lookingforme
Silver Member
Hope All is Ok Gem and tings are still flowing nicely. XX
Observations, mutterings and the gerbera effect
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lookingforme
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The longest you have been gone GEM
Pop bye and say hi when you have the time.
Hoping all is well XX
Pop bye and say hi when you have the time.
Hoping all is well XX
Hi guys...apologies for absence, life has been hectic getting settled in new routine for uni but all under control now.
I have today off and made the mistake of going to see my doctor this morning......why did I bother? I've got raised bp 150/100 so this is abnormal for me....my knee is still causing me issues with walking for any length of time and I'm now left feeling frustrated with the lack of weight loss as this is, she says, something I have to get down" ...no sh1t Sherlock!
I am to totally come off caffeine and salt for two weeks and go back for another bp test but I can't book another appointment cos she doesn't plan her time that far ahead ( I know I'm likely to not bother in two weeks!) I can't see the nurse for "a talk on weight management", which is all the support on offer, before or after work until a month's and she insisted in weighing me and according to her scales I'm back up to 17 stone.....well that's on her scales fully dressed with a coat and trainers on so not exactly a like for like weigh in.
So basically I'm back to square one, no help, no one really interested in the fact my knee is still not functioning properly.... And I even enquired at another surgery who couldn't take on any new patients out of the area...so what do I do now guys?
Do I sign up for yet another diet, do I start weighing and measuring everything again including myself and make myself miserable? Do I carry on as I am changing shape through the swimming and pods and I'm happier....it's sooo frustrating, she wants me to do more exercise....but won't do anything more about my knee ( because loosing weight will help it?!) so I can't raise exercise intensity easily, I can't go anymore than three times a week to swimming time wise..... Argh!!!!!
So sorry to come back ranting....I just find the whole situation ridiculous beyond words!
Anyway, apart from that life is good, I have had a promotion in my current job role and I'm actually applying for a further larger promotion within the company...my ideal job of project manager. If I am lucky enough to secure it I will pay for a private medical check up. It seems to be the only way to get decent treatment nowadays which is terrible!
I am really enjoying my uni course and life at the moment. I think I have psychological issues about dieting lol, still after 10 years of t I'm not really surprised!
Have a great week peeps x
I have today off and made the mistake of going to see my doctor this morning......why did I bother? I've got raised bp 150/100 so this is abnormal for me....my knee is still causing me issues with walking for any length of time and I'm now left feeling frustrated with the lack of weight loss as this is, she says, something I have to get down" ...no sh1t Sherlock!
I am to totally come off caffeine and salt for two weeks and go back for another bp test but I can't book another appointment cos she doesn't plan her time that far ahead ( I know I'm likely to not bother in two weeks!) I can't see the nurse for "a talk on weight management", which is all the support on offer, before or after work until a month's and she insisted in weighing me and according to her scales I'm back up to 17 stone.....well that's on her scales fully dressed with a coat and trainers on so not exactly a like for like weigh in.
So basically I'm back to square one, no help, no one really interested in the fact my knee is still not functioning properly.... And I even enquired at another surgery who couldn't take on any new patients out of the area...so what do I do now guys?
Do I sign up for yet another diet, do I start weighing and measuring everything again including myself and make myself miserable? Do I carry on as I am changing shape through the swimming and pods and I'm happier....it's sooo frustrating, she wants me to do more exercise....but won't do anything more about my knee ( because loosing weight will help it?!) so I can't raise exercise intensity easily, I can't go anymore than three times a week to swimming time wise..... Argh!!!!!
So sorry to come back ranting....I just find the whole situation ridiculous beyond words!
Anyway, apart from that life is good, I have had a promotion in my current job role and I'm actually applying for a further larger promotion within the company...my ideal job of project manager. If I am lucky enough to secure it I will pay for a private medical check up. It seems to be the only way to get decent treatment nowadays which is terrible!
I am really enjoying my uni course and life at the moment. I think I have psychological issues about dieting lol, still after 10 years of t I'm not really surprised!
Have a great week peeps x
lookingforme
Silver Member
HI Gem
Realy! nice to see you posting but sad to read the problems mate.
First thing that springs to mind is wieghtloss may hep knee? If that is the case what ever you need to do yo do to get rid of the 1st stone...Alli Tablets...nope i was against them to but health over morals made me see sense when i meet my Ex and saw the living proof.
Once you get that foot up on the wieghtloss then review your options maybe you will want to go forward for another stone before going solo and managing it.
Knee treatment very frustrating hun the NHS for all its good points is pretty shiet on others. The only way i could come out of my situation not feelin extremely aggresive towards it all, was to say to my self that my Mum had her ankle operation instead and my Grandaughters cleft operation and then grommits.
I just can't justify the lack of interest and support otherwise.
There seems to be a time that when a problm gets to bewildering they jst throw the towel n or back at you!
I found one realy nice neurolgist along the way, who i can say realy cared and was as interested to nail my problems as me but we still had a dead end...which is what Lyme Disease is good at, so i still say he was awsome.
Paying for results is sometimes the best medicine there is and once you see that speacialist then you can cross back over thier NHS list.
Realy glad your happy in work and uni, hope all of that isnt pushing your BP thou mate you do always seem to be doing so much.
The swimming commitment is great you must realy enjoy it..... I managed 1 in 5 weeks lol
I would just concentrate on the swimming and pod body training but seriously concider a helping had just to get your self to where your knee and your strugle may benefit.
Hugs for the week ahead and good luck with that New Job app!
XXXX
Realy! nice to see you posting but sad to read the problems mate.
First thing that springs to mind is wieghtloss may hep knee? If that is the case what ever you need to do yo do to get rid of the 1st stone...Alli Tablets...nope i was against them to but health over morals made me see sense when i meet my Ex and saw the living proof.
Once you get that foot up on the wieghtloss then review your options maybe you will want to go forward for another stone before going solo and managing it.
Knee treatment very frustrating hun the NHS for all its good points is pretty shiet on others. The only way i could come out of my situation not feelin extremely aggresive towards it all, was to say to my self that my Mum had her ankle operation instead and my Grandaughters cleft operation and then grommits.
I just can't justify the lack of interest and support otherwise.
There seems to be a time that when a problm gets to bewildering they jst throw the towel n or back at you!
I found one realy nice neurolgist along the way, who i can say realy cared and was as interested to nail my problems as me but we still had a dead end...which is what Lyme Disease is good at, so i still say he was awsome.
Paying for results is sometimes the best medicine there is and once you see that speacialist then you can cross back over thier NHS list.
Realy glad your happy in work and uni, hope all of that isnt pushing your BP thou mate you do always seem to be doing so much.
The swimming commitment is great you must realy enjoy it..... I managed 1 in 5 weeks lol
I would just concentrate on the swimming and pod body training but seriously concider a helping had just to get your self to where your knee and your strugle may benefit.
Hugs for the week ahead and good luck with that New Job app!
XXXX
Thanks LFM
I've had a good talk to myself today and I'm just not counting calories and getting miserable again. I'm not sure about those tablets as I don't like taking pills but I'll have a look and research them LFM
1st on the agenda is to cut out caffeine and salt. Ok, not too difficult for me, I like herbal tea and I don't add salt to any cooking so just gotta cut out anything processed really. I'm gonna try that and raising my water intake...
I've also bought a self help book on mindful eating. I love the pods but they don't really give much practical instruction on exercises to increase this. I'm convinced it's key to this method so im going to research this more ....so there is my strategy so far.
I'm also going back to Headspace which is slightly different to the pods in that it helps with stress and addiction all at once.
Anyway got lovely chicken casserole with mash and veg tonight , I'm also making a homemade leek and potato soup for tomorrow night.
Have a good evening x
I've had a good talk to myself today and I'm just not counting calories and getting miserable again. I'm not sure about those tablets as I don't like taking pills but I'll have a look and research them LFM
1st on the agenda is to cut out caffeine and salt. Ok, not too difficult for me, I like herbal tea and I don't add salt to any cooking so just gotta cut out anything processed really. I'm gonna try that and raising my water intake...
I've also bought a self help book on mindful eating. I love the pods but they don't really give much practical instruction on exercises to increase this. I'm convinced it's key to this method so im going to research this more ....so there is my strategy so far.
I'm also going back to Headspace which is slightly different to the pods in that it helps with stress and addiction all at once.
Anyway got lovely chicken casserole with mash and veg tonight , I'm also making a homemade leek and potato soup for tomorrow night.
Have a good evening x
jayde1148
Gold Member
Hi hun, sorry you are having a tough time. GPs are useless but you ha e to rely on them 
I think the best thing and only thing we can all do is to keep trying hun no matter what form it is in, we just gotta keep going! So well don.e for giving yourself a talk and getting on with things. We can do this x x x
I think the best thing and only thing we can all do is to keep trying hun no matter what form it is in, we just gotta keep going! So well don.e for giving yourself a talk and getting on with things. We can do this x x x
lookingforme
Silver Member
Hi Gem
hope last week went well and the headspace pods are working for you.
Can you recommend any free pods? Anxiety/meditation / letting go. xx
hope last week went well and the headspace pods are working for you.
Can you recommend any free pods? Anxiety/meditation / letting go. xx
Hi guys
I'm feeling very sheepish as I've fallen off the rails totally. Stopped the pods, stopped caring and ended up last night pigging out on a whole tub of Ben and Jerrys and a huge bag of crisps!! How the hell did I get here? I really don't know but I haven't been well for about three weeks with a virus and have a cold not which maybe moving towards a chest infection......how brill do I feel?
I feel ill, sick, fat, fed up and angry with myself. I cannot carry on like this.
I have to face facts.
I don't loose weight unless I'm monitoring my intake in a food diary
The slimpods make me feel good about myself and keep cravings under control
So...I'm on holiday from work next week and I will be feeling better by then
Plan of action
Goal: to buy a new pair of size 18 jeans by the end of May 2012 for my Cornwall holiday. I have no idea what I weigh but I by how i feel reckon I must be over 17 stone again. My size 20 jeans are feeling a little tight now.
I will weigh in on Monday 5th November
I haven't decided definately but may just weigh in once a month.
I will monitor my food intake daily with myfitnesspal
I will listen to the pods everyday
I will post my positives here
I will increase my swimming and try more walking ( knee allowing!)
I won't let this beat me. I'm ready to move down those scales!
Bring it on!
I'm feeling very sheepish as I've fallen off the rails totally. Stopped the pods, stopped caring and ended up last night pigging out on a whole tub of Ben and Jerrys and a huge bag of crisps!! How the hell did I get here? I really don't know but I haven't been well for about three weeks with a virus and have a cold not which maybe moving towards a chest infection......how brill do I feel?
I feel ill, sick, fat, fed up and angry with myself. I cannot carry on like this.
I have to face facts.
I don't loose weight unless I'm monitoring my intake in a food diary
The slimpods make me feel good about myself and keep cravings under control
So...I'm on holiday from work next week and I will be feeling better by then
Plan of action
Goal: to buy a new pair of size 18 jeans by the end of May 2012 for my Cornwall holiday. I have no idea what I weigh but I by how i feel reckon I must be over 17 stone again. My size 20 jeans are feeling a little tight now.
I will weigh in on Monday 5th November
I haven't decided definately but may just weigh in once a month.
I will monitor my food intake daily with myfitnesspal
I will listen to the pods everyday
I will post my positives here
I will increase my swimming and try more walking ( knee allowing!)
I won't let this beat me. I'm ready to move down those scales!
Bring it on!
lookingforme
Silver Member
Hi Gem
Dont beat yourself up too much, you achieve a hell of a lot in the days an weeks that you have been given on this planet.
I rekon your determination and achievemnet in the get healthy steaks is a damn good one.#
We all have are slips are who gives a xxxx mood swings OMG i have one every other day lol
Just tell your self " ok have your time, have your fun, do what you want...and then its back on track"
How boring life would be if we had to live like this every minute of every day. So take that time off, enjoy it for what it is hun.
Ive noticed over the last 2 weeks not only me but family and friends, quiet a gloomy cloud and i belive its all season effected...so may be a sun lamp will pick you up.
I tried one but i was suffering from Lymes then realy badly so i may quickly have a go with one while im at a lower stage.
Ive been stuck just above 12stne for near on a year Gem and its driving me potty.
Its like unless i get it i cant move forward...how crazy is that what a thing to put upon myself.
Slowly does it Gem and you will, i dont belive for one minute you will alllow your self to get to a wieght that is out of your control.
Say Hi to Ben and Jerry for me long time no see but it may be sooner than they think as im popping up the shop now lol.
Ive pmed you to un XX
Dont beat yourself up too much, you achieve a hell of a lot in the days an weeks that you have been given on this planet.
I rekon your determination and achievemnet in the get healthy steaks is a damn good one.#
We all have are slips are who gives a xxxx mood swings OMG i have one every other day lol
Just tell your self " ok have your time, have your fun, do what you want...and then its back on track"
How boring life would be if we had to live like this every minute of every day. So take that time off, enjoy it for what it is hun.
Ive noticed over the last 2 weeks not only me but family and friends, quiet a gloomy cloud and i belive its all season effected...so may be a sun lamp will pick you up.
I tried one but i was suffering from Lymes then realy badly so i may quickly have a go with one while im at a lower stage.
Ive been stuck just above 12stne for near on a year Gem and its driving me potty.
Its like unless i get it i cant move forward...how crazy is that what a thing to put upon myself.
Slowly does it Gem and you will, i dont belive for one minute you will alllow your self to get to a wieght that is out of your control.
Say Hi to Ben and Jerry for me long time no see but it may be sooner than they think as im popping up the shop now lol.
Ive pmed you to un XX
I'm feeling better today from the chest infection and hubby and I have made a pact we are gonna kick this and just do it.
Day one
I have signed up for a new account with my fitness pal - Gemsaic for anyone who needs a buddy!
I am going to steam clean my kitchen today from top to bottom and reorganise it
I am going to take stock of the foods we have in the fridge/ freezer and cupboards
I am going to plan healthy foods for the week
Inspired by Jamie's 15 minute meals I'm going to buy myself a food processor
Plan
I weigh myself once a week on a Monday
I listen to my Slimpod before I go to sleep
I am doing take10 ( Headspace) once a day
I keep a food & exercise diary
That's it! Simples! Now let's go and kick some ass!
X
Day one
I have signed up for a new account with my fitness pal - Gemsaic for anyone who needs a buddy!
I am going to steam clean my kitchen today from top to bottom and reorganise it
I am going to take stock of the foods we have in the fridge/ freezer and cupboards
I am going to plan healthy foods for the week
Inspired by Jamie's 15 minute meals I'm going to buy myself a food processor
Plan
I weigh myself once a week on a Monday
I listen to my Slimpod before I go to sleep
I am doing take10 ( Headspace) once a day
I keep a food & exercise diary
That's it! Simples! Now let's go and kick some ass!
X
RainbowRose
Gold Member
That's my girl!
Any gain will be blasted off with that attitude and determination Gem...I look forward to reading about your first big loss..then you will be on that road to success again. Life is full of ups and downs and that includes weight honey, don't let it get to you, you have the right positive attitude to melt those pesky pounds...go on, prove me right!
Get well soon too hun x
Any gain will be blasted off with that attitude and determination Gem...I look forward to reading about your first big loss..then you will be on that road to success again. Life is full of ups and downs and that includes weight honey, don't let it get to you, you have the right positive attitude to melt those pesky pounds...go on, prove me right!
Get well soon too hun x
Thank you for the cheer squad Rose :0)
I have had a really good day and feel so much happier!
Breakfast was poached egg on wholemeal toast x2
Lunch was a homemade fruit smoothie
Dinner was swedish meatballs , Jamie Oliver style with celeriac and spinach rice....YUM!
We also steamed cleaned the kitchen, and hubby treated me to a shiny new kenwood food processor so everything is super easy to cook from scratch!
I feel very satisfied and content again and who knew celeriac was so nice and filling!
I'm weighing in tomorrow..."gulp"
We are going out to lunch as I've arranged a tour of the RNLI for my Dad. Sadly I've had to organise a wheelchair for him as he can't stand or walk very far but we are determined to give him a good day :0)
Soup planned for the evening meal though so should be fine with a light breakfast!
I have had a really good day and feel so much happier!
Breakfast was poached egg on wholemeal toast x2
Lunch was a homemade fruit smoothie
Dinner was swedish meatballs , Jamie Oliver style with celeriac and spinach rice....YUM!
We also steamed cleaned the kitchen, and hubby treated me to a shiny new kenwood food processor so everything is super easy to cook from scratch!
I feel very satisfied and content again and who knew celeriac was so nice and filling!
I'm weighing in tomorrow..."gulp"
We are going out to lunch as I've arranged a tour of the RNLI for my Dad. Sadly I've had to organise a wheelchair for him as he can't stand or walk very far but we are determined to give him a good day :0)
Soup planned for the evening meal though so should be fine with a light breakfast!
lookingforme
Silver Member
WooHoo!!! good luck tomorrow Gem, All sounds realy positive. XX
XXDay two
Weighed in at 17 st 1.6 , not a surprise after the last couple of weeks of being I'll and unfocused. Still that's the line drawn.
Had a great day, the tour of the RNLI was amazing and very interesting. My parents really enjoyed it and I'm glad we organised it for them.
Food today
Porridge with grated apple for breakfast
Lunch was meatballs and pasta
Dinner was half a can of Heinz big soup and a ciabatta roll.
I am still a little peckish but I'm going to see how I feel after a cuppa x
Weighed in at 17 st 1.6 , not a surprise after the last couple of weeks of being I'll and unfocused. Still that's the line drawn.
Had a great day, the tour of the RNLI was amazing and very interesting. My parents really enjoyed it and I'm glad we organised it for them.
Food today
Porridge with grated apple for breakfast
Lunch was meatballs and pasta
Dinner was half a can of Heinz big soup and a ciabatta roll.
I am still a little peckish but I'm going to see how I feel after a cuppa x
Day three
Busy day but home for three delicious homemade meals. Went shopping for all healthy meals ...cost less than I thought too which is a bonus!
Porridge with raisins, dried apricots and a drizzle of honey for brekkie
Lunch shredded mixed salad with couscous and mackerel in spicy tomato sauce
Dinner, pan fried pork and mushrooms with sweet potato mash, brocolli and beans
Went to see Skyfall this afternoon, absolutely fab film didn't need and snacks!
Loving being back on top and feeling better by the day :0)
Busy day but home for three delicious homemade meals. Went shopping for all healthy meals ...cost less than I thought too which is a bonus!
Porridge with raisins, dried apricots and a drizzle of honey for brekkie
Lunch shredded mixed salad with couscous and mackerel in spicy tomato sauce
Dinner, pan fried pork and mushrooms with sweet potato mash, brocolli and beans
Went to see Skyfall this afternoon, absolutely fab film didn't need and snacks!
Loving being back on top and feeling better by the day :0)
lookingforme
Silver Member
Hi Gem!
Good news that you are seeing the road ahead clearer.
Skyfall what a mint movie...cant get the sound track out of my head.
Sadly i had snacks but can remember a day i wouldnt of and i long for its return so WELLDONE huni youve crossed that mind control line.
Sometimes the time just has to be right and you and hubby as a team will be on a roll im sure xx
Good news that you are seeing the road ahead clearer.
Skyfall what a mint movie...cant get the sound track out of my head.
Sadly i had snacks but can remember a day i wouldnt of and i long for its return so WELLDONE huni youve crossed that mind control line.
Sometimes the time just has to be right and you and hubby as a team will be on a roll im sure xx
RainbowRose
Gold Member
SO pleased to read you are firmly on that road to success Gem, well done hun x keep at it!
Thanks for the kind words guys...
Day Four
Another positive day, walking for 3-4 hours around Southampton shopping and then ikea..
Brekkie was herby scrambled egg on a wholemeal bagel topped with Parmesan cheese
Lunch was an open egg and prawn sandwich at ikea
Dinner was homemade sweet potato and chicken rogan josh - with naan bread
Its 8pm and only just sat down, so much for a holiday...but I have sweet potato ( tesco had a great offer on these this week! ) and fresh beetroot roasting in the oven for a salad on Friday.
It's hubby's birthday tomorrow and we will be going out to Beaulieu for the day and then off to see the ELO experience in the evening...total surprise for hubby!
We will be eating out all day but i will try to choose the best things on the menus, probably a big breakfast, very light lunch and then a healthy dinner. Might not log in tomorrow.
Have a great evening folks x
Day Four
Another positive day, walking for 3-4 hours around Southampton shopping and then ikea..
Brekkie was herby scrambled egg on a wholemeal bagel topped with Parmesan cheese
Lunch was an open egg and prawn sandwich at ikea
Dinner was homemade sweet potato and chicken rogan josh - with naan bread
Its 8pm and only just sat down, so much for a holiday...but I have sweet potato ( tesco had a great offer on these this week! ) and fresh beetroot roasting in the oven for a salad on Friday.
It's hubby's birthday tomorrow and we will be going out to Beaulieu for the day and then off to see the ELO experience in the evening...total surprise for hubby!
We will be eating out all day but i will try to choose the best things on the menus, probably a big breakfast, very light lunch and then a healthy dinner. Might not log in tomorrow.
Have a great evening folks x
RainbowRose
Gold Member
Have a lovely day and hope hubby has a great birthday x
..ooh love scrambled eggs..think I'll have some for lunch...yummy beetroot..a woman after my own heart!
..ooh love scrambled eggs..think I'll have some for lunch...yummy beetroot..a woman after my own heart!
Hope you enjoyed the scrambled eggs Rose :0)
..day five
Had a lovely day yesterday! Went out for brekkie to wetherspoons and had the trad breakfast not the large ...we drove into the new Forest which was beautiful with autumnal trees the colours were simply gorgeous . Beaulieu was lots of walking and entertainment where we stopped twice for breaks. I just had pots of tea and we shared a honey oat muffin at the first stop and then had a slice of cake each at the second. We then drove back to Bournemouth, lots more walking and scampi and chips for dinner with ice cream.....not the best choice and I have to say I didn't really enjoy it that much. After all the delicious flavours we've been eating at home recently it just tasted bland and greasy.
The ELO Experience were fantastic with a real party atmosphere so we were dancing in our seats a lot...if you get a chance, go see them, they are brill!
Got home after whole day out really shattered but slept very well and deeply.
Day 6
Woke naturally at about 7.30, caught up with a few friends online and then went swimming at 10am. I tried put my new prescription goggles which are brill and finally mean I can up my game and swim faster, yay!
Missed brekkie as wasn't very hungry and I'm just about to make some roast sweet potato and spicy soup for lunch. Gonna keep it nice and light today after a little over indulgence yesterday.
I have noticed a huge difference in my Attitude to using myfitnesspal recently, I think this is down to the pods. I'm not obsessional about counting the minutest detail as i used to be but using it as a tool to keep a general monitor on my activities and food on a daily basis. seems to be working as I don't see myself as on a diet, just back in the zone :0)
Got homemade sweet and sour chicken tonight for dinner...yum!
..day five
Had a lovely day yesterday! Went out for brekkie to wetherspoons and had the trad breakfast not the large ...we drove into the new Forest which was beautiful with autumnal trees the colours were simply gorgeous . Beaulieu was lots of walking and entertainment where we stopped twice for breaks. I just had pots of tea and we shared a honey oat muffin at the first stop and then had a slice of cake each at the second. We then drove back to Bournemouth, lots more walking and scampi and chips for dinner with ice cream.....not the best choice and I have to say I didn't really enjoy it that much. After all the delicious flavours we've been eating at home recently it just tasted bland and greasy.
The ELO Experience were fantastic with a real party atmosphere so we were dancing in our seats a lot...if you get a chance, go see them, they are brill!
Got home after whole day out really shattered but slept very well and deeply.
Day 6
Woke naturally at about 7.30, caught up with a few friends online and then went swimming at 10am. I tried put my new prescription goggles which are brill and finally mean I can up my game and swim faster, yay!
Missed brekkie as wasn't very hungry and I'm just about to make some roast sweet potato and spicy soup for lunch. Gonna keep it nice and light today after a little over indulgence yesterday.
I have noticed a huge difference in my Attitude to using myfitnesspal recently, I think this is down to the pods. I'm not obsessional about counting the minutest detail as i used to be but using it as a tool to keep a general monitor on my activities and food on a daily basis. seems to be working as I don't see myself as on a diet, just back in the zone :0)
Got homemade sweet and sour chicken tonight for dinner...yum!
