.Nicki. - time flies.

[.Nicki.]

Ok so i've been bad today, work was hell, i forgot lunch and my teatime i just thought bugger it, although i did have mince and mash do not so bad.
Work was busy not horrible but i'm still blocked up so i'm slightly deaf, i slept about 2 hours last night so i'm exhausted, so it was a pretty tough day. But my manager did say that me being off shouldn't affect me going full time because they all knew how sick i was and still am!
I'm feeling a little blue at the moment, when i was in my teens i had a moped, it was a 125cc and i loved it but when it broke and when i moved after meeting hubby I sold it, that was 6 years ago. I've been wanting to get a new one for a while because i'm so dependent on hubby for lifts and i need some independence esp if i'm going to move jobs/go to college/ go to placements. I told my younger brother about trying to save for one and within a week my parents had bought him one. My parents have helped me out with debts in the past so i can't really complain but i am a little upset because they all knew i'm trying to save my extra £20 a month to buy one but it was a bit of a boys bike anyway. Well i mentioned it to hubby about trying to work more/maybe get a second job which he said no, i went on to check prices and bits and found this, its so lovely but by the time i've saved enough it will probably be this time next year, :sigh:

*sorry not much point to that little moan but i'm feeling pretty down today!

 

[skinnydawn]

Hi bestie,

Sorry you're on a downer today :'( I don't think you need to worry about your food as from what you say it sounds pretty good, even if you did have to get it from the canteen.

And work sounds ok too...they actually appear to be fairly reasonable over you going full time if you decide to go down that route. So its good to have that as an option as well as the school thing xx.

Which leaves the bike. I remember you mentioning this before, and how much you'd like another one. The bike in the photo is really lovely. I hav no idea how much these things cost, but would u manage to get one if you were doing more hours? The only thing that worries me is whether you're ready to cope with more...you're only recently back on the meds and I know how unpredictable the side effects can be. And you've been through a lot recently. Would it be out of the question to ask your patents for a loan, to be repaid at a rate you can afford on your current wages rather than depending on more hours? Did I read that it was your mum who mentioned the t/a training post in the first place? She might be glad to help xx

 

[.Nicki.]

Hey bestie,
Yeah work are fine when its something my managers have the say over, but the company policies are shocking.
I couldn't really ask them for a loan, money is a bit of awkward subject in our family and we're not all the close. The bike, registration and extras you need all come to about £1000 and to be honest i can't afford it without the extra hours and even with them we have better things it could be spent on.
It was my mother in law who mentioned the course, in fact i spoke to her last night and there are 2 evening courses and 2 daytime courses, she's asked them to get some info together for me.

I'm up early because i can't sleep again, happened last night but thought it was just a one off but woke up after 2 hours and couldn't back to sleep. I fidgit when i'm awake so its just easier to get up and let hubbs sleep. I start work in 2 hours but i have tomorrow off, well till the evening when i'm going in to do overtime (double time baby) working till 11pm then back into work 7am. Going to be tired but can't really turn it down and my friends are all there annnnd free pizza and sweets (ok bad for the diet but good for the soul)

 

[skinnydawn]

Oh dear, not good to be doing the not sleeping thing again usually means you're worrying xx

The bike is pretty expensive isn't it? But it would be money well spent if it gives you your independence, allows you to work more hours or further away, frees up hubby from needing to drive you, and most importantly boosts your confidence. It may even pay for itself after a while. But I think you really need to decide on what training you want to do, and hours you want to work, before you commit yourself to any large expenses xx

Hope work isn't a pig! And don't eat too much pizza tonight lol! Xx

Take care xx

 

[.Nicki.]

Not sure if this will work, for some reason i can read the posts on my phone but i can type. Just to let you no that my managers have agreed to me going back full time and stay on my set rota, so should start in a couple of weeks so thats a relief, i sat down tonight and worked out money and if i get my payrise next month things will be alot easier for us both. My over time tomorrow will give me a little extra money to get some much needed work shoes and some new bunny toys. Now to attempt to sleep for more then 2 hours. x

 

[skinnydawn]

Hi bestie,

Chuffed about the extra hours for you xx. Let's hope it makes all the difference to you both.

But...new work shoes...yes
New bunny toys...no! Seriously! No! Not necessary, not needed...she's already spoilt rotten! Treat yourself hunni, you've worked hard for it xxx

Hope you're sleeping peacefully and manage to get more than a couple of hours xxx

 

[.Nicki.]

she needs a few its the only way i can stop her eating the door frame.
I slept for like 4 hours but it was really restless, regretting doing overtime now but it'll be worth it.
I got on the scales today as i'll prob be having pizza tonight and i guess the mixture of sickness, pills and sw have work because i've lost 12lbs not quite the 13lbs i lost last time but a close 2nd.

 

[skinnydawn]

Good grief Bestie!

That's one helluva loss hunni! Well done xx. It doesn't really matter if there were other reasons adding to the loss...the weights gone and that's that! Time to move on to week 2!

Naughty little Maisie, eating your house! Tell her Auntie Dawn says she's got to be a good girl for her mummy! Xx

 

[tillymax]

12lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's bl**dy brilliant

 

[PurpleRoses]

12lbs crikey!! thats amazing well done nicki!!

 

[skinnydawn]

Fingers crossed for a good sleep hunni xx

 

[.Nicki.]

Fat chance bestie, work last night was a freaking nightmare in the way it was organised (or not as the case was) but i was sat with good people and it was pretty easy work for £12 an hour and i did have a laugh. Didn't get home till gone 11.30, went to macdonalds on the way home because i got 1 slice of pizza in 8hours so i was starving. Went to be just after 12 and got about 3 hours sleep and was back at work at 7am!
Bought miss maisie new blankets on the way home because the others need washing and can't really leave her in without them, cleaned the cage out as soon as i got home and now i'm sat on the sofa trying not to fall asleep. We're going bowling tonight for my friends birthday so can't really not go but i'm so tired and my lips just started to swell randomly, oh and i have tooth/cheek ache from my stupid slanty wisdom tooth thats burying itself into the side of my cheek! :cry: haha i'll stop moaning now!

 

[bear1982]

Hi Nicki!

I saw you on Nics diary the other day and just had to come over and say hi!

Well done on your fantastic loss

Have a lovely time tonight

xx

 

[skinnydawn]

That's a sod about work bestie but I suppose the moneys so good its silly not to take it when offered. Just keep reminding yourself of that!

You have my sympathy over the wisdom tooth :'( I had a real mare last year with mine. The pain got so bad the night before I was due to have it out, I asked dad for one of his morphine patches...really stupid as I overdosed on it and missed the damn appt! I did get it taken out a couple of weeks later, but it took an hour and had to be drilled out! Very glad the things gone now!

Hope u had a good night bowling...do u good to have a night out xx

 

[.Nicki.]

oh my god its been a long old weekend, fell asleep on the sofa last night at 17.30, woke up at 19.00 and took myself off to bed and woke up at 5.30 this morning, most defo needed it. Could do with another early night but i'm off out to a friends new house for dinner. Diet has gone out the window this weekend but we're going shopping tomorrow so will be back on it, although i have to admit my head and hearts not in it at the moment. After working 6 days in a row for the first time in a year, i have a day off tomorrow so will catch up with everyone then x

 

[JackieN]

Wow Nicki well done on that weight loss. Thats fantastic

 

[skinnydawn]

Hi Bestie xx

Have a great time at the party tonight hunni xx

And you enjoy your much earned day off tomorrow! Put your feet up!!! xx

 

[.Nicki.]

Look what i got

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I made it into the slimming world online hall of fame! It was pretty random, didn't even know they had a hall of fame.
Dinner with my mate was lovely, she and her hubby has moved into an amazing new house but everytime i see her it reminds me how far away she is. She and my mum live quite close to each other but from my house its a 30min drive or 2/3 buses and a ferry, this is why we don't see each other very often This is why i'm pushing so hard to save for a bike, I don't want to only see my mum and dad/oldest friend 3 or 4 times a year, lifes to short. I tried to tell hubbs last night how lonely it is for me here (not the first or last time i imagine) but he doesn't get it, why would he we are surrounded by his family and friends, he just needs to look out the window to see his parents or grandad. I was the one who moved from my home town to make it easier to see each other after we'd been dating for 3 months, the things we sacrifice for the person we love.

 

[skinnydawn]

Ooh er missus! Hark at you, miss goody two shoes lol! Well done bestie!!! Proud of you! Xx

I do feel for u about missing your family, and it must be even harder when hubbys family is right on the doorstep. You really need to win that lottery so u can get your lovely bike xx

 

[skinnydawn]

Where's my Bestie?????! Xx