well here goes the whole truth and nothing but the truth
I started off on LL and finished with CD that was in 2004/5 in total i lost over 10 stone great i hear you all say but no mine is not a happy ending just like bigloser i have now put back on 8 stone:cry: i was going to come back here in hiding but i have to accept that i cannot hide from myself (no disrepect to bigloser as your story is totally different from mine)so here is my story
the first time the diet was a doddle to me 247 days with no food at all not even on a holiday to greece i was so happy when i got down to my ideal weight but i had a lot of loose skin i was lucky enough (or so i thought) to have a tummy tuck on the NHS unfortunateley this went drastically wrong and i nearly died losing too much blood and getting a massive infection. please don't let this put you off having a TT as it was just bad luck that this happened to me and if i had to do it all again honestly i would still do it. but due to the fact i couldn't move for nearly 3 months or exercise for over another 6 months and because i was at home getting depressed i ate:sigh: i just wanted to feel better well as you can guess i don't feel better and all the hard work i did before has been demolished i am once again a very fat unhappy person .
so i have come back to where i belong i should have come back a long time ago but yesterday i decided i had to come back and try again
i have just ordered my packs they will arrive tomorrow oh yes forgot to say i was also a CD counsellor til i put on too much weight and was ashamed to see my clients and i am all excited if not a little apprehensive about starting
Linda CD Consellor has given me some great advice as always she has always been there for me if ever i called maybe i should have called more often
lol
i have just been reading post after post and i now remember why i love coming here and speaking to you all i am not looking forward to the mood swings i had a lot of them but hey the kids and hubby will just have to get used to it again lol
i don't want people to feel sorry for me it was my fault i ate no matter what i was going through but at least i have learnt one greatest lesson and that is be true to yourself and your friends i was always worried that you would feel i was a failure which i was but now things have changed i know now that you will be there no matter what and we are all in the same boat
sorry its so long but i just had to get it all off my chest so wish me luck for tomorrow and when i post again i apologise in advance if i am moody
i have so many posts to read i won't have time to fit eating in my day aswell well thats the idea any way along with running to the loo
so all i can say now is watch this space
thanks for listening to me going on but even if no one reads this post at least i can say a weight has been lifted off my shoulders i only hope it is lifted of the scales too!!!!!!!!!
I started off on LL and finished with CD that was in 2004/5 in total i lost over 10 stone great i hear you all say but no mine is not a happy ending just like bigloser i have now put back on 8 stone:cry: i was going to come back here in hiding but i have to accept that i cannot hide from myself (no disrepect to bigloser as your story is totally different from mine)so here is my story
the first time the diet was a doddle to me 247 days with no food at all not even on a holiday to greece i was so happy when i got down to my ideal weight but i had a lot of loose skin i was lucky enough (or so i thought) to have a tummy tuck on the NHS unfortunateley this went drastically wrong and i nearly died losing too much blood and getting a massive infection. please don't let this put you off having a TT as it was just bad luck that this happened to me and if i had to do it all again honestly i would still do it. but due to the fact i couldn't move for nearly 3 months or exercise for over another 6 months and because i was at home getting depressed i ate:sigh: i just wanted to feel better well as you can guess i don't feel better and all the hard work i did before has been demolished i am once again a very fat unhappy person .
so i have come back to where i belong i should have come back a long time ago but yesterday i decided i had to come back and try again
i have just ordered my packs they will arrive tomorrow oh yes forgot to say i was also a CD counsellor til i put on too much weight and was ashamed to see my clients and i am all excited if not a little apprehensive about starting
Linda CD Consellor has given me some great advice as always she has always been there for me if ever i called maybe i should have called more often
loli have just been reading post after post and i now remember why i love coming here and speaking to you all i am not looking forward to the mood swings i had a lot of them but hey the kids and hubby will just have to get used to it again lol
i don't want people to feel sorry for me it was my fault i ate no matter what i was going through but at least i have learnt one greatest lesson and that is be true to yourself and your friends i was always worried that you would feel i was a failure which i was but now things have changed i know now that you will be there no matter what and we are all in the same boat
sorry its so long but i just had to get it all off my chest so wish me luck for tomorrow and when i post again i apologise in advance if i am moody
i have so many posts to read i won't have time to fit eating in my day aswell
well thats the idea any way along with running to the looso all i can say now is watch this space
thanks for listening to me going on but even if no one reads this post at least i can say a weight has been lifted off my shoulders i only hope it is lifted of the scales too!!!!!!!!!
