to bite the bullet and make my own diary.. ill start with a bit about me
My name is Bec, i'm 29 and have pretty much spent majority of my life overweight. It started when i was 7 my mum and dad split up i stayed with my dad but he was busy running a business so when it came to food i had to sort myself out. Having no idea about nutrition and being a kid i would just eat what i wanted to and as much as i wanted to more often than not.
At 11 years old i moved in with my mum and i already weighed 9 and half stone and was being bullied at school for being fat.
When i was 13 i weighed 10 and half stone and i tried my first diet... slim fast. Back then it was 2 shakes a day and 1 healthy meal in the evening.... and forever feeling hungry. while this diet worked and i lost the weight i wanted to i got very bored very quickly and once i lost the weight and went back to food i very quickly put all the weight on and then some. at 16 i did slim fast again bout couldn't stick to it.
At 19 i was working full time in a factory and had just split up from my then boyfriend and was getting to know myself as a person on my own for the first time in 5 years and started going out drinking with friends and partying and eating crap and i mean serious crap big, fried sausage, bacon egg and tomato breakfast cobs smothered in ketchup for breakfast and a large portion of chips and cheese at lunch. dinner at home would be healthy and giant wedge of cheesecake from the cheesecake shop every Friday.
Yet miraculously somehow i started to lose weight i got down to 11 and half stone again and i felt fantastic...... i put it down to all the dancing i did when i was going out and all the crazy hours i did at work as when any overtime was offered i would take it.
This didn't last. at 21 i got made redundant and spent the next couple of years going through 3 different jobs a couple of periods of being out of work.
A new boyfriend moving in together and struggling to make ends meet meant we had to budget EVERYTHING.. £20 to last for food for 2 for 2 weeks somehow i managed it and my weight pretty much averaged between 12 and half -13 stone.
i then got a job working in a chip shop of all places and at first it was heaven for the junk foodie in me. OMG CHIPS CHIPS and more chips.. pretty soon i got sick of the chips but it became habit it was the easy choice because they were there.
By 27 my weight had rocketed to 15st 13lb it was the biggest i had ever been. i felt like crap i hated the person i saw in the mirror i hated going clothes shopping the only thing i would buy is shoes or handbags or stuff for my bf. He would always tell me how gorgeous i am and how much he loved me just the way i was. the problem was i dint love me.
So after trying calorie counting and getting bored of that my mum and i joined slimming world April 2012. We both started losing weight and would joke about how i always lost double what my mum lost. i put that down to me weighing more than my mum and having more to lose. we started jogging i signed us both up for 10k race for life which at the time seemed pretty ambitious but it gave us a goal. we joined a gym and continued losing. we completed the race for life in the June and felt really proud of ourselves for doing it and for raising over £600 between us for cancer research. by the october i had lost over 2 stone and was fitting back into size 14 clothes again <just>.
December 2012 was when things began to go wrong... i blame it on Christmas it should be banned ....lol....
busy with the Christmas prep and working and shopping and present wrapping and visiting and all the yummy yummy food i wavered once or twice then thought sod the lot of it, it's Christmas ill get back to slimming world after the new year, But i didn't.
The jogging had stopped because of the weather and the gym going slowly petered out to a complete stop as my mums shifts and mine didn't always match up and we just went back to the way we were before. Oh and i have spent the last year and a half paying for the gym and not going at all yet promising myself that i will be good ill go next week i'm too busy this week.
March 2015 almost present day i'm 29 now i have put all the weight back on that i previously lost although it has took me 2 and a half years to do, although a good stone of it has gone on within the past year at my new job. someone is always ALWAYS bringing in goodies for the staff and it sits there in the staff room SCREAMING at me " eat me you know you want to ... just a little nibble go on.. it wont hurt" to which i pounce on it like a lion on a buffalo.
I'm now back in denial about being a size 20 and refusing to go shopping again squeezing into my old clothes that no doubt have stretched with me insisting that no i'm still size 16-18 no bigger.
March 2nd i thought Sod it something has to be done this is not healthy for me or my future, you see my bf and i have decided come this Christmas we want to start trying for a baby, i mean for crying out loud we have been together 8 years its about time right... lol. i don't want to be a fat mum at the school gate, i don't want my child to get bullied because i am clinically obese. i want to be able to play with my kids run around without getting out of breath a couple of minutes into playtime i want to be able to enjoy my kids and make happy memories not be ill.
So i decided to start on the slimming world diet again weighing 15st 12lb 6oz.
7th march first week of dieting and i had lost 3lb. big smile on my face feel so proud.... especially as a couple of girls took me to the pudding pantry for afternoon tea at the end of the week and i had the gourmet white choc and raspberry hot chocolate and pancakes with bacon and maple syrup. it was lush but did feel a bit icky after. i had been good all week and not using all my syns so that i could syn bin some for that specific day as i knew i would go mad.
This is also where i confess i have been weighing myself pretty much every day sometimes multiple times of day just to see differences, like before and after a meal or when going to the toilet b4 and after a bath, almost like an experiment but its also beginning to turn into an obsession.
Which bring us to today although not weigh day i still weighed myself and was please to see i weighed 15st 6lb 2oz feel incredible to think a 6lb loss in 10 days. I know i have a long journey ahead of myself as my target is 10st 7lb. I have 5st 5lb to lose in total but the thought of wanting to be a fit mummy not a fat mummy i hope will spur me on ... well that and the fact i booked a girly holiday with my mum to Cyprus last week for September.
So that's it essay done.. Honestly... this is me up to date and hopefully with everyones help support ideas and recipes and general chatter we can all take this journey together
Honestly finished now you can stop reading ... heheh
i have been perusing this site over the last couple of days and have decided to bite the bullet and make my own diary.. ill start with a bit about me
My name is Bec, i'm 29 and have pretty much spent majority of my life overweight. It started when i was 7 my mum and dad split up i stayed with my dad but he was busy running a business so when it came to food i had to sort myself out. Having no idea about nutrition and being a kid i would just eat what i wanted to and as much as i wanted to more often than not.
At 11 years old i moved in with my mum and i already weighed 9 and half stone and was being bullied at school for being fat.
When i was 13 i weighed 10 and half stone and i tried my first diet... slim fast. Back then it was 2 shakes a day and 1 healthy meal in the evening.... and forever feeling hungry. while this diet worked and i lost the weight i wanted to i got very bored very quickly and once i lost the weight and went back to food i very quickly put all the weight on and then some. at 16 i did slim fast again bout couldn't stick to it.
At 19 i was working full time in a factory and had just split up from my then boyfriend and was getting to know myself as a person on my own for the first time in 5 years and started going out drinking with friends and partying and eating crap and i mean serious crap big, fried sausage, bacon egg and tomato breakfast cobs smothered in ketchup for breakfast and a large portion of chips and cheese at lunch. dinner at home would be healthy and giant wedge of cheesecake from the cheesecake shop every Friday.
Yet miraculously somehow i started to lose weight i got down to 11 and half stone again and i felt fantastic...... i put it down to all the dancing i did when i was going out and all the crazy hours i did at work as when any overtime was offered i would take it.
This didn't last. at 21 i got made redundant and spent the next couple of years going through 3 different jobs a couple of periods of being out of work.
A new boyfriend moving in together and struggling to make ends meet meant we had to budget EVERYTHING.. £20 to last for food for 2 for 2 weeks somehow i managed it and my weight pretty much averaged between 12 and half -13 stone.
i then got a job working in a chip shop of all places and at first it was heaven for the junk foodie in me. OMG CHIPS CHIPS and more chips.. pretty soon i got sick of the chips but it became habit it was the easy choice because they were there.
By 27 my weight had rocketed to 15st 13lb it was the biggest i had ever been. i felt like crap i hated the person i saw in the mirror i hated going clothes shopping the only thing i would buy is shoes or handbags or stuff for my bf. He would always tell me how gorgeous i am and how much he loved me just the way i was. the problem was i dint love me.
So after trying calorie counting and getting bored of that my mum and i joined slimming world April 2012. We both started losing weight and would joke about how i always lost double what my mum lost. i put that down to me weighing more than my mum and having more to lose. we started jogging i signed us both up for 10k race for life which at the time seemed pretty ambitious but it gave us a goal. we joined a gym and continued losing. we completed the race for life in the June and felt really proud of ourselves for doing it and for raising over £600 between us for cancer research. by the october i had lost over 2 stone and was fitting back into size 14 clothes again <just>.
December 2012 was when things began to go wrong... i blame it on Christmas it should be banned ....lol....
busy with the Christmas prep and working and shopping and present wrapping and visiting and all the yummy yummy food i wavered once or twice then thought sod the lot of it, it's Christmas ill get back to slimming world after the new year, But i didn't.
The jogging had stopped because of the weather and the gym going slowly petered out to a complete stop as my mums shifts and mine didn't always match up and we just went back to the way we were before. Oh and i have spent the last year and a half paying for the gym and not going at all yet promising myself that i will be good ill go next week i'm too busy this week.
March 2015 almost present day i'm 29 now i have put all the weight back on that i previously lost although it has took me 2 and a half years to do, although a good stone of it has gone on within the past year at my new job. someone is always ALWAYS bringing in goodies for the staff and it sits there in the staff room SCREAMING at me " eat me you know you want to ... just a little nibble go on.. it wont hurt" to which i pounce on it like a lion on a buffalo.
I'm now back in denial about being a size 20 and refusing to go shopping again squeezing into my old clothes that no doubt have stretched with me insisting that no i'm still size 16-18 no bigger.
March 2nd i thought Sod it something has to be done this is not healthy for me or my future, you see my bf and i have decided come this Christmas we want to start trying for a baby, i mean for crying out loud we have been together 8 years its about time right... lol. i don't want to be a fat mum at the school gate, i don't want my child to get bullied because i am clinically obese. i want to be able to play with my kids run around without getting out of breath a couple of minutes into playtime i want to be able to enjoy my kids and make happy memories not be ill.
So i decided to start on the slimming world diet again weighing 15st 12lb 6oz.
7th march first week of dieting and i had lost 3lb. big smile on my face feel so proud.... especially as a couple of girls took me to the pudding pantry for afternoon tea at the end of the week and i had the gourmet white choc and raspberry hot chocolate and pancakes with bacon and maple syrup. it was lush but did feel a bit icky after. i had been good all week and not using all my syns so that i could syn bin some for that specific day as i knew i would go mad.
This is also where i confess i have been weighing myself pretty much every day sometimes multiple times of day just to see differences, like before and after a meal or when going to the toilet b4 and after a bath, almost like an experiment but its also beginning to turn into an obsession.
Which bring us to today although not weigh day i still weighed myself and was please to see i weighed 15st 6lb 2oz feel incredible to think a 6lb loss in 10 days. I know i have a long journey ahead of myself as my target is 10st 7lb. I have 5st 5lb to lose in total but the thought of wanting to be a fit mummy not a fat mummy i hope will spur me on ... well that and the fact i booked a girly holiday with my mum to Cyprus last week for September.
So that's it essay done.. Honestly... this is me up to date and hopefully with everyones help support ideas and recipes and general chatter we can all take this journey together
Honestly finished now you can stop reading ... heheh
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