Nova
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Hey:wave_cry:
I was just thinking this morning that if I added up all the weight I had lost on various VLCD's since 2005, I would probably be a healthy weight by now :sigh:.
ANYWAY... I Started Exante on Monday, and wanted to come and say Hi. I have previously done Liptorim, CD, All about W8, CD lol you get the picture. What attracted me to Exante this time was the price to be honest, oh and the online thing, I'm fed up of going to the GP begging and feeling like a faliure with CD counsellor etc. I don't do well with appointments etc, I have anxiety issues and things like that put stupid amounts of pressure on me, that is totally irrational of course, like anxiety itself.
So this time it's just me, and no one to answer to but myself. My OH is fed up of hearing about VLCDs, just smiles and nods, and hands over the money so he doesn't get accused of not being supportive!!
We have moved to the other end of the country with OH's work, it has been a hard old slog, MiniNova has had trouble settling in school (he is autistic, in mainstream with no statement as yet, ie a bloody nightmare), HubbyNova has had just as much trouble settling in with his new work, and I've been trying to hold everything together....and have been sinking fast...
So it's time to get some sort of control back.. I've been binging since July and was getting scared by how reckless I was being.. I was just eating and drinking complete and utter rubbish! I was feeling out of control with everything, so need to get some control back and fast...
Day 4 today, and I'm not really struggling, I've done it that many times I know what the score is. I usually get to 1st 10lbs off and then fall off the wagon for some reason, have no idea why, but it seems to be a massive psychological barrier for me. I was soo aggitated last night in bed, I was sat thinking and it suddenly dawned on me that I have no Idea how to relax, comfort or even placate myself without food and drink. Really sad and quite scary.
If I am going to suceed this time, I need to explore these feelings, and I am hoping to do this here. I hope by exploring them I can help myself and maybe others, and try and figure out just why I do this, and find strategies to help me live a healthier lifestyle, not only physically, but mentally aswell...
Call it my own therapy ,
Hope you will join me for my ride )
I was just thinking this morning that if I added up all the weight I had lost on various VLCD's since 2005, I would probably be a healthy weight by now :sigh:.
ANYWAY... I Started Exante on Monday, and wanted to come and say Hi. I have previously done Liptorim, CD, All about W8, CD lol you get the picture. What attracted me to Exante this time was the price to be honest, oh and the online thing, I'm fed up of going to the GP begging and feeling like a faliure with CD counsellor etc. I don't do well with appointments etc, I have anxiety issues and things like that put stupid amounts of pressure on me, that is totally irrational of course, like anxiety itself.
So this time it's just me, and no one to answer to but myself. My OH is fed up of hearing about VLCDs, just smiles and nods, and hands over the money so he doesn't get accused of not being supportive!!
We have moved to the other end of the country with OH's work, it has been a hard old slog, MiniNova has had trouble settling in school (he is autistic, in mainstream with no statement as yet, ie a bloody nightmare), HubbyNova has had just as much trouble settling in with his new work, and I've been trying to hold everything together....and have been sinking fast...
So it's time to get some sort of control back.. I've been binging since July and was getting scared by how reckless I was being.. I was just eating and drinking complete and utter rubbish! I was feeling out of control with everything, so need to get some control back and fast...
Day 4 today, and I'm not really struggling, I've done it that many times I know what the score is. I usually get to 1st 10lbs off and then fall off the wagon for some reason, have no idea why, but it seems to be a massive psychological barrier for me. I was soo aggitated last night in bed, I was sat thinking and it suddenly dawned on me that I have no Idea how to relax, comfort or even placate myself without food and drink. Really sad and quite scary.
If I am going to suceed this time, I need to explore these feelings, and I am hoping to do this here. I hope by exploring them I can help myself and maybe others, and try and figure out just why I do this, and find strategies to help me live a healthier lifestyle, not only physically, but mentally aswell...
Call it my own therapy ,
Hope you will join me for my ride )