Hiya guys..
bea - that scan pic is wonderful, aww!!
nina - one thing that helps me in bed when things are really bad is taking an old sleeping bag (not one of the mummy shaped ones but a rectangular one) and turning it inside out, the sides that rub together are really shiny so it makes turning over much easier..
Not been such a good week, the pain clinic trip was a complete farce, it turned out I'd been told the wrong hospital for the appointment - which considing the one the appointment was at was only 10 minutes away but the one I was sent to was 50 minutes away it was a lot of being bounced around in the back of an ambulance, strapped to a really uncomfy stretcher, I could well have done without.. I was then so late for the appointment that they only saw me in goodwill - but left me in a random corridor (on stretcher) for over an hour while waiting for someone to see me as I wouldn't fit in teh waiting room... I was then prescribed a patch I'd never heard of and came home, looked it up on the internet and found it causes perinatal mortality.. I've since been chatting to I dont know how many people and my mw has worked so hard trying to sort it out for me - turns out I can take it as the dose is so so small that I've been prescribed - but I'm just too scared to.. So am struggling on, things have definitely got worse since the trip to hospital - walking to the loo in the night or first thing is as agonising as it is last thing at night so that relief that I used to get has gone.. One bright thing is that the oramorph (liquid morphine) is more effective than the pethidine - but I really dont like taking it unless I absolutely have to.. Not helped by someone asking me what they were doing about the delivery, to which i replied I hoped they'd induce me at 37 weeks.. Her reply? (with huge sincerity) "but, my darling, they're going to have to.. I mean, this baby is going to be a real junkie when he's born".
Thanks.
Like that didn't make me feel any more of a failure than I was already.. I tried to explain to her that I only took the drugs when I was howling in pain, they would't have prescribed it unless absolutely necessary and that severe stress in pregnancy is worse than painkillers - and causes low birth weight babies for one thing.. Her helpful reply was "well yes, but they can just feed up low birth weight babies, at least they're not withdrawing from drugs"...
Dont think I'll be phoning her for the rest of the pg - or until my hormones are in a place where I can cope with her.. She's family - so she should have known better..
With luck there's only 7.5 weeks to go - 59 days - and then I can meet the little one who will make all this pain worthwhile..
xx