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.Nicki.
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so where have i been? no where actually, been stalking you all but haven't bothered to update because i didn't think anyone could cope with more depressing/depressive updates and radio silence seemed the best bet.
I lost 1lb this week not down to any diet but because i've had teeth problems and abscesses and they don't half kill your appetite, on Thursday i left work early because i was in so much pain so lost my payrise again. Good job i'd gone home because in the afternoon the abscess burst and i was rather sick! I have found an NHS dentist though, have an appointment for next Thursday but need to rebook it because Hubbs results are in and he's seeing a consultant Thursday.
I spoke to hubbs after my last post about getting some transport and we worked it out so i could actually get one next month but i'm too heavy to use the bikes provided to do the test so thats out the window.
I'm thinking about investing in a hybrid push bike, i have a mountain bike at the moment but hubby thinks the frame is too small which is why i get back and joint pains so bad. I didn't know they had different size frames, i bought it years ago because it was on sale. We went to Halfords yesterday and looked, they had a nice one in the half price sale but it was still £200. From what i've read bikes are a bit like running shoes, if you're going to use them regularly you need the right size and good quality. I've worked out some routes around my house (like a cirle) that would be the same distance from my house to work which is 2 miles, so i could go as far as i can every day and when i can do the whole circle, i know i can make it to work. Then maybe get a moped next year when i'm skinnier and had time to save and get one i want not just because its cheap.
Oh and to top the week off i've come on for the first time since the miscarriage so i'm in stupid amounts of pain, i don't usually suffer period pains so i'm more grumpy then usual.
I dunno, i just feel in a very dark place at the moment and i can't be arsed to drag myself back out, so i'm staying put.
I lost 1lb this week not down to any diet but because i've had teeth problems and abscesses and they don't half kill your appetite, on Thursday i left work early because i was in so much pain so lost my payrise again. Good job i'd gone home because in the afternoon the abscess burst and i was rather sick! I have found an NHS dentist though, have an appointment for next Thursday but need to rebook it because Hubbs results are in and he's seeing a consultant Thursday.
I spoke to hubbs after my last post about getting some transport and we worked it out so i could actually get one next month but i'm too heavy to use the bikes provided to do the test so thats out the window.
I'm thinking about investing in a hybrid push bike, i have a mountain bike at the moment but hubby thinks the frame is too small which is why i get back and joint pains so bad. I didn't know they had different size frames, i bought it years ago because it was on sale. We went to Halfords yesterday and looked, they had a nice one in the half price sale but it was still £200. From what i've read bikes are a bit like running shoes, if you're going to use them regularly you need the right size and good quality. I've worked out some routes around my house (like a cirle) that would be the same distance from my house to work which is 2 miles, so i could go as far as i can every day and when i can do the whole circle, i know i can make it to work. Then maybe get a moped next year when i'm skinnier and had time to save and get one i want not just because its cheap.
Oh and to top the week off i've come on for the first time since the miscarriage so i'm in stupid amounts of pain, i don't usually suffer period pains so i'm more grumpy then usual.
I dunno, i just feel in a very dark place at the moment and i can't be arsed to drag myself back out, so i'm staying put.
tillymax
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You've got a lot going on at the moment so it's not suprising your feeling down. Don't shut yourself away from us. We're all here for you and will try and help in any way we can.
Looking forward though - you've got the moped to aim for. That should motivate your weight loss
Hope you get your teeth sorted soon cos toothaches horrible. Hope they get to the bottom of hubbies problems too
Looking forward though - you've got the moped to aim for. That should motivate your weight loss
Hope you get your teeth sorted soon cos toothaches horrible. Hope they get to the bottom of hubbies problems too
.Nicki.
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You've got a lot going on at the moment so it's not suprising your feeling down. Don't shut yourself away from us. We're all here for you and will try and help in any way we can.
Looking forward though - you've got the moped to aim for. That should motivate your weight loss
Hope you get your teeth sorted soon cos toothaches horrible. Hope they get to the bottom of hubbies problems too
Thanks hun, think its just my natural reaction tend to pull away and hide, think i must have been a tortoise in a previous life.
My most atainable aim at the moment is this
Full time rota starts next week and after a few shifts i should be able to save enough to get it. I've used cyclestreets and mapmyrun to work out some distances and i'm making it my new project, concentrating less of food (not that i am anyway) and more on exercise.
JackieN
One day at a time, one step at a time
You know Nicki I think alot of us do that, ie step back, hide, but we are all here for you sweetie. You an do this and then you can get your moped that you really want
Tooth absesses are horrid and I hope you can get it sorted quickly, as the pain is unreal.
You have been through so much, but come on, we will help you come out the other side and be happy again We are all here for you and you are doing so well.
love that bike. Its super. Good idea about working out when you can manage to cycle to work. I have a bike up the shed I wonder if I dare get it out. I am so unfit.
Goodluck sweetie, and remember, you can do this and we will all help as much as we can
love
jackie
xxxxx
Tooth absesses are horrid and I hope you can get it sorted quickly, as the pain is unreal.
You have been through so much, but come on, we will help you come out the other side and be happy again
We are all here for you and you are doing so well.love that bike. Its super. Good idea about working out when you can manage to cycle to work. I have a bike up the shed I wonder if I dare get it out. I am so unfit.
Goodluck sweetie, and remember, you can do this and we will all help as much as we can
love
jackie
xxxxx
PurpleRoses
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aw nicki (((hugs))) hope the tooth gets better soon!
that bike is very smart! it wont take you long to build up your strength on it!
Hope you have a good day
that bike is very smart! it wont take you long to build up your strength on it!
Hope you have a good day
tillymax
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I think you're so brave going on a bike. The last time I went on one was about 5 years ago and before that was probably 20 years ago. I only dared ride it in the back garden in case I made a fool of myself.
I ended up riding for a lot longer than I wanted to cos I couldn't get off. I didn't dare pull the brakes cos my feet didn't reach the floor and I was scared of falling. The kids and hubbie were wetting themselves whilst I was going round and round in circles screaming my head off. I'd still be on it now if hubbie hadn't have jumped in front of the bike and got me off :8855:
I ended up riding for a lot longer than I wanted to cos I couldn't get off. I didn't dare pull the brakes cos my feet didn't reach the floor and I was scared of falling. The kids and hubbie were wetting themselves whilst I was going round and round in circles screaming my head off. I'd still be on it now if hubbie hadn't have jumped in front of the bike and got me off :8855:
skinnydawn
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Hi Bestie,
Well I turn my back for 2 mins and it's all change in Nicki World lol!!!
Firstly...how are you? How's the tooth pain?
Secondly...how's the diet?arty0051:
Thirdly...I know absolutely nothing about bikes other than the fact that I'm too scared to ride one :ashamed0005: I'm quite happy on my exercise bike but I've got no intention of leaving the safety of my kitchen on it!!!
So, for thickos like me :silly:, what is a hybrid bike? Having said that, even I can see it's a beautiful looking machine though. I really like it How far away is work hunni? And is the route safe cos I don't want a squashed Bestie!
Well I turn my back for 2 mins and it's all change in Nicki World lol!!!
Firstly...how are you? How's the tooth pain?
Secondly...how's the diet?
arty0051:Thirdly...I know absolutely nothing about bikes other than the fact that I'm too scared to ride one :ashamed0005: I'm quite happy on my exercise bike but I've got no intention of leaving the safety of my kitchen on it!!!
So, for thickos like me :silly:, what is a hybrid bike? Having said that, even I can see it's a beautiful looking machine though. I really like it
How far away is work hunni? And is the route safe cos I don't want a squashed Bestie!
.Nicki.
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Hi Bestie,
Well I turn my back for 2 mins and it's all change in Nicki World lol!!!
Firstly...how are you? How's the tooth pain?
Secondly...how's the diet?
Thirdly...I know absolutely nothing about bikes other than the fact that I'm too scared to ride one :ashamed0005: I'm quite happy on my exercise bike but I've got no intention of leaving the safety of my kitchen on it!!!
So, for thickos like me :silly:, what is a hybrid bike? Having said that, even I can see it's a beautiful looking machine though. I really like it
I am not great but ok, not sleeping again (hence the 3am post) tooth ache isn't so bad, its moved a little so its not digging in so bad, managable!
Diet errrrr,well, yeah to be honest for the last few days i've had zero appititte, yesterday i managed a few custard creams and half a bowl of chips.
I didn't no what a hybrid was till a few days ago, basically its a cross between a mountain bike and a road bike, it has larger wheels and a more robust frame. Work is about 2.5 miles away and the route would be dead in the mornings and pretty hectic at night but they're are cycle lanes. Me and hubbs spoke about it yesterday as he can see how unsure i am but i don't think i'm going to get it because i'm not sure i can spend £200 on a bike and then i'd need to spend another £50-£75 on helmets, decent lock and what not, thats like a third of a moped. There is a place near my mum that does the cbt (moped test) that lets you use your own bike, so if i got it delivered to my mums then my step dad could ride it to the test centre for me. I know its sounds like i'm really indecisive and i am but i no what i'm like and as nice as the pushbike is its really not going to give me the freedom i need. I have time to decide the pretty vintage moped won't be in stock for another 6 weeks so i'll have to see how much i can save. Urggh i have work in 3 hours :cry:
skinnydawn
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Hi bestie,
In that case, I think you should leave the bike hun xx.
You really want a moped, and I don't think anything else will do.
So now its a question of sorting out how to buy it xx. I don't suppose there's anything you could sell to put down as a deposit? And then would the shop give you interest free credit or a low interest loan on the rest? If a moped would make it easier and safer to get to work, you will be a happier bestie, and maybe more able to do extra hours to pay for it. Or perhaps look for an older cheaper model that you can use until you're able to upgrade?
I don't know hunni, its a difficult one. But if your not too sure about the hybrid, you can't get it xx. Like you said, its a big chunk towards a moped.
Lots of love,
Dawn xx
In that case, I think you should leave the bike hun xx.
You really want a moped, and I don't think anything else will do.
So now its a question of sorting out how to buy it xx. I don't suppose there's anything you could sell to put down as a deposit? And then would the shop give you interest free credit or a low interest loan on the rest? If a moped would make it easier and safer to get to work, you will be a happier bestie, and maybe more able to do extra hours to pay for it. Or perhaps look for an older cheaper model that you can use until you're able to upgrade?
I don't know hunni, its a difficult one. But if your not too sure about the hybrid, you can't get it xx. Like you said, its a big chunk towards a moped.
Lots of love,
Dawn xx
.Nicki.
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I think you're right bestie, nothing else will do and by the time i'd be fit enough to be able to ride to work it will be winter.
Its on ebay so no finance and its an imported chinese bike so its only £700 brand spanking new and most 2nd hand ones are more then that and at least i don't have to worry about mot's for 3 years with the new one. I'm a little tempted to ask my parents to help me out like they did my brother but money is a touchy subject in our family and i'm 99% sure she'd say no. I'm going to see her later today, i'm off sick today i'm a big ball of anxiety about tomorrow and i was really sick this morning (not good on an empty stomach)
Just have to wait and see i guess, i'm just impatient
Its on ebay so no finance and its an imported chinese bike so its only £700 brand spanking new and most 2nd hand ones are more then that and at least i don't have to worry about mot's for 3 years with the new one. I'm a little tempted to ask my parents to help me out like they did my brother but money is a touchy subject in our family and i'm 99% sure she'd say no. I'm going to see her later today, i'm off sick today i'm a big ball of anxiety about tomorrow and i was really sick this morning (not good on an empty stomach)
Just have to wait and see i guess, i'm just impatient
skinnydawn
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Hi Bestie xx
Gosh, that moped sounds like a pretty good buy. Talk to your parents hun...it has to be worth a shot. Perhaps you could raise £200 and just borrow £500 from them. Explain to them what a difference it will make to your life, giving you your freedom, confidence etc. and it may come in very handy if you go on to do your TA training. You could do a written agreement on how you will pay them back if it would help...£10 a week would see it paid off in a year xx
Of course you're worried about tomorrow, but you have to be strong for hubby sweetie. No good getting yourself in a state as it will only give him something else to worry about xx
Big hugs :hug99:
Gosh, that moped sounds like a pretty good buy. Talk to your parents hun...it has to be worth a shot. Perhaps you could raise £200 and just borrow £500 from them. Explain to them what a difference it will make to your life, giving you your freedom, confidence etc. and it may come in very handy if you go on to do your TA training. You could do a written agreement on how you will pay them back if it would help...£10 a week would see it paid off in a year xx
Of course you're worried about tomorrow, but you have to be strong for hubby sweetie. No good getting yourself in a state as it will only give him something else to worry about xx
Big hugs :hug99:
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.Nicki.
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No such luck, don't feel any better for seeing them in fact feel a little worse, they have a new car. I did walk in and say 'am i the only one in this family who can't afford new transport' mum just said yep. I just wanted a cuddle from my mum but she doesn't really do affection any more, don't think she means it just how she is.
My stepdad had a friend round so i couldn't even ask about a loan and i've decided i'm not going to ask.
Nik i slept a little during the day which prob means i'll be on twitter most of the night or angry birds!
My stepdad had a friend round so i couldn't even ask about a loan and i've decided i'm not going to ask.
Nik i slept a little during the day which prob means i'll be on twitter most of the night or angry birds!
skinnydawn
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Sorry it didn't go so well with the parents today bestie
Any point asking hubbys family? I know it's awkward and I don't know their circumstances but maybe hubby could have a word?
I'll be thinking of you both tomorrow hunni...hope you get some answers and that it's nothing serious xx
Any point asking hubbys family? I know it's awkward and I don't know their circumstances but maybe hubby could have a word?
I'll be thinking of you both tomorrow hunni...hope you get some answers and that it's nothing serious xx
.Nicki.
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Sorry it didn't go so well with the parents today bestie
Any point asking hubbys family? I know it's awkward and I don't know their circumstances but maybe hubby could have a word?
I'll be thinking of you both tomorrow hunni...hope you get some answers and that it's nothing serious xx
Nah his parents are both retired and helped us out loads when we moved, I'll have to cope without one, i've managed this long.
Thanks, i'm dreading it to be honest, can't sleep again so left him upstairs to get a good nights sleep, if i stay up there i'd just fidget and keep him up and the sofa is mega comfy and infront of a tv
skinnydawn
Gold Member
Aww bless ya xx
All this worry is no good for you at all
It's no wonder you can't concentrate on food when you have so many things going on xx
Keep your chin up hun...things must get better for you both soon xx
All this worry is no good for you at all
It's no wonder you can't concentrate on food when you have so many things going on xx
Keep your chin up hun...things must get better for you both soon xx
.Nicki.
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Hubby is fine, a virus has damaged his inner ear a little but where he's been trying hard not to aggrivate it, its stopping his brain from readjusting. So he's been told to get back to normal, take some pills for the headaches and his brain will relearn that its normal. Phew!
Now just to get everything else sorted!
Now just to get everything else sorted!
PurpleRoses
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aw Nicki thats fab news about OH!! x
