poppygreendog
Silver Member
Day 2
Hello everyone
I've been on CWP so many times I've lost count. Something kicks you up the butt and for me it was seeing my daughter-in-law's facebook status 2 weeks ago that said 'happy 5th wedding anniversary to my gorgeous husband' - essentially what that means is that I been friggin around with CWP including 1 go at LL for 5 and a half years, I was devastated, gutted, disgusted in myself and most of all ashamed.
So, this WILL be my last journey, I WILL complete the journey and I will work back up the plans to ensure that I never have to do this again! I've written a list of all the reasons why I want this, I'm old enough to know that weight loss doesn't make you a happy person and I know that I need to look inside myself and deal with the issues I have with food, hopefully 12 weeks of SS with no cheating will give me that time.
So a week ago I went to my long suffering CDC (poor woman) who despite all my messing has remained completely supportive. I told her I wouldn't start until after the bank holiday, my last binge I suppose and we had a long standing bbq planned (I know another excuse but...) I intended to go back to basics so ordered a range of products including porridge :yuk: what is that stuff and came home.
Started yesterday and it went something like this:
brekkie - porridge pecan variety - yuk
lunch - choc tetra (my mainstay) - yum
tea - fruits of the forest shake - yuk
hmmn I thought not good - but hey I thought how bad could the original porridge be!
Day 2 - today has gone something like this:
Brekkie - original porridge - yuk! yuk yuk yuk!!!!
(quick text to CDC to see if I could swap everything I'd ordered for the beloved choc tetra - appointment made for 7pm this evening).
Lunch - lovely tetra
tea - lovely tetra
Water is going down a treat and I'm a happy girl, bit of a headache and my mouth already tastes tinny so I'm hopeful for ketosis soon. I'm trying hard to be realistic, I usually have a great loss in the first week and then it drastically slows. I'm ok with that, as long as its moving down its moving in the right direction.
enjoying reading your diaries and hoping to get to know some of you better over the coming weeks.
Bed soon - I work in London live in Kent and am too old for 5am starts without enough sleep.
Night for now.
PGD x
Hello everyone
I've been on CWP so many times I've lost count. Something kicks you up the butt and for me it was seeing my daughter-in-law's facebook status 2 weeks ago that said 'happy 5th wedding anniversary to my gorgeous husband' - essentially what that means is that I been friggin around with CWP including 1 go at LL for 5 and a half years, I was devastated, gutted, disgusted in myself and most of all ashamed.
So, this WILL be my last journey, I WILL complete the journey and I will work back up the plans to ensure that I never have to do this again! I've written a list of all the reasons why I want this, I'm old enough to know that weight loss doesn't make you a happy person and I know that I need to look inside myself and deal with the issues I have with food, hopefully 12 weeks of SS with no cheating will give me that time.
So a week ago I went to my long suffering CDC (poor woman) who despite all my messing has remained completely supportive. I told her I wouldn't start until after the bank holiday, my last binge I suppose and we had a long standing bbq planned (I know another excuse but...) I intended to go back to basics so ordered a range of products including porridge :yuk: what is that stuff and came home.
Started yesterday and it went something like this:
brekkie - porridge pecan variety - yuk
lunch - choc tetra (my mainstay) - yum
tea - fruits of the forest shake - yuk
hmmn I thought not good - but hey I thought how bad could the original porridge be!
Day 2 - today has gone something like this:
Brekkie - original porridge - yuk! yuk yuk yuk!!!!
(quick text to CDC to see if I could swap everything I'd ordered for the beloved choc tetra - appointment made for 7pm this evening).
Lunch - lovely tetra
tea - lovely tetra
Water is going down a treat and I'm a happy girl, bit of a headache and my mouth already tastes tinny so I'm hopeful for ketosis soon. I'm trying hard to be realistic, I usually have a great loss in the first week and then it drastically slows. I'm ok with that, as long as its moving down its moving in the right direction.
enjoying reading your diaries and hoping to get to know some of you better over the coming weeks.
Bed soon - I work in London live in Kent and am too old for 5am starts without enough sleep.
Night for now.
PGD x