Thanks Wales....i think in hindsight i may have been ok had i not gone so massively off plan at xmas. I allowed weeks of indulgence, not just a few days. You're right, i did enjoy moving up the plans, mostly stuck to it, and was enjoying the food and the excitement of developing new menus. However, i think it would be better for me to be closer to goal before i move up so quickly. Not that i know what i want that to be. Going to try for 9st7lb i think..review along the way.
SS is the easiest way to get there, that much is true, although i have to move up to 810 really as i am in the cusp of BMI25. Needed to ss first though just to get myself back in control. Feel an idiot for needing to use CD like this, and not having the control within myself to make the right choices. Sure it'll come eventually.... at least if we don't stop trying we're getting there i guess.
Trying really hard to turn my head around and get positive vibes going on. I haven't helped myself by developing some bad eating patterns/ habits recently which i need to absolutely stop. But, i know beating self up about it isn't going to help. I AM IN CONTROL, I CAN DO THIS!
Sorry for all the negativity, just trying to turn things round. On a positive note, i have sole sourced for two whole days!The only cheat, was a taste of OH and DDs tea, and a lick of chocolate pudding off my finger....for me this is quite an acheivement so i guess i could be pleased with self. OH at work tonight so my danger zone is looming, (in house alone after DD in bed...oooer!) but i am determined not to screw it up. Only a few hrs to go xx